Monday, December 24, 2007

XMAS EVE, MAGICAL NIGHT

exciting gift exchange! love my prezzie siong!!!

the huge xmas tree at vivo


in white dog cafe.. nice ambience there

my food!!!

aint no moutain high enuf! hahah. add together the 2 SHANS!



the 4 of us @ vivo's roof park


frenz forever!! gave these to my 3 dears ^^

ME n Siong!

the 2 SHANS


3/4








strangers.

im an easy going person, and i sincerely love to make friends..BUT. if i sense "danger", or i feel stressed. don't blame me, coz i seriously seldom, rarely block pple...

Saturday, December 22, 2007

unwritten.

too many thoughts sometimes,
too many things i have in mind
a silent facade, hiding whts thundering inside of me.
so i guess, its best to leave many things unsaid..
and untouched.
may it be forgotten.

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

untitled

the white portrait
scarred by that fine line,
the fine line that could not erased.
later the artist came.
he painted colours, he filled the whites
but deep down he knew,
that all these, were merely a facade,
a disguise, such that no one could tell
what was within, what was hidden.
this beautiful disaster, a secret,
shared only by the artist, and perhaps,
the person that gave the paper its first touch.

the paper became a vibrant one,
surfacing as a colourful portrait,
the differents paints used by many artists.
each came and painted their way on the landscape.
each came and left.
the picture became history
people grew sick of it,
colours fading,
there it stood on its stand,
forgotten and lost.
lost in reality,
lost in its own world,
lost in memory.
as the paints wear off,
the fine line, surfacing again.

they say, scars heal over time.
do they? it may be forgotten, temporarly.
but it creeps back to you now and then..
whenever dark comes, or whenever u're alone in a little room.
having the fear its going to be locked on you..

having the fear that you will be forgotten...
that no one cares if you're locked behind that door...
having the fear that your pain brings happiness to others.
that no one cares if you're crying out loud...

腳步偶爾還是會沉重。。

时间,飞速而过。。真得太快了。
转眼间,我这个窝已经快待了七年。
墙上的漆,被粉刷过,一次又一次。
而记忆,也一次又一次的被更新,被粉刷。。
但最底层的那部分,也从来没消失过。
而只是被那一层层的保护色掩盖着。
没错,我是比从前快乐,好多好多。
谢谢了。我的朋友们,带给我那么好的回忆。
真的,小女子在这向所有真心对待我的每一位致谢。

一转眼,2008 就要来了。。
新学期也会带着它一切的压力与负荷,
压抑着每位学生。。。
这种压力。。必须自己去体会,才会知道。
真的不容易。。。
在我说这得当下,可能会被十年后的我,当成儿戏。。
因为,十年后的我,会有不能预知的烦恼和问题。。。
也许,现在的经历对以后的我,比起来,只是皮毛。。
但这一切的切。。。 还算远。。。十年,很远。。

这条漫长的路,虽然艰辛,虽然坎坷,但我也看到人的阴暗面。。
我也学会相信,学会依赖。。甚至, 有时还会忘记从前的孤胆,使怎么熬过来的。。
我太依赖了吗?

我的感情观念也变了许多。。
算是满多的。。 但我清楚之道的是。。
自己不能相信,不能依赖,不能衬托。。。
我想,这算是逃避,也算是让自己,不要上的那么深。。。

爱怎会输给了时间。
我的耳边,在听不见。。
我以为永远不会变
最习惯的明天见。。。 
心会受伤,也能复原。。

秀盈。记得,不要太轻易相信。。。

ESCAPE

it was a day of fun and excitement at the escape theme park yesterday. went out with jac, faith, stella, meixuan and qing. it was their 7th annivasary thus the tickets were only sold at 7 bucks! huge deals huh. anyway, tried the wild and wet thingy for my first time... was worrying and feared for nth, coz afterall it was fun. mx was screaming even more than me la. haahah. yup, everything was fun. and we took the revolving space thingy for like 5 times till it close... it was really heaven up there. it was like an addiction for me and jac... and one thing about escape was the height limit... .omgosh.... those pple were just carrying the pole around measuring my height can.... gahhh... but i think the height limit for the go kart thing shld be higher... coz apparently.. i had some difficulty stepping on the accelerator and the brakes... and.. omgosh, it was the worse thing tt happened throughout the hols.. i was coming down at high speed from the slope.. and i lost control of the steering wheel and crashed right into the curb.... caused a rather major jam there... the impact was sooo huge.. i cant even turn my neck... and my chest is in some major pain right now.... no idea wht to do... doctor or not...? coz my mum told me this before i left: " don't play until here pain there pain come back complain to me.".. yupp.. so i cant let her know... and... gahhhh.... worried! hahha. paranoid?! i dunno, but it hurts la... call me "gu niang" ba... (well, im a gal! ) ...... ok.. lemme sink in my own worries.. so long!!! CIAO~

Monday, December 17, 2007

CHANGES. BLACK OR WHITE

the conductor came back yesterday, bringing back his weirdness along as well. there were huge changes made in the choir. pple went from A2 to S1, S to A.. but alto became rather sympathatic... sighhss... ..

Saturday, December 8, 2007

complicated

the world is no longer as simple, no longer as innocent. smiles are no longer smiles, laughter no longer laughter. i don't wanna belong, don't wanna be in disguise, leen's staying here, staying in this plain world with only warmth and love and laughter.... is this possible????

BLOG DIVIDED.

i know you guys are like super anti chi. hahha, so emo stuffs in chi, so tt u guys wun be affected.. =DD

emotions overload

I DON'T WANT TO FEEL HURT. DON'T WANT TO BREAK THAT EASILY. I JUST WANT TO BE LOVED.

FUN and MOREE FUN

hahha, this is gotta be a really short one, "like me". hahah. today's daddy's birthday!!! =DD just came back from getting the cake for him from breadtalk. and today is really a tiring one, aches all over, all thanks to mahjong the whole night and the killing games at sentosa from morning till evening, yesterday was really hectic. went to karen's birthday party with some of the choir pple and my other friends =D. saw his lil bro, omgawd. so damn cute la! and her niece too!!! the choir outing was not as bad as expected. kinda fun, and me being the super blur one lost in the pig game and had to do a forfeit of getting a guy's no. the monkey game and the captain's ball match was really tiring... and throughout the whole thing, my nose was attacked twice.. >< hahha, poor nose, i knw i needa nose job, but this wasnt much of an effect huh... hahhaa!! i held the monkey position for damnnn long until someone was nice enough to let me rest. lols. legs now aching like shit!!! only me and elaine stayed over for the chalet, played mahjong with the J2s, learnt loads of new stuffs. haha, dint knw mahjong required so much knowledge. =D thankew!

last of all... before i go off... HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!!

Monday, December 3, 2007

COOKING FRENZY

just like wht my title suggest, been learning how to cook (properly) hahah, not just instant noodles or fried eggs. yupp! my mum's still very nervous about me cooking, afraid that her muddleheaded clumsy daughter will turn her kitchen into ashes. so far cooked 2 complete meals for myself and my parents. hahaa, not too bad worr, can consider taking up cooking for further study. who knows, someday in the future, i'll be Head Chef Chia (HCC??!! ) in some reknown hotel. hEEEEE =DDD