weird.

weird.... its just so weird.. hahah
but nvm...
and ok.. many many things feel so weird...
im living in a weird world with many weird pple...
and i believe im turning weird too....
W.E.I.R.D

anyway. hahah... im running away.. i dunno why..
(: bleah. keep running!!

my 2.4 passed!!!! i missed GOLD by 21 SECS....yeh yehh
hahah....

OKAYY!!! JIAYOU jiayou JIAYOU...

im 100% BLACK

PW totally sucks..

yes. as wht i just said. PW is nt something u'll wanna do, not over a thousand dollars. trust me.
ok.. maybe its just me, i dunno.. but my friends are all experiencing problems too.

so far, i've got no idea how to list my contributions, nt becoz i did too much i cant count but becoz i think i cant find any... other den editing one or few sentence in my latest gpp.

i've gt no idea wht the project is actually about..... and... given my puny brains which makes it harder for me to comprehend everything... i cant do anything!!!!!

arggghhh.... i'll try to do the GPF the next time... yes.... so... if any of the members are seeing this...... please do not finish or do majority of it.. coz by the time iwanna do. its like....everything is done. LOL..

grrrrr... im gonna take 2.4 later.. in like 45 mins??!! bless me....

and... somehow.. he gave me those eyes.... maybe he've seen it before.. hao diu lian ahhhh!!!!

hahahha....

jiayou!!!

* i slept in kellett's class again!!! so bad*


*i'm forgetting him. yes. I WILL! *

i'mreallypissedbyhim.

this is like my second time that i've ever got so pissed...... and both times with the trouble of proposals...
argghhhh..... stupid pck.
i'm so tired of repeating the situation again and again...so..i shant do any more typing or whtever explaination about wht evil things that pck did and said to us....

hahhas.. ok. i just got a new nick name today. hamster. if u wanna know why, look at my phone wall paper.. >< actually i seriouslly think i look more like frog..and it was meant to be a froggy effect... and.... im not a girl, not yet a woman. NOT xiao mei mei!!!!!! TSK. lol... im 16+++!

today's interview was screwed. but its okay.. not like i haven screw anything up before.... and my whole day was practically not my day.... bad things happening this and that......

so. lets JIAYOU!

it ended.

yeah.. SYF ended.
all the tears too....
grats to CO.
though we shld be feelin happy for the school..
but the evil root in me tells me its nt good for the choir...
i cried so hard yesterday... but not because of the results..
because of my SL not giving up on me, our conductor's hard work, our senior's hardowork.. and the WHOLE CHOIR'S hardwork...
JANICE! U RAWK! THANKYOU AGAIN! HAH
yeahh.....and angela too.. sorry for wetting ur shoulder again and again. hah..
and yesterday...was the worst i ever felt.....
my eyes felt really hot... my face was really hot..... and i could feel the hot air around me......
but...... goosebumps were all over and i was shivering becoz i was feelin so cold....
my head was throbbing like mad.. and my nose was so blocked.....
but thanks to the really cute medicine and faith ( who accompanied me to the doc ) ... i got well immediately after the medication.. and the doctor was really acting cool in a really cute way.
hahah
ohh.. and guess wht... i've got 3 chalets in june... when i have soooo much work to catch up with
i totally do not understand chapters 5 -7 for math.... and even 1 - 4 if u throw me questions.. i wun noe how to do...

so dead....... but lets see how long i can survive.... hahah.. jiayou pple!!!!
choir is a mugger cca.. LOL....fellow choir members pls come to C4 after 4 if u wanna mug everyday (:
sing as one, work as one. ^^

insecured and very depressed

i dun wanna blog much abt why i'm depressed, cause i think its rather stupid and i don't really know why i'm feeling depressed too... yeahh.. i dont smoke.. so it wasnt the depressant...

okayy.... so i was really down today... in fact most of the time recently..
so i've been wanting to cry out loud..... but i had to laugh it off...
so i'm in disguise, trying to hide the loneliness i'm going through......
and so i gave up...... i'm just going to let it all out later...
but i guess i'm just an invisible man....



SIGHS. IM AFRAID I CANT SING WELL, I'M AFRAID I CANT EXPRESS MY CHARACTER WELL.. ( coz even in real life... i dun even express myself well ) IM AFRAID OF THE ACCUMULATED THINGS I HAVE TO RUSH AND DO......AND ALL THE WORK, I'VE GOT NO KNOWLEDGE TO COMPLETE THEM, I'M SO AFRAID TO BE ALONE, SO AFRAID THAT I'M ALWAYS OUT OF THE CROWD, SO AFRAID THAT I HAVE TOO MUCH FLAWS TO SHOW PPLE WHT I'M GOOD AT ( i guess theres nth im good at except for whinning and ranting and emoing over here )SO AFRAID OF THE INSECURITY. SO AFRAID OF MYSELF. IM JUST VERY AFRAID OF EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING IN THIS WORLD.
IM SIMPLY, A-F-R-A-I-D

S A V E M E

RETREAT

retreating, i am.
i tried, but failed.
i'll try again.

where does the problem lie?
is it in me?
or wht?
i seriously don't know.

i thought it was over,
the misunderstandings and all..
but somehow, the scar was still vivid.
always reminding us of something.

i tried to look at you,
but your eyes never cross mine.
i tried to talk to you,
but your ears were somehow closed.

i see you sad,
i wanna help,
i tried to,
but,
all you could see and feel,
was someone else.

how i wish things would go back,
to the first day we met.
where we teared,
not because of parting
but because we can't bear to.

so i just pray,
that soon,
the clouds will clear
and we'll see the light again.
and we'll be happy again......

i just wanna let you people know,
i'm always here whenever you guys need to talk.
and that i'm here for you, just like she's there.
just look with your heart,
and you'll find me....

for now, lets work hard together.
and pray that all our hard work and energy we've put in.
be rewarded with the GOLD everyone wants and expects of us.

JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU

- im still depressed.