XMAS EVE, MAGICAL NIGHT

exciting gift exchange! love my prezzie siong!!!

the huge xmas tree at vivo

in white dog cafe.. nice ambience there

my food!!!

aint no moutain high enuf! hahah. add together the 2 SHANS!

the 4 of us @ vivo's roof park


frenz forever!! gave these to my 3 dears ^^

ME n Siong!

the 2 SHANS


3/4

strangers.

im an easy going person, and i sincerely love to make friends..BUT. if i sense "danger", or i feel stressed. don't blame me, coz i seriously seldom, rarely block pple...

unwritten.

too many thoughts sometimes,
too many things i have in mind
a silent facade, hiding whts thundering inside of me.
so i guess, its best to leave many things unsaid..
and untouched.
may it be forgotten.

untitled

the white portrait
scarred by that fine line,
the fine line that could not erased.
later the artist came.
he painted colours, he filled the whites
but deep down he knew,
that all these, were merely a facade,
a disguise, such that no one could tell
what was within, what was hidden.
this beautiful disaster, a secret,
shared only by the artist, and perhaps,
the person that gave the paper its first touch.

the paper became a vibrant one,
surfacing as a colourful portrait,
the differents paints used by many artists.
each came and painted their way on the landscape.
each came and left.
the picture became history
people grew sick of it,
colours fading,
there it stood on its stand,
forgotten and lost.
lost in reality,
lost in its own world,
lost in memory.
as the paints wear off,
the fine line, surfacing again.

they say, scars heal over time.
do they? it may be forgotten, temporarly.
but it creeps back to you now and then..
whenever dark comes, or whenever u're alone in a little room.
having the fear its going to be locked on you..

having the fear that you will be forgotten...
that no one cares if you're locked behind that door...
having the fear that your pain brings happiness to others.
that no one cares if you're crying out loud...

腳步偶爾還是會沉重。。

时间，飞速而过。。真得太快了。
转眼间，我这个窝已经快待了七年。
墙上的漆，被粉刷过，一次又一次。
而记忆，也一次又一次的被更新，被粉刷。。
但最底层的那部分，也从来没消失过。
而只是被那一层层的保护色掩盖着。
没错，我是比从前快乐，好多好多。
谢谢了。我的朋友们，带给我那么好的回忆。
真的，小女子在这向所有真心对待我的每一位致谢。

一转眼，2008 就要来了。。
新学期也会带着它一切的压力与负荷，
压抑着每位学生。。。
这种压力。。必须自己去体会，才会知道。
真的不容易。。。
在我说这得当下，可能会被十年后的我，当成儿戏。。
因为，十年后的我，会有不能预知的烦恼和问题。。。
也许，现在的经历对以后的我，比起来，只是皮毛。。
但这一切的切。。。 还算远。。。十年，很远。。

这条漫长的路，虽然艰辛，虽然坎坷，但我也看到人的阴暗面。。
我也学会相信，学会依赖。。甚至， 有时还会忘记从前的孤胆，使怎么熬过来的。。
我太依赖了吗？

我的感情观念也变了许多。。
算是满多的。。　但我清楚之道的是。。
自己不能相信，不能依赖，不能衬托。。。
我想，这算是逃避，也算是让自己，不要上的那么深。。。

爱怎会输给了时间。
我的耳边，在听不见。。
我以为永远不会变
最习惯的明天见。。。　
心会受伤，也能复原。。

秀盈。记得，不要太轻易相信。。。

ESCAPE

it was a day of fun and excitement at the escape theme park yesterday. went out with jac, faith, stella, meixuan and qing. it was their 7th annivasary thus the tickets were only sold at 7 bucks! huge deals huh. anyway, tried the wild and wet thingy for my first time... was worrying and feared for nth, coz afterall it was fun. mx was screaming even more than me la. haahah. yup, everything was fun. and we took the revolving space thingy for like 5 times till it close... it was really heaven up there. it was like an addiction for me and jac... and one thing about escape was the height limit... .omgosh.... those pple were just carrying the pole around measuring my height can.... gahhh... but i think the height limit for the go kart thing shld be higher... coz apparently.. i had some difficulty stepping on the accelerator and the brakes... and.. omgosh, it was the worse thing tt happened throughout the hols.. i was coming down at high speed from the slope.. and i lost control of the steering wheel and crashed right into the curb.... caused a rather major jam there... the impact was sooo huge.. i cant even turn my neck... and my chest is in some major pain right now.... no idea wht to do... doctor or not...? coz my mum told me this before i left: " don't play until here pain there pain come back complain to me.".. yupp.. so i cant let her know... and... gahhhh.... worried! hahha. paranoid?! i dunno, but it hurts la... call me "gu niang" ba... (well, im a gal! ) ...... ok.. lemme sink in my own worries.. so long!!! CIAO~

CHANGES. BLACK OR WHITE

the conductor came back yesterday, bringing back his weirdness along as well. there were huge changes made in the choir. pple went from A2 to S1, S to A.. but alto became rather sympathatic... sighhss... ..

complicated

the world is no longer as simple, no longer as innocent. smiles are no longer smiles, laughter no longer laughter. i don't wanna belong, don't wanna be in disguise, leen's staying here, staying in this plain world with only warmth and love and laughter.... is this possible????

BLOG DIVIDED.

i know you guys are like super anti chi. hahha, so emo stuffs in chi, so tt u guys wun be affected.. =DD

emotions overload

I DON'T WANT TO FEEL HURT. DON'T WANT TO BREAK THAT EASILY. I JUST WANT TO BE LOVED.

FUN and MOREE FUN

hahha, this is gotta be a really short one, "like me". hahah. today's daddy's birthday!!! =DD just came back from getting the cake for him from breadtalk. and today is really a tiring one, aches all over, all thanks to mahjong the whole night and the killing games at sentosa from morning till evening, yesterday was really hectic. went to karen's birthday party with some of the choir pple and my other friends =D. saw his lil bro, omgawd. so damn cute la! and her niece too!!! the choir outing was not as bad as expected. kinda fun, and me being the super blur one lost in the pig game and had to do a forfeit of getting a guy's no. the monkey game and the captain's ball match was really tiring... and throughout the whole thing, my nose was attacked twice.. >< hahha, poor nose, i knw i needa nose job, but this wasnt much of an effect huh... hahhaa!! i held the monkey position for damnnn long until someone was nice enough to let me rest. lols. legs now aching like shit!!! only me and elaine stayed over for the chalet, played mahjong with the J2s, learnt loads of new stuffs. haha, dint knw mahjong required so much knowledge. =D thankew!

last of all... before i go off... HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!!

COOKING FRENZY

just like wht my title suggest, been learning how to cook (properly) hahah, not just instant noodles or fried eggs. yupp! my mum's still very nervous about me cooking, afraid that her muddleheaded clumsy daughter will turn her kitchen into ashes. so far cooked 2 complete meals for myself and my parents. hahaa, not too bad worr, can consider taking up cooking for further study. who knows, someday in the future, i'll be Head Chef Chia (HCC??!! ) in some reknown hotel. hEEEEE =DDD

ELAINE HERE U GO

haha, elaine, u told me to write about you. LOL. yupp. so we (Amanda,leen<3, Faith) went to "visit" this nearly-perfect-skin girl at gap in vivo. shes working there now, so if u have time, drop by vivo to say hi to the poor soul... shes earning only like 6 per hour ( woops, i realise i'm poorer...negative earnings) had lunch at food republic during her lunch time.. shopped in the first level till 5 plus and in conclusion, i so crowning faith as the jacket woman. hahah, seriously, shes simply a jacket magnet. hahaa. not to mention i got a white jacket for myself as well. =DDD its really pretty.... its been quite a long time since we came out, yupp. so had quite a bit of fun yest. and my mum was in a good mood thanks to my DS. hahhaa. AND!!! im not a xiao nv ren!!!! pink is just a nice colour la!!... hahha =P

ALIVE!

greetings y'all!!!! aint that a miracle, my blog came alive. finally, after several naggings and rantings from my dear friends. i think if i were to kill this blog again, they're gonna make ma write "i am a lazy blogger" a thousand lines. hahhaa. anyway, this blog is going to be all about my life, my thoughts, simply just me, so feel free to tag and come often!!!!! =DDD thankew all readers!! ^^

DEAD

i hereby announce the death of this blog.
R.I.P
p.s. charges for the murderer :: sentenced to revamp this poor blog.
hahha, kinda light for me???
well, i'll try to be not so lazy.. >< (i forgot the no. of times ive said this.. man.... im the laziest person in the whole wide world, nua-er den desdemona and the willow trees )

shi ke er zhi.

適可而止。 我不想再儅啞子了！！
從今天起，我會說不，我不會在是以前的我。在也不會是那個處處讓人的小女人。
所以不要感到訝意，因爲我受夠了。

PW!!!

such a lame thing, hahhaa, PW OP first dry run just ended for our group... =DDD ok lar, not as bad as expected, but not as good, haha, brought me back to the times of the WITS team, hahhaa... (student empowerment, i rmbed this drove us crazy. the damn fishbone. ) but somehow, i prefer wits to this damned PW lar... gahhhhhXD hahha. right. anyway, sorry my dears. hahaha, wanted to blog about the wonderful sweet 17 but the blogger sorta cocked up and DIDNT save my post, so.. yeah, nonetheless, thankew pple!!!! =DDDD loveesssss... mwahahhaa.....

borui, shoosh. LOL.. lester answering his qn right now. hahhaa!!! lame shits pw.. jiayou anyway..to all who are doing pw. jiayou!! for those taking Os, jiayou all the more!!! and As pple also.. hahhaaha

<3<3<3

terrible

i just feel terrible. sorry pple, for spreading my downess to everyone.... i knw its not wht leen shld do... but... i m seriously in a terrible state, terrible person i am.. so i shld stop being so terrible and bring more joy to the peeps.... laughs out loud.... ok. leen stop being so immature and throwing tantrums....

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secret

不能说的秘密
冷咖啡离开了杯垫我忍住的情绪在很后面

拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见

最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐
回忆的画面
在荡着秋千梦开始不甜

你说把爱渐渐 放下会走更远
又何必去改变已错过的时间
你用你的指尖 阻止我说再见
想象你在身边 在完全失去之前

你说把爱渐渐 放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋 这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很后面

拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见

最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 Woo~
回忆的画面
在荡着秋千梦开始不甜

你说把爱渐渐 放下会走更远
又何必去改变已错过的时间
你用你的指尖 阻止我说再见
想象你在身边 在完全失去之前

你说把爱渐渐 放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们会遇见
只让我们相恋 这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡







一次又一次，
一而再，再而三，
爱错，是怪天的残忍，
还是自己的愚蠢。

一而再，再而三，
看错，是怪你的掩饰，
还是自己的盲目。

我，还是如以往，轻易感动，轻易落泪。
让一切的脆弱，赤裸裸的摆在众人面前，
让他人轻易的摧残，惯性的嘲讽。

TAGGED

List out your top 5 birthday presents you wish for (hint hint...haha...):
1. CLOTHES! ( i've got a super bad wardrobe)
2. A GOOD PASS FOR PROMOS. ( GOD, u heard this?? hahha)
3. MY "H" (Cupid!! catch that??!)
4. a wallet?! coz mines in pieces, my bro's getting one for me, i hope, hahaha
5. A HUGE LIFESIZE TEDDY!! hahaha.. ( nt the grizzy bear kinda life size la! )


1. The person who tag you is?
Branson

2. Your relationship with her is?
4I 2006' classmates

3. Your 5 impressions of her:
-interllectual
-smart
-sensitive?
-nice! hahhaa, he gave us free mindchamps tutoring! ( and amirah as well. haah)
-someone who treasures friendship.

4. The most memorable thing she had done for you?
Hmm. I think its the mindchamps thing la, even tho i dun really apply it now, hahah! but still, thanks!!

5. The most memorable words she had said to you?
Hmmm. harlo?! HAHA!! coz everyone says that, but i seriously have no particular sentence in mind. hah

6. If he becomes your lover, you will?
hmmm, i guess i'm losing faith towards guys man, hahaha!

7. If he becomes your lover, things he would have to improve on will be?
hahah, i still dunno u tt well actually! haha..despite knowing u for like more than 2 yrs alrdy!!

8. If she becomes your enemy, you will?
i'll set dogs on you, ( i think tts the freakest thing man, i doubt i'll even dare go near it to set it lose. hahah!)

9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
you killed my parents. HAHAHA... ok, i just made tt up, u wun right?! haha!

10. The most desired thing you want to do for her now is?
yes yes, every single soul i knw better promote! and esp you too! hahaah

11. Your overall impression of her is?
nice, talking more, smart,... hahaha!

12. How you think people around you would feel about you?
eew, shit face! hahah!! stupid shorty etc etc... ( woops, elaine, pls sensor this, u aint seeing anything babe. lol)

13. The character i love most about myself is?
haha, my super natural power : freeze. i cant take part in icebreaker games. LOL

14. On the contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
sadly...i hate myself...can't bring about to love myself as well, man, we're so on the same boat. but most imptly, hate the inferiority complex in me, everyone tells me im not as bad as i described myself to be, but, its just.. u knw, inferiority!

15. The most ideal person you want to be with is?
sighs, my mr right, cupid is taking supeerrrrrrrr long, waiting and waiting for ages. (no more Ls. pls. hahah!)

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:
omg, such an emotional topic, yes, i love all of you to bits, MUACKS!!! always being there, my beloved choir!!! support's very impt! haha, vocal wise and in the mind. and my lovely 0732 too, and my jiemeis and guys from 4I! hahaha... you pple rock, huge thanks for being ard, treasure and appreciate it shit piles. hahah!

17. For people whom i've hurt:
erm, if i do hurt u in anyway, sincerely i apologise, aherm, and i shld stop being so mean to "B" hahhaa. woops =X sorry if there was anything said or done that you pple out there feel uncomfortable, disturbed or feared of... so very sorry!

18. Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel bout you:
In no Order of Merit:::
1. BRANSON. u are tagged back! hahaha
2. Elaine
3. Amanda
4. Mushi
5. Jackson
6. Elvis
7. Tab
8. Jac
9. Xin Ying
10.LAO PO

please note, if you intend to do this quiz, i advice you to fill in the ten names before you proceed with your reading! Its no fun otherwise.]

1. Who is no.6 having a relationship with?
hahah!! my BRUTHER..

2. Is no.9 a male or female?
hahah, definitely a gal.. LOL

3. If no. 7 and 10 are together, would it be a good thing?
HAHAH! omg, both are my precious, cant bear to put em together, i want all of em to myself! hahah

4. How bout no. 8 and 5?
HAHAH!!! cool, both Js, both tall pple.. LOL.. why dint i think of tt??!!

5. What is no.2 studying about?
4 H2s!! LIT, HIST, MATH , CHEM

6. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
today?!?! hahaha

7. What kind of music band does no.8 likes?
uh oh, sorry jac dear!! got no idea wht kinda music u like!! tell me next time k?!?!

8. Does no. 1 has any siblings?
yupp. i think so?! hahaa. if i dint rmb wrgly

9. Will you woo no.3?
errr.. no, we are not CROOKED too..

10. How bout no.7?
haha, we love each other too much, dun have to woo.. LOL

11. Is no.4 single?
duhhh.. LOL.. its written all over his face, hahah.. dun shock me mush. LOL

12. What is the surname of no.5?
SEAH! hahaa.. chinese is XIE! LOL

13. What is the nickname of no.10?
turtle, lala, angela zhang shao han, lao po.. LOL... dun really knw leh, i just call her lao po..

14. What is the hobby of no.4?
haha, composing, writing essays?! do u call tt a hobby? lOL...graphics design, blogs interface, omg, u do too many things!! haaha..

15. Do no.5 and 9 get along well?
hahah, dun realy knw, in the same choir, but rarely talk i think, LOL!

16. Where is no.2 studying at?
duhh.. where i am, NY. LOL

17. Talk something casually bout no.1?
cool, smart, quite silent at times.

18. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
jac dear,....... u wanna lemme try?! HAHA~ jacs freaking out now..

19. Where does no. 9 lives?
SENGKANG!

20. What color does no.4 likes?
uh-oh, PURPLE!! hahaha!! everyone loves purple! no la.. hahha.. only me. mush is definitely not a fan or purple, well, even tho ur phone wall paper was.. or issit still the same?! haha

21. Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
They've never met...so how to be best friends..?

22. Does no.7 like no. 2?
they never met too,but both are lovable pple, so i believe they can clique quite well too.. hah.. we are very socialable pple kayss..

23. How did you get to know no. 2?
Haha...simple...she's in my class...

24. Does no.1 has any pets?
errrr... i dun think so?!?! hahaha! do u?!!

25. Is no.7 the most sexiest person in the world?
i think she is self proclaimed sexy., HAHAH!! ok tabss!! u are sexay princess!! HAHA!

time

阴霾慢慢收回，
温暖陷入缝隙。
那瞬间，撕破层层云端
闯进我复杂思绪，
闯进我的秘密基地。

这幸福之徒，
唯你专署，
谁胜谁负，
这场游戏。
谁是生命中，
我的最佳代言。

这幸福画图，
为你描述，
添上彩色
带点羞涩，
谁是生我命中，
最佳的探险。

liberated

1 mth not too long ba.. hahaha, at least not more than 1 mth?! LOL... okie, leen stop being so bai chi next time, u stupid bai chi... HAHAHA!!!!

yupp... and people im out of it, so dunid to ya knw... create fusses le.. YAY =D thanks hong guang n stella! LOL!!! =D and many others who suffered my rantings..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIN

HAPPYBIRTHDAY EEYIN!!! (: (: (:

ok, yay!!! today's very eventful, too many things to write about, yi yan nan jin, so i just write an ultra short one and i can concentrate fully le (:

hehe.. yupp!!! so, i guess feelings not so kao de zhu de... =D at least i knw it now..not too late.. (:

blogs dying soon

quick short one before i leave for tuition.. hahha, chen lao shi is superrrr egoistic and confident, and elaine wrote something in my book to ask me to learn from her.. HAHAH! sorry.. but i'm like super retarded and grotesque.. LOL.. okok.. i rock... LOL!!! yes.. i shld start changing to things like, "oh good leen" love you to bits.. hahah!!

today SEA totally is like lost in my own world, coz i havent read a single thing.. but wow.. i finally understood wht IH means alrdy!!! hahah! i love IH! oh mr pck, i wun disappoint u n ih this time round... (: JIAYOU fellow historians.. LOL!

other than tt, today's rather mundane...

joke of the day: " you're asking for rough paper? sorry, dun think i have, only got smooth ones.."

hahha.... shivers shivers...

ok! ciao pple!!!

LOVES!!

dom!!

walking to school alone is bored de, even if me n dom not talking, but still not so bored.. HAHAH!!! but ok la... just dun rain like that day can ler.... and i finally knw wht bus to take!!! 22!!!!!! i lost my way once taking the bus, so i was afraid to take it alone.. hahah!! but thanks tsu hui!! LOLS!!!!

ok... da bai chi, lemme go back to history!!! HAHA!! ( not history as in the past la.. lols)

PEEL

hellos people, i should attempt to type in proper English as much as i can remember to. Practicing to use the PEEL format that Mr L. Mao taught us today. Not today actually, its some time back when he taught us this, but apparently, i wasn't awake to catch what he taught. Laugh out loud.

ok, forget it, i think i've written enough history short essays to get my brain working now. and omg, its super dark when i walked to station today, highly paranoial. i shocked my self my accidentally blasting the song over my earphones, i got a SHOCK. hahah. i think the 2 gals behind me find me weird. LOL! and, the poor mouse, RIP. its sooo poor thing can, its like trying to escape and squeezing into the drain, but it got stuck and it just died there. OMG, such a shock in the morning. sighss... the "mouse track" is scary yet tragic... ( tragedy = Othello) LOL...

phew, i thought i was really really really slow on GE, luckily i said smth not so near the beginning chpts. i cant express myself verbally that well, i really can write better than talk, even tho my writing is not very amazing, like totally not...

hahaha... i looked into the mirror n screamed grotesque again!!! LOL!! and thanks lao po, guess i was drained from the past few days of laughing and craziness... its quite tiring smtimes , and today lao po made the effort to make me laugh again, really appreciated it... HAHA! the swing needs some oiling... i miss it man!! HAHA, and too bad no stars tonight, cant enjoy it together... friday ba! hahaha ( making assumptions tt u can stay.. ) i think we really needed the half and hour a day talk at the swing.. LOL!! we can make it longer aft promos u knw... LOL!!!

dint see him today, to be happy or not!? i knw not for now.... rarrrrrrr...

i still have 2-7 to do later, despite finishing 2-6, its scary... super long.......my hand was breaking by question 5..LOL!!

ok pple.. needa run alrdy!!!!! (: and pls tag, coz it looks like its dying.. LOL!!!!

=D JIAYOU

heart attack

pray that i can pass promos... sighs....
i knw its a blessing to take lit.. but im just afraid of the other h1s...
sighhss... and pck gonna screw me for failing hist again...
jiayou gal!!!

thanks laopo!!
love the swing man, thanks prev batches of students.. (:
NSP was quite productive, other den wasting too much time n energy with my 2-5 notes.. hahha! but managed to finish 2-5 finally, starting 2-6 soon, and mushi taught me a mtd to study hist, coz he see me study until he got pissed
lol! sorry!! thankew!!! and jia hao, omg,..... lame man... i thought i was paralyzed enough.. i think u dun have legs man.. HAHA.. more than just lame... u fish monger.. LOL!!!!

ok, its weird today, hahah.. was it on purpose to freak me out so that i will zhi nan er tui?? or was it to see me chu chou?? hahah!! free freak show! LOL...

and.. ok.. im looking more n more hamsterish.. even faith think i do look like one.. HAHHA

JIAYOU pple!!! =D =D =D

yawns pple..

tiring man.. reading great ex is a chore... not becoz of the small fonts like PnP la.. but.. its the writing tt makes u ponderlike every 2 sentences, so by the time u finish one page.. its like.. so many thoughts popped in to ur mind le... DRAINING!!!!

ohh...as usual, went to cp lib cafe to mug again... hahha.. i think i saw kaibin's classmate.. quite familar.... if its not den their features similarity is like 85% liaos. ok.. i think im really too shagged... this kinda things also go and trhink about.. HAHA!!! leen's crazy..

but i'm happy recently.. =D hahaa.. thanks!!! laopo!! u are like half of everything to me! LOL... sorry about the other half...

OOh!!!! HSM 2 is starting in like 10 min!!!! needa zhao...

hahaa... and i proclaim that i am seriously a kids magnet man.. LOL!!

JIAYOU J2s!! prelims tmr!!

JIAYOU J1s!! promos coming soon! =D

LOVE YA PEEPS =D

IR

HEY STONES!! and others doing pw... I/R reflection log must be handed in on MONDAY!!!!

sighss.. so dun like it man.. hahaha.. nonetheless.. jiayou!! ^^

yu dao

i am TAGGED

You Are Tagged!Rules of the game:Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end of the game, you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!:)

1) I sleep with lights on too!!! super afraid of the dark, hallucinating at stuffs in the dark, HAHA!
2) I am superrr terrified of being alone in an enclosed area, like store rooms, toilets, even classrooms, etc... so... please dun lock me up.. u'll prolly find me dead on the floor due to heart attack..my friend said this is some form of a psychological phobia... hahaha, this world is amusing..

3) haha! hi 5 jac!!!! i cant eat chili!!! =D my chicken rice is just chicken n rice. LOl!!! everyone who sees me eat confirm ask " like this also can eat? "
4) I'm a secret member of Fantastic Five. Super power: Freeze. hahah.. seriously, pple get all frozen up when they talk to me.. LOL ( my poor choir pple, classmates and jiemeis ... practically everyone suffer this "power" of mine.. LOL)
5) i need a bolster and a blanket to sleep. HAHA...but if im tired... i can even sleep when i'm standing... and i snore....
6) i'm always calling out to god... (omgod) i'm saying tt lesser alrdy, coz i think hes very busy!!! everyones calling out to him..
7) i cry super easily!!!! tears of laughter, joy, touch,sadness, loneliness, everything.. hahaha... i wet my laopo's shoulder soo much
8) I have a major stage fright. Esp. tt freaking audition... hahaha!!!! i nearly fainted before i got up on stage...

9) I think ALOT. about everything.... (Ask my wife about it. or even those who knws me long enuf.. HAHA)
10) i get high very very very very easily, esp when i laugh.... leen's blushing like everytime now... not very healthy. retribution i guess?! coz before this mth, i never blushed a single time... and poor jun xian (4I ) and siong, n xy. whos always blushing.... kanna teased by me.. LOL.. retribution!!!! sorry to those whom i teased, i finally understand ur plight!!! HAHAHA..i think last time i'm prolly bloodless ba! LOl!!!!

Following people are tagged:
1) Theresa
2) TAB
3) Pei Shan
4) Elaine
5) Amanda
6) Elvis


MUST WRITE THEM IN YOUR BLOG. I WILL CHECK.!

i love campus!!!!

HEYY pple!!!!! (: (: (: smiles smiles, leen reached school at 730 today... and its super lang bei bu kan de lor!!!! hahah... poor theresa also.. but, its worth it.. hahaha!!!! we dint get containers today even tho no one was using it... and u knw why??? coz its locked on saturdays!! omg... lao po and u dint tell me!!!!!!! maybe i'm just bai chi.. hahaha... my wife's complaining i'm influencing her to speaking in chinese... LOL. good wht, chinese rocks man... lol... ok larrr... i'll speak england too...vely powderful one.. HAHAHA!!!!! i forgot where i heard it from.. lols.. anyway.. my umbrella is sooooo not behaving properly today... it spoilt i think, long ago.. but i dint realise, coz the wind wasnt tt strong... my umbrella totally flipped the other way round, and,.. i ended up wetter than the umbrella!! Lols.... it was j2s C Lit paper today.. hahhaa... no wonder they came so early....

was doing Great Ex the whole day, my reading improve le.. prolly becoz i was more focused on my reading today.. LOL..finally analyzed parts of wht i read and could.. hahah! not bad la... Pip is soo mean... gonna chiong history later, if not i'm sooo screwed for kellet's lesson.. hahah!!!! yupp!!! (: me n lao po went to the fitness corner.. hahaa.. i love tt place, so given that the weather is sooo nice and chilly with fragments of sunlight peaking through the clouds... we laid on the sit up "benches"(coz we were seating on it like benches) haha. and... we were trying to do our work... managed to read quite a bit, and finally, i dozed off.. literally fell asleep.. hahah..thanks lao po..for not waking me up.. hahah! she said she see me sleep until lidat bu she de wake me up... omg... my shui xiang so chou la!!! were you laughing like crazy?! hahaha.. i asked the same question again.. everytime i wake up.. did isnore?? LOL.. she said.. abit larr... thanks uh lao po.. too nice to me le... HAHAH!!! i'm a pig man.. lol.....

and.. i think im getting man-lier... even theresa said so.. we want each other's arms.. LOL.... im muscular de lor.. LOL!!!! for my size la.. hahha... i'll try to be more girl ba.. hehe... (^:^) >>> newly invented by the not functioning brain.. HAHAHA

JIAYOU pple!! ( selfish me, giving away my oil so tt i'm so fat.. LOL.. but like not going anywhere lehh.. keep increasing only.. LOL)

(: (: (: stay happpyyy!!! have fun amidst mugging ba.. HAHAHAAA..

HELP HELP

hahah.. im changing my blogskin soon!!! i stumbled upon a very nice skin.. its a green template but the artist sort of created a few other colour formats.. but we have to manually change it ourselves.. and i dunno how!! anyone knows how to change the colours??? LOL.. im so not IT savvy.. hahha..

recently been rather high.. hahha!!!!! u can tell from all the hahahs. i think im noise pollution in the canteen... and!!!! argghhh... i came to sch at 8 yest( early) thinking i might be able to get a container for the choir gang... BUT!!! all booked la!! grrr... so i was very bu fu qi... and i decided to come earlier today.... so i reached sch abt 730... thinking, so early.. confirm got places one.. but!!!! na li zhi dao, all booked again!! by the same grp of pple la!!!!!!!!!! and..poor jun xian, he reach earlier than me like.. 7?! he was very bu fu qi also.. hahha!! i understand! actually Kaibin msged me about it when i alrdy reached SR mrt.. yeahh..so abit too late le... TMR I'LL GO SCHOOL AT 6!!!! hahaha.. no la..crazy... go so early... i might as well go CP lib cafe.. LOL.....

okayy... today was YAY.. coz i finished 10A hahah!! and embarking on 10B... thanks mr tam!! LOL.. he came all the way down to canteen for me.. lols.. coz i went ard the sch looking for him..yupp... im going to do Victor a nice favour by reading GE.. lol..ok.. not doing her a favour but myself la.. since im the one taking exams in the end... yeahh. must jiayou!! MUST PASS LIT!! if not dui bu qi zi ji... sighs... i shld have taken H2 chi, at least will be doing smth i enjoy. dumb dumb.... who ask me so stupid to fail prelim and end up in NJC??? (no junior college).. so i had no idea about JC curriculum and sub. combi.. LOL... so i ended up with this louya combi... haha. and theres only clement to pei me in this super weird subjects.. LOL... (history is reallyyyyy saiiiiii.. ) no offense PCK...

WOOPS... hahaha.. lameness acting up on me!!!!!! hahha..... im laughing like mad... LOL...


LOL....

siaoness...

JIAYOU......

byebyeeeeeeeeee

qiao yu

qiao yu's not so nice after all!! and theresa.. i dun agree with ur theory.. LOL... coz.. its bu ke neng de shi qing.. LOL..... OK.... i m still in school. ( i forgot smth!!! ) haha. nearly type smth wrong....
im rotting like no ones business... =D

you guys jiayou!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
petrol prices here is FOC de.. LOL....

kk.... i needa do my work le.. zai jian!!!!!!!!!

=D =D =D

尽在不言中

尽在不言中， 太多的感慨，不知道怎么表达。淡淡的忧伤在心里刮成龙卷风。风平浪静的外表，来掩饰心里被波动的心弦。。。 不知道会有如此的感觉。不知道会那么在意。。心在隐隐作痛，但能如何是好?? 怪只怪自己轻易动摇的坚定，轻易相信，轻易被人摆布。。 我就是这样的我，改变不了的我。。。。。。
也许就因为这样，伤，总是习惯性的一再对我开刀，让我血淋淋的身心，透过字眼，隐秘的泄露，我的不安，与寂寞。。

gan dong.

Quan shi jie de ren dou zhi dao

Hou hui

Kao jin yi dian dian

Yu Dao

lyrics lyrics

QUAN SHI JIE DOU ZHI DAO

E ZUO JU

PW!

and!! one more thing worth celebratin!!! our WR met all expectations in every criteria! WOOHOO!! way to go STONES!! lol.. whts wrg with stoning right?? we will strive de.. HAHHAA!!!! STONES ROCKS!!!! yupp.. and.. im so gonna go early to chope place at container.. yay-ness..! and i write n memorise at the same time... so...i dun have to refer to my sad-to-tears puny small words.. HAHHA..

Qing says my life's very happy becoz im always laughing.. hhahaha. amused by tt... LOL!! coz apparently... i've been thru quite a series of unfortunate events ( but not as unfortunate as many others la...) (and why m i complaining??!! ) ok.... god gave me quite a nice life, but a very negative character.. always thinking too much, using my brains wrongly.. LOL... yeahh... nvm that... i've learnt to thrown away my sad past thanks to my lovely frens now... (: yupp.. i LOVE all of you... HAHHA... i'll spread my happiness to everyone ba... LOL.. =D

ok.. ishld really go continue chionging.. BB!!!
CIAO!!!!!!!!!!
<3 LEEN

haiz

haizz... okay.. great... i'm sianed to go alone... bahhhhh.. i shld just REN and try to come to a peaceful settlement. haahah!!! one whole day of history can just brain wash u ya knw....
sighs.... canteen's really hot la!! cannot study there sia.... where got aircon de?? wht happen to our choir container??!! and i fell asleep twice in the 5th floor classroom.. but becoz its airconditioned and super quiet.. i managed to finish up my history notes (: i'm starting to rock.. OMG OMG OMG!!! and guess wht?!?!!! AFter soooo many Us for my math!!! finally.. sudden leap to A!!! hahaha.. it was an easy test la... so cant brag too much, coz i believed many others got A like easily too.. LOL.. yupp... motivation to mug on... hahaha.. and i feel so retarded again, today. LOL... thanks lao po!! for the encouragement note.. we really got telepathy, such a coincidence tt both of us had smth for each other!! LOL... LOVENESS!! (:

hmmmm, i thought i could make peace with everyone de, well, im trying my best alrdy..... trying to smile through everything, trying to bring joy to pple.... yeahh... i'll still continue smiling tho... and really sorry elvis!!!!!! ><

how how how???

this sad freak here has no study partner right now... grrr... and the hse is sooo not conducive in this period of time.. nice, thanks to bro, cold war tensions running high in the hse, US n USSR with no official conflict but dragged in many innocent countries (ME)for proxy wars... gosh.so history.. LOL... k.. im zooming off to RM LJS.. hahah BYEBYE!

豆子今天的心情。

豆子的忧伤，在滚烫的热水全被融化掉，换成香浓的酸甜，意味着那期待的滋味。。。

爱的酸甜，只能用心感觉。之间的暧昧，是过去的搁浅， 因为两人，找不到娟换爱情的条件。

kids (:

i have so much yuan fen with kids recently!! they are sooo adorable and once i say hi to em, they will just keep playing with u derh! hahha...theres one time, i wanted to study, as in really concentrating, den got this toddler, keep playing with me. haha.. then when i tried to ignore him, he was like staring at me beckoning me to play la. HAHA.. so ke ai!!!! =D and lao die, i am NOT pedo!!!! tsk! haha.. prolly my height made them think i'm part of em,LOL!!

ok, sorry pple, for my recent retardation, feeling very retarded recently. lol! today's mugging was at clark quay's starbucks, wanted to mug in library one, but my parents wanted to go clark quay for dinner, so, yeahh... went to mug there... and i think i made friends with the lady at the cafe in cp le lor.. haha!!!

die larr... must really pia for promos le, i feel so retainish now lor!! argggg.. wake up leen!!! adding oil for everyone but u urself still so slackish! ( my gosh, created so many random words, this is sooo bad for gp ) ok, retarded, talking to yourself.. hahaha! yay!!! mummy's getting me a wallet !!! daddy's getting me a crumpler!! (:(:(: YAYness.. lol... its still soooo long and im planning for my presents le. hahah! mean gal. but recently, doing quite a bit of history revision, my mindmaps, hahaha!!!! poor eyes, i'm destroying u day by day.... ok.. great... leen's talking to her eyes now.. HAHAHAAA..

sorry pple, im seriously retarded recently. anyway.. i will jiayou de!!! choir no one retained before! as in.. the present cohort.. hahah ( sorry zi jie! >< ok, u're not even reading this.. LOL) nvm, yeahh... so.. choir must jiayou~!!!! 0732 must jiayou too!!! ^^

cant wait for carolling~~ but the new conductor seems, hmmmm.. i dunno, got the feeling that choir's not gonna be the same anymore.. sighs.... if only...........

well. needa go chiong le.. hahaa.. zai jian ba!!

yawns

Heyyy my beloved people!!! =D went back school to study today..sorry lao po!! as i told u, i cant concentrate with u ard de... see wht happened today?! lol.. and sorry hong guang!! and yaya.. lol..kept laughing non stop esp when i looked at both of u.. you two are too cute le la!! hahaha... seriously... yepp...
mushi is crazy today... doing all the bengs stuffs. lol... ok.. maybe u're not tt beng aft all.. first impressions are not always right u knw.. hahah! and hou yuan has this very amazing thing to get videos.. and its super nice de.. hahah.. and... THERESA TAN HUI XIN!!!!!! u owe me one man... zhong se qing you!! hahaha... ok la.. i think i owe u alot also.. hhaha.. =D its okay... just go for it gal.. i support u de!!! ^^ i'm getting fatter..shld give away as much oil as possible..
and today.. 136 took super long... the pee queen had to hold her bladder for super long... >.<.. haha.. my phone nearly died on me today.. actually it did... but my bro miraculously revived it.. thanks bro!!! hahaa...

okie.. gt econs tmr... needa ciao, mummy cant sleep before i do.. as always.. hahha.. so ishall do her the huge favour and go sleep. LOL.... right..take care pple!! and beloved choir j2s, jiayou!! and my lovely j1s!! jiayou too! hahhaa... take loads of care of yourselves man... (: bye byeeeeeeeeee..

<3 from leen ^^

the wonderful, highly anticpated "Class outing"

hahha... teachers day at cvss was.. hmm... kinda boring.. coz theres loads of new teachers... but... the singers from cv was much better than those who sung in my school.. and i wanna praise azizi ( sorry.. its confirmed spelt wrongly.. hahah! ) and wen yu.. their zhuan shu tian shi.. and mind you guys.. [A]'s chinese pronounciation is much better than many of the chinese la! hahaha...

yeah... we took super long to decide whos going to movies and what time to go off.. so by the time we left school was... 3?! and by the time we reached there... no tix and its hyper crowded (town area) yepp.. so ended up..we took another 2 hrs to decide wht to do and who to do wht and where to go..finally.. gals n guys split up to do their own stuffs.. good thing tho.. hahaha

yeahh.. so the 4 pretty ladies plus this plain Jeen(pun intended. hahah) went to marina square for a buffet dinner! omg... its super nice.. the food there... hahha.. coz we cooked it ourselves... yepp, so the gals get to eat their sushi while i get to eat my rice.. hahha! i dunt eat sushi.. for the gazillionth time im repeating myself.. hahhaa... yepp... fan tong ate 2 bowls of rice plus so much other chicken, prawns blah blah blah.. hahha.. i think i ate 26.70 worth la... but poor just! u eat so little! my gosh... and u paid so much for it gal... hahaha.. i dunno why im laughing so much today... too many hahas.. just filter them if u dun wanna keep seeing the HAHAH.

okie.. i think i'll just put up the pix here.. (:

grrr

ok...after al the hassle, i finally came to this page, and i think i can make an absolute conclusion that, technology can really control our lives, take a closer look at our lifestyle now.... i believe u will agree with me, like totally.. hahaha

ciao! chinese class!

Title: Lonestar - Amazed lyrics

Artist: Lonestar


Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time, every time
I want to spend the whole night in your eyes

Chorus

Solo

Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you




i simply love this song ( thanks to xy for having it in ur phone! hahah)
totally in love.. hahhaa...
ok.. i did crazy things again....
but, im simply, addicted. to you.
(:

......

Math test on tues pple!! lecture test....

YAY... the secret... tmr!!!! (: (: (:

rather sadded todayy... hahhaa...

ok.. i dun sound sad at all...

hahaha... okiee... i just comprehended a lil puny bit of history... page 13 - 23.. nt bad la.. considered i never once understood a single word from the text before...

moving on to functions....

i better pass this test!!

jiayou!!!! ^^

i still love my pple..

i <3 NY!

hahahharrharrrrrrrrrrrrrr

七夕情人节

七夕情人节快乐。

我昨晚做了恶梦，也没有什么恐怖的东西。。。
最恐怖的，是你那张脸孔。。。
真的，足够让我不安。。

ok..这样说太坏了。。
哈哈，可是，我真的巴不得不要在见到他们。。

难怪老天爷对我那么好，让我和你巧遇那么多次，
原来只是让我吃点甜头而已。。。

ok 啦。。 现在在吃晚餐。
等一下在到starbucks啃书。。。
咳。。好悲阿。。

大家要加油哦!!
*特别是你。。*

hahaha (:

stupid GP spoiled my day.. but Lit brought me back (: and econs was utter failure.. but, cant do much abt it, i studied.. sighsss.. nvm

after lit.. we went to watch Agamemnon, it was soo hilarious and nice!!!! it was like based on modern context... yay...one of the plays ive enjoyed so far....
thanks yi xiang and si ying for the doughnut! (: yepp!!! faith and elaine are at my place now... sleeping over.. working over rather.. >< ooohhh. and the walk at clark quay with the gals was really fun.. hahaha (:

and.. the thing that turned me off the most was not gp or econs.. but bumping into them.... while we were on the way to clark quay, i met dom and the whole cv guys gang... which is not very pleasant.. same carriage somemore.. right beside us...
and.... the thing is... after everything.. while we were on our way home on NEL, saw them again la!!! omg.. and again.. same carriage... god u are so not helping me today.. sigghhs... guys are jerks.. ok.. no offense to the rest of the guys reading.. but.. yeah... i m so turned off by them... not like im a person of worth or in any position to criticize anyone.. but.... HE IS TOTALLY OFF THE LIMIT. based on wht he used to say n do... argghh... and... i feel sooo embarrassed and regretful to even be called his ex. grrrrr... its just soooooooooooo grossingly gross.... and announcing to the whole train didnt help at all...

i won't be surprised if i was so traumatized by guys i become homo la!

grrrrrrrr;...

hahhaa.. woops.. ok.. im giving the wrong idea that im very pissed off right now.. but not really la... not now..since i have faith n elaine here (: but just dint like tt situation just now.. so totally awkward.. and 2 of em cldnt take it and just keep saying jerks.. LOL.. damn funny.. thanks for standing up for me! (: but.. im not the i wanna fight kind... hehe (:

JIAYOU PPLE!!!!!

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

YES YOU

READING THIS.. HAHAHA

work work work

ok.. craziness.... if i went tuition today. i think i can just die on my door step when i reach home....

theres :
1) PW - WR
2) GP AQ
3) Econs test ( 3 esssays tmr )
4) chinese file
5) chinese worksheet

my ulces hurt like crap.. so sorry if i cant talk today and tmr...

jiayou pple!!!

emotions overload

too much stress....
my stress management level is super low...
and.. today was damn unlucky.. nothing went right...
i knew it the moment the day started.....

i broke. torn.
i cried. i screamed.
i dint use the knife, i fear blood....
i think i shouldnt do this too often...
i dun i think i will.
control.....
somehow... the monster just let lose...

too many Is in a stanza...
shows my self centeredness and selfishness....

i'm a huge mistake..

heyy pple!!!

hahahaa... i'm back home with tabsters like shes right opp me.. LOL..

ok..somehow.. the convo with wq reminded me of that stupid argh again...

hahha... but its ok... nt everyones like that...i hope.. i wish...

i prolly just dun have luck with guys....

like forever...

sighs...

aight..

work...

NOW!

my wretch is alive!!! hahaa.. and i dint realise so many pple actually use wretch... real shocker there.. hahahha .... stupid eom.. i realised i have been cursing it for the past few hrs... days rather...ever since PW stepped into my life.....

haiz... indulging in a lonely cup of coffee..

今天的味道,带点苦涩,苦涩中带点香甜....
淡淡的.但其中又有点浓郁....
我想,它,现在感应到我最内心深处的混乱,矛盾..
它,让我赤裸裸的.....
没有丝毫的保留或掩饰...

wheress tabbb????

uuhoooo tabster!!! cobwebs gathering over my head alrdy!!!!

hahaha...

my eom in a complete disaster....

i needa pee!!!!

highness

hahhahaa!! highness too!!!

theresa's like sooo lucky! hahaha(: good for u gal!

meeting tabsters dear later!!!

hahah.. quick post before i leave to bathe..

so not productive..

gotta die die finish eom later!!

and i mean.. die die....

i love my blog now....

hahahah...

our second sentence.. and... more to come ^^

im not asking for anything...

coz i knw its more than impossible..

i just want to say.....

i'll be a best friend..

the second greatest fan of your life....

天气太热了！

最近的天气是跨张的热！所以，冷功必须加强，你们就别怪我了，我是帮大家调低温度！还不感谢我！

我搞不懂，我是到底怎么了。

我想，擦肩而过，心也轻轻的被牵动。。

就这样，随着你的身影。。

圣母的湖边杨柳最适合不过我现在的心情了。。

晚安。我，入眠了。

从今以后。

空荡荡的房里，沉重的气息。
没有你的空气，在拥挤人群也感到孤寂。
最远的距离，不是隔岸两地，而是走不到的未来，看不见那道门后的风景。。。。。


we never know how happy we can be without feeling sad...
we dunno how satisfactory it can be when we never tasted unsatisfaction..

so... i think.. LIFE ROCKS... (if theres me ard.. hahha!!! )

ok ok. you guys stop puking.... i'll just take back my words. =.=

hahaha!! okie... brb later for more quick post

sooo long!!!!

farewell.

yest had national day celebration!! it seemed to be more of a chinese new yr celebration with all the lion dance and puglistic society stunts.. haaha.. well... my fav. banana man from PSS2 came and sang for us.. wow. dint knw he was from NY!! and my chi teacher was his CT?! hahah. im so amused. (why m i talking like 3sa?! ) ok... sorry.. i'll just get copyright from her.. yeah, back to the topic.. he sang damn well la! and Javin from CSS2 sang mo ri zhi lian with him.. wow. its like nice.. tot they wld spoil one of my all time fav. but,... great job!! ^^ yepp.. tt was prolly the main attraction.. OHH and before i forget to put in the teacher's item... lemme say... MMk was sooo cute n cool and... Ms Lyn. Poh's students.. do u guys believe it??!!!! she performed!! dancing n singing... like totally no link.. hahah! ok... i dint get to see her clearly coz of the pathetic corner we were squeezed into... but.. from wht my fellow econs classmates said... she was ... UNBELIEVEABLE! hahah. after the concert was GP lesson.. how nice.. LOL.. some of my 4 idealist went back to CV.. sighs... too bad i had the parade.. if not i wld have gone back too..!!

aft the whole thing, faith n angela came to my place.. faith was like dropping-dead-right-at-the-spot de situation... everyones really tired.. so we went back to take a nap before we go for the party... den.. ended up only me n lala sleeping.. and faith was like trying to scare me.. (As always.. lol)

the party was like a ktv session.. quite few pple.. expected much more... hahaha... i went home to grab a bag of my karaoke discs.. and 2 more mics for them.. .if not.. i think everyone will just be stuck singing fish leong the whole night... yeahh... but iwas quite tired n sianed to sing... and i dint eat much also.. kinda hungry.. but no appetite... took pictures and smiled so much tt my mouth was cramping.. hahaa... and jaymie set up her love-tell booth again.. haaha... Altos were like all crowding ard the table for her zhan pu..

she solved my greatest heart-affair!! and yes!!! i dont like him!!!!! but hes deeply in love with the other gal.. omg.. jaymie shi pro de.. coz everyone was saying theirs also very zhun... and... in that case... the prev time she did it for me... was also zhun den???!!! that means... i shld have just told him la... arggghhh... ok.. im just a ben dan... always letting chances slip by me... this kinda things are like so hard to come... but somehow.. i always have a knack for letting them go....

eileen!! just wake up and stop being so afraid!!!! ahahha.. jaymie told me not to be so afraid of everything also... ok.. maybe nt just her... hahaha.. yep... next time i wil zhen xi de la........

for my work.. theres like so much to do.. but i'll go chiong after this super long post... hahhaa... yepp.. i m locked at home.. in my small lil table.. my lil confined space.. i thought i cld have gone to cp.. maybe can scout for him there also.. hahaha... ok... stop daydreaming gal!

oh yeahh.. and yest was like super freaky la.. on the lrt... 2 indian men kept smiling at me... =.= i've got nth against indian men la.. but they are just simply smiling grossingly... like gonna rob or kidnap me lidat.. paranoial.. haaha.. dun blame me la... i said in the profile i think too much alrdy..

ok... i guess this is one of the longest post i even have in this blog.. so i shd buzz of and do my work alrdy.. tAta!

- 20 cents*-

stuck

totally stuck with lit right now..... so very sianned.. how to vomit out 3 pages!!!! brain dead... totally...

really tired

theres really so much work today, so one quick post before i start my endless night.

today i was really PMS-ing.. just don't feel right, especially in chinese class, where the passage we have to copy is just so friggin long.. and we ahd to write another 3-400 words!.. my nose was blockedat such a right time can.. and i was having the stupid cramps.. holding my bladder to complete the work.. and super hungry! everything was simply at the wrg time!! so i put up all my fringe and my classmates were thinking i was pschyed or smth.. hahhaa..
anyway.. thanks and sorry if you had to put up with my MSes.. hahha.. (:

haha.. went "shopping" with theresa.. and i begin to suspect myself!! since i've got such a loving wife.. LOL... yeah.. but.. no thanks. im gay.. i like guys (: hahaha..
but still lao po!! i love you like siao!!! ^^ and my other jiemeis and dearies (:

choir was ok today.. quite effective, coz i finally learnt the way and not know the things i need to do.. but how i can go about doing it.. like using singing voice.. i've been told upteen times tt i can even spout it in my dreams.. but i dunno how... but today.. was quite ok.. practiced in my bathroom.. i pity my neighbours.. sorry!!! hahaha..

yepp.. and tuition was tiring.. i fell asleep! in tuition.. and yanshan had to wake me up.. lol.. ok.. i shant sleep in tuition classes next time..

yay! hols coming soon!!! (:

jiayou guys!!!!

*sighs.. i dint see him recently.. not at the station even.. [pouts] *

moaning for all my school life..

too much tutorials!
too little time!
too little brain juice!
too little concentration..
too little energy......

sighss.... another 1.5 yrs.. tt is if i promote.. and i better i make sure i do...

yes... JIAYOU!! 0732 MUST PROMOTE TOGETHER!!!! (:

thugs.

hahah.. i was surprised by tt guy* lol...

ohh..n HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH MA!

flim fest

the chinese band was nice... in fact.. love the voices.. heart strings was reallyyy sweet! hahha (: rather emo tho.. lol... but the most impactful, was recurrence.. omg... its still haunting me right now.. very disturbed by tt show... yes.. VERY.. and wht did i just say i wanna do in my blog?? to be more yong gan.. (brave) look wht happened now =.=.. leen ahh leen... please stop being such a baby can?! i cant stand it ya knw?! anyway.. we got our first official class tee!!!rather tight for me... thought it could be the right size.. but.. hahha... hungry now.. haven had dinner... simplyhad no mood to go get dinner by my self...

pw later..
vivo city cip tmr..
sleep over tmr...
plus tons of tutorials... wow.. i love my weekend la.. =.=

insecurity.

feel misplaced and insecure sometimes...
but always feel loved by my dears(you knw who u are.. ^^)
thanks being ard (:

for now.. i needa rush off for tutorials!!!!
and... omg... dawnyang is drop dead gorgeous! yes... very..

我不想。。

我不想再那么脆弱，
不想轻易落泪。。
不想再毫无自信。
不想再是大家眼中的小女人而已。
我不想失去正在流逝的快乐。。
我不想因此放弃。。
我不想再绝望。。
不想失去那股热诚。。
不想，好多的不想。。
好多的泪水，好多的忧虑，
好多的谢谢，好多的对不起。。。

我，是个爱唱歌的我。
我，是个不会唱得我。
我，是个在五线谱遗失的音符。

我，其实像做我。

对不起，我会努力。我会加油，有一天，我会证明给自己，我不是个负荷，而是那美丽歌声一分子。

谢谢，那些给我拥抱，给我安慰，给我鼓励，还有很多爱的老婆们。。我爱你们！！

tired. but motivated!

its meet the parents today!!!
this is very different from my sec sch la...
coz in sec sch... PTC ( parent teacher conference) was under council's duty..
but this is like... own time own target sign up sheet thingy.. haahah.. yeahh
well... was quite nervous about it coz my grades suck and who knws wht pck will say..
given he is abit... you knw.. in our class.. hahaa..rather bimbotic and such.. haha..
but ended up was quite ok.. and my dad's quite "interactive".. LOL

I love the Lit room!!! (: the sleep before othello was by far the most comfortable sleep in school!!(thanks to amanda! ) hahha.. ok.. yeah.. so me, amanda, elaine n faith were hanging ard the lit room till around 8 plus den we finaly got our dinner!!! everyone was super hungry!!!! but, the wait was worth while.. coz we got to eat together..
i love girls talk...
but inferiority complex sorta creeps back now and den...
i knw im not likeable...
but i'll try to change..

so one of my wish, is to be a better person... (:
i'll try hard...

actually.... i dun always want to be a clown.... and all the world dun really loves a clown... but somehow.. im used to "entertaining" pple.. and sometimes/ most of the times.. it made me feel better when i see my frens happy, laughing... but sometimes... dun really work out.. or shld i say... back fire?! well, i dunno... i just want to be happy among happy frens...

and... i wanna be stronger... im like so weak and vulnerable... paranoid, sensitive and everything.... but... u cant expect a person to have ego/ confidence when from young he/she's not building up the heart walls with enough love that she needs...
it still pains me, even though its not very much... but in a corner of my little heart... something still thugs... some part of me is just missing.....

i wanna be stronger... not bullied anymore... not treated as a minority.. accepted by majority... maybe pple tell me that i am actually surrounded by many frens.. (i knw its true..) but... i am just very insecured....

okayy..i shldnt go on with this le...

pray for god to give me the strength and power to face this society. the courage,
the security and to be better person, better friend and better family member.

i hope.. it will be answered.

i believe..



im motivated to study..so i'm going off now...
take care guys...
thats all folks!

why why love ep 8!

Ep 8 part 1



Ep 8 part 2



Ep 8 Part 3



Ep 8 Part 4

ugly yet beautiful

my mid year results:
H2: Math, History, Lit
U,U,D
H1: Econs, GP, Chinese
U,E,B

my grades, ugly, yet beautiful...

emotional; when i shldnt be.

nights really make me emo abit. (yes, my emo-ness gone down greatly k! thanks to my dear gals! hahah)
ok.. to those who bullied/abused/demoralized me in those "memorable" 3 years..
thanks.. i won't forget your names, not that
i'm like ji-chouing... but... its still a dark phase of life, something i'll never forget...we learn in some occasions, fall in some occasions.. but many a times, this greatly affected my confidence, morale and esteem..

so bullies out there... if you are one yourself... trust me..please treat people around you better!!!

ok.. so Sir Ian McKellen came and took away my breathe,.. hahha.. (i was really hyped up the whole day about having the chance to see him!! thanks GP n LIT dept! ^^) yepp... hes one amazing man... going to watch King Lear tmr and Seagull (rmb to blame the actors, not the writer!) the day after (Weekends).. his theory abt acting, the imptance of pocket, him being real, him being really honest and brave to stand up for his sexuality. (whts wrg with that anyway?! ) , the Sir thomas speech abt strangers,... every little thing he said, all his little actions will be most certainly engraved in many of our hearts today.. the 100++ of us... and him... owning the same Othello t shirt as our fellow casts and lit students... woah man.. todays one BLASTI-LICIOUS day!!!

somehow... i read a few blogs here and there...
i've been pondering about the same thing.....
the answer now unimportant....
everything dint really matter in the very end....
people say we learn through process..
yes.. i did learn 2 huge lessons....
1) confidential
2) private.

initially, i thought things wld turned out easier, but i realised, nth seemed any easier...
finally, i conclude that these things i once cared so much for, the love i've always been waiting and finding, all seemed mundane now.

i saw this coming, but humanity didnt stop me from preventing. we're humans, like we knw fries cause us to die early.. most of us still love it right?! hahha.. weird metaphor.. but.. yeah... dosent it make sense? or not..

i love my dearies i have now... all my dear friends, family....
i dun feel alone now... but somehow... at some point of time...
inferiority complex take its toll on me...
a voice ringing at the back of my head..
wht are u good at??
you are not wanted here...
laughs turned sinister,
words turn scarsm.
i cant forget,
wht had hurt,still hurts
wht i feared, still remain a fear.

lastly, i MISS CHOIR!

breathe.

if i blew into paper bags, i bet i would have burst 5. i was on the brink of bursting as well...
all the stress and work load all weighing down on me... stress is good at some point of time...
crying also makes u feel better... have a good scream and now... its time for me to get back to work.. just needa rant it out...

i seriously cant take stress.. so i wondered many times why im in jc... but i believe poly is not much different too.. depending on ur course that is..

ok.. jiayou pple! tmr's the dead line for WR V1! JIAYOU

the world's so small i realised.

tired..

yay!!!! its the 9th July!!! hahah..
only heaven knws why im waiting for this date (:

i gave my mum a shock..
i popped her a question one day...
wht happens if im more interested in girls?
i asked on MRT...
and she gave a very over reaction
hahah... she said she'll kill me!!!
funny la her reaction..
but! no worries.. i believe im 100% straight!
LALA.. if u're reading this... YES I AM LA!!HAHAH

omg... im so excited about ep 6!!! i love that show!!!

i was constipated..but not anymore coz...

i live a shit life in case for those who have been thinking that i lead a good one. hahha.. i believe most pple's life are quite shity.. its just which area it shitted in or how many times it shitted.. hahaha... i sound shitty and this whole piece of shit is a lame shit... so i should just stop shitting and keep all the shit to myself..

enough of the shit? LOL...

i need to be sent to pulau bukom! ( 4I-ers should knw wht im talking about. hahha )

tmr's another JO execution.... another shooting session by the yellow boots man... argghhh

totally dun like it...

ENTHUSIASM!

wu gui di is going for reservist tmr!!! will miss him like siao...!! even though hes such a mean person.. i still miss him.. hahha... i wonder if hes in the same camp as Mao la... i think so? coz i dun think theres no 2 camps who reservist in the same week? hahah...

im zooming off to sleep soon!!!!

shopping tmr! (:

ohh.. and surprisingly.. i actually saw a fren from my old place la! how coincidental can tt be? since its some ulu place... hahha... ok.. not exactly..but none whom i knew will wanna go there... oohh... i saw matthew kang! hahha.. weird reaction i've got.. i just called out his name plus surname.. dunno why...

been bumping into pple no matter where i go.. hahha.. good ? bad? LOL

sorry... but im an INTROVERT. cant handle much of these things well..

hahha...

eyes shut..

be blessed

nights

left.

im crazy

i got crazy today...
no it wasnt me if u saw me at PS today..
it was the stupid twin of mine..
the stupid twin had zero ability of containing her emotions and whtsoever.

for the happy things...
firstly! i saw BRANSON n SHERHAN! haha... (sorry ahh!! ) yeah yeah.. they were with their guitars... going play pool and guitar i guess.. hahaa.. and they got talent spotted... deets pls refer to the 2 main charac. LOL... anyway.. PS is like the common hangout for us i guess.. hahha.
i saw my jiemeis.. ok. just one.. PEiSHAN!! haha..
yeahh.. and her dear.. with stewart, ping n raymond, and the rest of their friends..
dint see vivian tho... hahaha..
anyway.. after seeing em...smth hit me... i dunno wht.. but a feelin just washed over..
i was feelin very stressed up abt me screwing up the meeting with my cuzins...
so stressed up i thought i wanted to run home...
but.. i guess i was too emotional abt tt??! hahaha .. yeah..

for the crap things..
i was snuggling in my blankie... blowing tissues and trying to comprehend my stupid laser articles..
sorry mates!! i'll finish my part before sunday night.... yeahh.. my eyes are hot and its getting heavy... so...ciao!!!

i NEED sleep...

curls.

i like this photo!!! it don't look like a mirror right?? i love my cam! hahah

i look OLDD....
i think this pic is cool.. hahha.. my bro asked me how i took the photo when im holding the camera like that.. ><

so? curls or straight??

4I chalet!!!

before wild wild wet!!
patience pple.. hahah.. i like Sj's n the 2nd row's pose
(chou + mei ) 女
pyro.shan.me!!! yawns..
Kamilah's sis!!! KE AI RIGHT??!!!

my precious darlinggs.. (:

its hard to fit everyone in since siong's ard. hahha! dun kill me~ im kidding!! (:
haha!! ys ahh... dun so fierce can.. LOL
memories. fadin? no man.. its fresh, coloured, glossy.. kept in my heart
this is the coolest thing abt chooyeow's phone!

Way Back into Love

Artist: Hugh Grant & Drew Barrymore
Song: Way Back Into Love
Haley:Ive been living with a shadow over head
Ive been sleepin with a cloud above my bed
ve been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just cant seem to move on

Hugh:I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just incase I ever need them again someday
Ive been setting aside time,
to clear a little space in the cornners of my mind

chorus:All I want to do is find a way back into love
I cant make it through without a way back into love
ohh

Haley:I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
Ive been searching but I just dont see the signs
I know that its out there
Theres got to be something for my soul somewhere

Hugh:I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody to get me through the night
I could use some direction, and I'm open to your suggestions

ChrousAll I want to do is find a way back into love
I cant make it through without a way back into love
and If I open my heart again
I guess Im hopin you'll be there for me in the end

Haley:There are moments when I dont know if its real
or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration, not just another negotiation

Chorus:All I want to do is find a way back into love
I cant make it through without a way back into love
and If I open my heart to you
Im hopin you'll show me what to do
and if you help me to start again
you know that I'll be there for u in the end

*love the song, love the movie.
love the MUSIC and love the LYRICS*

MATH

i have a stupid math paper later. so just bless me with all the knowledge which i dun have and need(which is practically everything) hah.

wheres my motivation!!!!????

okiee... i'll go update my wretch soon!! (:

and lastly. the end was marked! (: ^^
jiayou pple! for mids and whtever there is..

pieces of me.

Father's Day 07'

HAHA!! my dad fell asleep(he can sleep anywhere.LOL) he dint even wake at the flash.

oohh.. hes awake.. hahaha

Ah Ma and daddy.. at New Park Hotel.. the food there is WOW. hahah

Candid of my Uncle. hahaha.

ME and MUMMY!

hahah. i left out my bro and cuzins becoz they came late.. (: yummy yummy! i wanna go eat again!