Friday, November 28, 2008

only lonely?

oh dear.... loneliness? is that what i'm experiencing??? :(

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

ok....... this holiay suck .. i dunno what i've been doing... time could have been better spent.
time should have been treasured..
rather than being spent on lamenting, pondering and arguing.
thinking generates more thoughts, more suspicion , more hatred.
if you want to, you can live happily .
or you can chose to read into words, read into nothing, and see something.
something ugly...ugliness comes only when u try too hard, trying too hard, hoping to find the flaws.
there is infinite flaws u can find , even in a crystal so clear...
urgh. i've got no idea wht im blabbering at this point of time.

so tired of all these. and this time round, i'm not saying its my fault anymore, because, from the very depths of my heart, i did not insult anyone but myself, nor did i expect these insults on MYSELF would occur to be insults to ANYONE ELSE BUT MYSELF.
this won't do, if it carries on, this over-sensitivity. now it may only cause some discordance or unhappiness with others. in the future, it will only hurt YOU, yourself. It will be a major problem if this is not overcome, seriously, it will only hurt you more. advice as your best friend, i don't wanna see you suffer, nor do i wanna rope in any other innocent people. i would say, this time round, i'm innocent as well. who wld have known wht i say about myself would hurt someone else... it all happened too fast... i hate conflicts, i seriously that word, even the sound of it, how ugly it sounds, how ugly it is , to see the letters placed together... i tried my best throughout my life, to prevent them from happening, it seems, no matter how hard i try, it wouldn't steer clear my path.. nor my attempts be seen, but only magnified each single conflict..... i never did raise my voice at friends, or if i did...sorry. but i hope i didn't and in my memory, i did not. i don't always have patience , even if it went down all the way to zero, i try not to show, cause i really really really detest conflicts. i try to accomodate, try to agree, just to prevent them , but it seems they just come knocking on my door unknowingly. for the innocent, i know it sucks, sorry, but i hope you know, i don't wish for them . even if i was hurt or unhappy by what others said or did, i didnt show it much, because i don't want any conflicts...........
i had enough of them since young, i had enough of childish fights since young . and i don't want them now.

the world's a landscape filled with landmines..
u step on it unknowingly... u hurt those around you,

those innocent souls... bury their souls for you.
because of one wrong step, without even knowing its wrong.
이 황당한 세계는 진짜로 견딜수 없는다 경이롭 너무 많은 미개간 땅 및 오해.너무 많 이해하지 않았다.。너무 저것이라고 의 너무 조금 안락 넋두리하는.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

This is to those, who need strength, who fears pain, who fears fear....
its up to you, to face it, to grow stronger with it.


life is a lone walk.
a barefooted pilgrimage..
at times, u may brush through fine patches of grasses..
at times u may encounter pricking mimosas,
at time, you may even find yourself cut..
by thorns, pebbles and shatered glasses..
all these encounters; unexpected and inevitable.
maybe one day, at the end of the journey..
you look at your feet, akin to Park Ji-Sung.
tattered yet beautiful.
cause this pair of feet, had weathered through storms,
had battled the horns..
finally, you will no longer fear pain, nor see it with abhorrence.
but embrace these challenges, knowing that, you WILL tide over them,
only emerging stronger.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Don't say Goodbye

omg..... this vid so made me wanna cry.
the song is amazing .
Don't say goodbye - DBSK

wow wow wow









OMG.... effiel tower!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and Seobang's white-purple crystals from swarovaski!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
man........ if only i was a rich girl...

Oooo Chihuahua!!

I am so gonna have a dog!!!!! Maltese/chihuahua/ and PINKY(Selina's pup) kinda dog
OMG... hahaha. i think i miss Miffin alrdy! hhaha. its my first time holding a dog and took a pic with it!! its with P.Shan now, will upload soon when i get it! (:

had a great time with my 3 girls today. FINALLY!!!!!! hahaha. really miss them so much ( aint no mountain high enough~ ) Thanks girls!!! for being part of my life and for the fun today! ^^ and YS for the really cute organizer . AND!!!! i found a Japan Subway map!!! hahaha. JUST IN TIME FOR MY TRIP!!!! KOMAWO!!! ( thanks )

AND , here are the photos ! finally, hehe, sorry for keeping u waiting (:


Saturday, November 22, 2008

sigh oh sigh

hmms, exams are over! why am i still sighing?!?!
one big fat reason. the MUM. okie, it feels bad to say "the"
alright. MY mum . yes...... its after exams, BUT, the restrictions she impose on me is just as bad as exams itself. everyone would probably expect this korean fanatic to hog on videos every single free minute. BUT, my mum is super opposed with his. AHHH.
i woke up, floor already mopped, nothing for us to do anymore she said " why do you wake up and watch videos!? " what does she want me to do then? mop the floor again???
and everytime i sit down and wanna watch something , she'll call out my name again, asking me to do stuffs.
even before exams end, everyday she says: "theres no reason to not do chores after your exams anymore , true enough..... BUT!! ITS AFTER EXAMS! I SHOULD BE SITTING DOWN, RELAXED, INDULGING IN MY SWEET LIBATION!! AHHH.

grrrr, FREEDOM will come, soon. for a short span of 2 weeks, after that, i'll be working and working.......so that i'll get paid for doing work, instead of staying, getting nagged at for doing and for not doing chores. seriously, no one will know the extent of frustration till u live with her for 18 years plus. GRRRRRRRR. off to meet siong at 1pm.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEISHAN AND DOM!!!
SAENGCHUKAHAMIDAH!!!!!!!

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

DBSK 2008 - 2009 detailed schedule

20th November - 29th Blue Dragon Film Awards (live on KBS2) - 7.25pm
21st November - SBS Closest Friends Notes (Junsu) broadcast - 10.55pm
21st November - KBS2 Music Bank - 6.35pm
22nd November - MBC show! Music Core broadcast - 3pm
22nd November - KBS1 Love Request at - 5.10pm
22nd November - SBS Inkigayo - 3.15pm
22nd November - Junsu+Yoochun+Changmin on SBS Star King (broadcast) - 6.30pm
23rd November - Changmin+Yunho on MBC Quiz to Change the World - 5.10pm
26th November - aNation 2008 DVD release
26th November - DBSK at Asia Song Festival on FUSE TV
29th November - SM Festival in Bangkok 2008
30th November - [JAP] NHK Music Japan TVXQ Special - 3.05pm

1st December - [JAP] Music Japan filming
2nd December - EILEEN OFF TO JAPAN!!!
4th December - [JAP] Music Japan broadcast
10th December - Mnet Golden Disk Awards 2008 - 7pm
15th December - XIAH Junsu’s birthday!

16th December - EILEEN BACK TO SINGAPORE
17th December - Japanese Mirotic CD + DVD release

hahah, it seems like they're gonna be in Japan while I'm there. fingers crossed , pray hard ^^

18th January - [JAP] Bigeast 3rd Fanmeet (Makuhari Fair Trade Event Hall)
20th January - [JAP] Bigeast 3rd Fanmeet (Fukuoka International Centre)
21st January - [JAP] Bigeast 3rd Fanmeet (Kobe Memorial World Hall)
25th January - [JAP] 25th Japanese Single release
26th January - HERO Jaejoong’s birthday!


A no. of things to look forward to.

NOVEMBER
TMR : OFFICIAL END OF A LEVELS + SLEEPOVER AT FAITH's!!!!!
22nd : Rotting , spring cleaning , preparation...
23rd : Shan's birthday + class outing + XIAH JUNSU's present (blanket making) at CityLink. ( which i cant go !!! *CRIES* )
24th : Job/Internship interview. Its gonna be the first interview in my life. Bringing with me some courage to battle the fear, and hopes for a new landscape for me to discover.
25th - 30th : NO PLANS at the MO. BOOK ME ASAP YEAH? =DD . Slotting in occasion trips to self grooming. blah blah blah, and some shopping trips with the girls. (: + Sentosa/Zoo waiting to be confirmed.

December
2nd to 16th in JAPAN. mysterious secret rendevous with DBSK?? =D *i wish*
17th to end - random nua-ing + occasional work here and there. + learning design techniques , prepare for portfolios and courses

January
Best thing to look forward to : POP VOCAL LESSONS!!!!!!!!
finally........ i feel closer to my dreams......
start of whatever internship i get. YUP.

i hope life gets more interesting?? Bohemenism is still my take, but due to financial constraints, hahhaha, i doubt life wld be as easy as my first 3 mths. heh. i'll devote all my time to my passion and craves, so 2009, will be driven mainly by passion and energy instead of boring mundane routines of mugging....

TADA ~ heres my life laid out, so far, so _____ . but who will know what comes in place ??? Finally, i'll be able to breathe new air!
GAMBARIMASU!

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

the stage, the band, the music, the lights, the sweat, the voice, the cheers, the applause....

i cant stop singing, my heart's beating in pulses alrdy......
raise your voice, raise my voice, and lets get loud....

Monday, November 17, 2008

konichiwa! counting down to Tokyo Holiday !!!!
2 Dec 08 - 16 Dec 08 , たから(so) , please refrain from texting/calling me during that period of time (:
will be on MSN here and there since i'll be staying with my cousin from 5 Dec 08
finally, a getaway..... an adventure. approximately 6 hours away from Singapore.
treading on new grounds that i've never had the chance to venture.
でも(but), A level's has yet to end, and i should really bear that in mind. hahha, already in the Holidaying/Nuaing mood. ( hm, was i ever in exam mood neway? ) YUPP. 21 DEC!!!!!!!! official liberation day..
many things to look forward to, so many things i wanna learn, wanna achieve and hope for to happen. just pray that things will work out, and dreams can be fulfilled.

DREAMS, ことができますか?
まえむき!!!!!!

Sunday, November 16, 2008

SCHEDULE from 16 Nov

16th November - Mega TV Super Concert at 5.30pm
Watch it LIVE here!
- SBS Inkigayo at 9am

22nd November - SBS Star King at 6:30p – 7:30pm
25th November - 2008 Bucheon World Intangible Cultural Heritage Expo "SUPER CONCERT"
26th November - "A-nation DVD" Release
29th November - SM Festival in Bangkok 2008
30th November - NHK "Music Japan TVXQ Special @ 3:10PM


DECEMBER

4th December - NHK Music Japan
10th December - 2008 Golden Disk Awards at 7:00pm on MNet
11th December - NHK Music Japan
18th December - NHK Music Japan
20th December - lollyribena(co-author) 's birthday!


JANUARY 2009!

18th January - [Japan] Bigeast 3rd Fanmeet (Makuhari Event Hall)
20th January - [Japan] Bigeast 3rd Fanmeet (Fukoka Even Hall)
21st January - [Japan] Bigeast 3rd Fanmeet (Kobe World Hall)


Translated by : jae!fany@ Shinki! Forums
Source: TVXQIple Page + 将爱myyunho.com + Mr. TVXQ
Credits: tvxq_luv @Shinki!Forums + KPOP JJANG + Never End + Mr. TVXQ + unetopaze @LJ + xietinloveshero



OMG.....if they do go to the NHK station in JAPAN, it means we'll be both in JAPAN around the same time.. OMG....... pray hard for me....

Saturday, November 15, 2008

MKMF AWARD WINNERS!!!

(in order of announcement)
MKMF FASHIIONISTA: Jewelry
FASHION AUCTION: TVXQ!
MOBILE POPULARITY: TVXQ!
PHOTOVIDEO?(i forgot what it was called...): Big Bang
NEW FEMALE ARTIST/GROUP: Davichi
NEW MALE ARTIST/GROUP: SHINee!
BEST BALLAD/R&B: Brown Eyes
NETIZEN POPULARITY: TVXQ!
BEST DANCE SONG: Lee Hyori
KFC BEST OST: Kim Jongook & SG Wannabe
HOUSE & ELECTRONIC: Jewelry
BEST HIP HOP: Epik High
BEST ROCK: Nell
BEST SOLO MALE SINGER: ??? sorry... i missed it...
BEST SOLO FEMALE SINGER: Lee Hyori
OVERSEAS POPULARITY AWARD: TVXQ!
BEST FEMALE GROUP: Wondergirls
BEST MALE GROUP: Big Bang T_T
BEST MUSIC VIDEO: Wondergirls (Nobody)
BEST LATEST SONG: Wondergirls (Nobody)
BEST LATEST SINGER: Big Bang T_T
BEST LATESET ALBUM: TVXQ!


devastating cause they didn't win best male group, music video and the last award that Rain was announcing, manda said its the most prestigous one.... hmmms.. kinda sad about male group, but.... given that they were away in Jap for so long... good results alrdy. Changmin cried so hard when they got the best album award, could tell they were really disappointed. SIGH. GOOD JOB still (: LOVEs LOVEs. and new hair of micky. LOL. look like the old yoochun during the YOOSU peak period. hahaha. Xiah and Jae were amazingly HOT. hhahaha.
Introducing Star friends is up, first part only, in JaeLove12's channel. JUNHO will go on the show with JUNSU! omg. twin in action......... alright, shall rub away all the grief with the new show. GAMBARIMASU!!!!

work starts on MONDAY. (:

NICE GAME TODAY!!! hahahaha, i lost so much weight luh.... hahahaha. (:

Saturday, November 8, 2008

GLOBAL WARMING!!!!!!

totally in awe!!!! i need to share these news!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so proud of them!!!! who else... BUT 동 방신 기 LOL. took me long enough to type those 4 words.
just let them surprise you with all their popularity and AWESOMENESS!

NOMINATED:

Disk Bonsang

Digital Bonsang

YEPP Popularity

and Daesang (selected from Bonsang Winners)

MKMF

BEST Auction Internet Popular Artist

BEST Auction Star

Mobile Popular Artist

BEST Dance Song

BEST Male Group

Song of the Year

Artist of the Year


MKMF Overseas Viewer Award

BEST TEAR For Micky Yoochun

WINNERS OF MUSIC BANK charts
#1 : MIROTIC
#2 : Love in the Ice ( Korean ver. )
(#3 : nobody by Wonder Girls )

ORICON CHARTS/MUTIZEN
#1 : Mirotic

and moreeee......

LOL. VIDEO OF THE DAY!



OMG, HIS MOVES ARE SOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOT............

woohooo. okie! back to erm, hot black guy now. =|