confused

been confused all the while.
but i'm really stubborn tho. hahaha!
i've kept mum for years..
so why cant i this time?? right?!
yupp. i think god is pissed off with my way of handling my own emotions alrdy.
cant blame me...
how strong can i be when i've been blown up so many times.
yupp..
neway.. busy week..
its only wed..
tmr's labour day! yay. airport. XD
friday ends late.... so dinner's postponed!!!
sat studying, tuition, chat (haha, dunno if its the right word)
yeahh.. sunday: airport again!? hah.

yes.. i think its all or nothing now...
><
hate this kinda things..
RAWWWWWHHHH

dates

tmr: mug, with alone i guess, choristers have elections.. =.=
thurs: changi airport!!! yay.
fri: four of our gathering!!!! =D long time no meet up anyways... everyone just disintegrate...
Sat: mug + tuition
Sun: MUG @ changi airport again?? =D

wow... mugging days.. >< how nice... been mathing for soooo long today
really.... im zonked.. seeing another complex no. or integration, or inequality or anything regarding math can send me to my grave...

eyes shutting alrdy.. needa get to the script..
bye peeps!!!
hahaha... and yeahh.. im kinda looking forward to friday actually.. got alot of catching up to do! LOL =D
bye peeps!!!!!

because of you

"Because Of You"

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain

And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you

bad me.

aahh.. okay.. i feel so bad for not wanting him to take the same lift as me..
i mean... i dunno 'what he will do la... after all... him killing me wldnt be illegal...
he has the "rights" to... based on medical reasons i guess...
but i nearly died when i saw him at the lift....
then i took a deep breathe and run him and i kept pressing the close button..
omg.... tt was so mean.. i know its mean.. but i was really really scared...
luckily he continued to wait outside...
so i just stop breathing until i was safe inside the lift..
this is the only one time where i really want to be left alone in the lift. hahaha..
irony... in times of emergency.. i rather feel trapped. LOL.. den having something happen... ><

hahahaha.. okayy.. YAY angela!! i hugged u! lol
and so sorry kelvin! hahahaha.... ur com suck.. not my fault! lols...
but i hate to reformat coms.. so im like totally sorry about it.. yeahhh. but im not sending u emoticons!! hahaha!
neway... happy to be on track for math.. other den revision la.. but tutorials im on track..
and my econs i nearly done!! YAY!!!! more time to aud! LOL
okayyy... crap.. i think im gonna be paralysed from spamming keys...

and my dinner's nice.. daddy warmed it up for me before i reach home.. so nice.. heh!
yupp..eating my dinner now...
spamming keys later..
tralalala~ bye!!!!!!

hahahhaa.. and for one more time.. i wanna clear my name!!!!!!! i am FULLY 100 PERCENT STRAIGHT!!!!!!!!! =D

距离

有些人,你常常想念,想得几乎废寝忘食,但是,距离再近,你却不会真的走上前去触摸.只是,远远地看着她,远远地.生怕一不小心就打扰到什么,尽管,你是那样希望成为她生活中的一部分,息息相关的重要部分。
似乎你就是个梦，我眷恋得睡过了头。[ credits to theresa tan hui xin. lol ]

vivola~

hahah, vivocity just reminds me of the vivola thing everytime..
i bet all of you (choristers) feel the same way. =P
spent the day alone...
went out early in the morning..
so early tt none of the shops were open, and i had to sit down n wait while reading econs..
i was the first few in the theatre queue, its kinda cool..
but buying one tickets seemed abit odd:
" can i have a ticket for definitely, maybe at 11:15?"
"so its definitely maybe at 11:15, 3 tickets miss?"
"no, just one."
"one?!"
"yes, one."
"okayy.."
LOL... i was amused, but went to get my wallet during the 1 hour wait..
went by the bookstore, browsed some books.. went to the cute shop but it wasnt open. ><
n.. i went ti the toilet before the show, n guess what.. when i went upstairs.
i realised i left my wallet in the toilet! the new one!
den i chionged down to find it... thank god it was there la. hahah.
and soo.. i went into the theatres.. forgot i had night blindness...
so i cldnt find my seat! couldnt see anything..
i realised that everytime i step in.. i just follow blindly n sit beside my friends.hahah.
so today was kinda special...
but the thing is... it was 11:15am.. and hence..only the back row was filled..
and the worse thing is... i see couples strolling in... like i was the only kuku over there..
hahaha. but once the movie started... i just got so lost in it.. i forgot about everyone around me..
OMG..tt Will haze is HOT!!!! i found April n "Summer" hot too!!!! the movie was soooo sweet... so touching la! and the little girl was sooo cute!!!!! so thoughtful of her.. and so mature for her age... =D love little girls.. heh! great recommendation to those who haven caught this movie... its really nice =D
ahaah.. and im so gonna watch the vegas show!!!! is that guy Ashton krutcher?! looks like him.. but i cldnt figure out and theres cameron diaz!!!
the superheroes movie is a must watch!! lol... gonna catch it soon..
ahhh.. broke!
with RJ concert and band concert. im gonna be more broke, ><
after the show... i just went down to kovan macs to mug...
surprised by the rate i was doing econs.. and everything just made sense to me!!
wow right?! hahaha.. credits to kenny.. no wonder ur grades are amazing...
i wonder how pple can just do econs so easily.. and do it so well!
gahhhh... but did abit of case study today.. yay!
and tuition was quite good..
think can concentrate better alone..even though it was rather sian...
and stats rock!!!! and our sch is exempted from the questions for both tuesday n friday class =D
OMG.. i have a complaint!!! the sr people were creating a hell out of noise.. the whole macs was filled with their high pitched laughter..
i was blasting my mp3 and cld still hear them...
even the aunty was shaking her head to me.. and everyone else just kept staring at them...
yeahh... noise is alright la.. but they went abit too over..
hah. okie... i gotta go continue work...
hooked on audition recently...
just keep spaming my keyboard..
add me if u are playing!!!! ign: xOleenOx
yeahh... bye peeps!! =DD

its been ages since i last typed in chinese...
theresa's essay made me wanna write something too. hahaha.
its been a shitty week for me and her..
my earphones died.. not like i want it to..
not like i want my earphones to keep dying...
so its really no point screaming at me over earphones..
it alrdy died.. wht can i do?!! i promise i'll take more care of it this time..
had ajisen at J8 just now and mr kwek was there..
his wife is really pretty. heh
ok.this week's really really bad.. ><
tmr : theres this supposedly choir outing.. but it clashes with my tuition.
hmmm.. gonna catch a movie tmr.. alone i suppose. dun mind trying watching a movie alone..
hah. definitely, maybe or superheroes?! one emotional one really funny..
ok.. maybe i need something funny to cheer me up.. but watching a funny movie alone feels kinda sad... hahahaha.. okay. whtever....
going vivo to get my wallet also i supppose..and head down for tuition...
dun mind some time alone tmr... perhaps easier to help me sort my own thoughts out..
was very messy this week...
bad bad bad....

sunday: hmmms.. i kinda miss the airport..
dun mind going there...
and i think i might again.. need the time alone.. =X

HUAT AH

HAHAH. TODAY'S HUAT DAY!
and my moment of epiphany today??!!
i guessed i only realised it..
but abit late.. hahahaha... argh.
dun matter.. im sealing everything up with cement.
=D anyway.. grats dear!!!!!
wish u bliss anyway..
i haven got the chance to watch a movie alone...
1) superheroes movie 2) definitely maybe 3) ???

SUPERHERO MOVIE

YAY! its FINALLY OUT!!!!
gotta watch it.. its damn hilarious! hahah
and today is such a crisis day for me n theresa. hah
yeah. i guess im left with 3 choices now.
i'll take the last 2 i guess..
and i better stop the inferiority complex thing.. ><
yeahh.. i rock! and i love myself! hah

ohhh.. im damnnn tired... ><
today's a really hot day!
and my ulcers are really killing me!!!!
hurts like crap..
cant talk...

okie. gotta go do work soon.
and yay! i got DBSK's stuffs from moo!!
thanks! hah

memory?

there was one thing that Ms kwok said that impacted me alot today..
about memory, about trying to forget a part of our lives, trying to forget the traumatic experiences some had in life...
i've been searching for her recently..
facebook. friendster, blogs.. wherever..
i don't know why i'm even bothering to find out..
to see how shes doing perhaps?? to see if she's changed??
to see if shes getting on "well".... i know we were young, and naive...
but i cant help but wish that something would happen to her..
that something small.... just for vengence perhaps???
maybe something small to show her how it feels to be in my shoes..
a little revenge i wanna take..
nt too severe, afterall we were so young...
harmless as the young may look.. but the years of my growth (psychologically? ) were taunted,
and scarred.
no matter how much i tried to forgot...
the terror still flashes back now and then.....
evrey little trigger... can just pull me back to the past,
where everything was dark and haunting....
where i had no where to escape...

21APRIL08

today's concert day!!!!
=D nothing really bad happened
but it was really really short..
and i think our rehearsal was alot better..
coz of the crowd perhaps??
im really tired now...
legs, hands, feet, brain, eyes, everywhere.....
and i've still got math to do
well at least i've got no more choir...
can just mug and mug and mug..
aint tt bad i guess?! =D
JIAYOU people!!!!!
and omg... we're having a really cool history sem. =DDD

i feel ashamed to even like you.
afraid that you will find it digusted that someone like me actually liked you..
but everytime i wanna resist the temptations of talking to you,
i find it so hard that i give up...
so... sorry to you, whom i've liked. (:

locked.

i dunno me.
i've never known me.


Like many other disorders, claustrophobia can sometimes develop due to a traumatic incident in childhood.
my mum was doing my brows just now...
i dunno how long she took..
but it seemed forever..
she pressed me down in my swivel chair...
i found it hard to breathe
and after a really long time... i started breathing really heavily
and something in me.. told me i had to break free...
i kept struggling to leave the chair but she shuned my pleas, thinking that i was just impatient
until i started tearing and she received a shock..
i got a shock myself too..
i thought it was only in enclose spaces that i'll feel that way..
but i think somehow.. someone pressing me down or trapping me.
will trigger the pain as well...
yest, they closed me in the toilet again...
for fun, i was really scared..
but i tried not to show it..
i knw showing fear would only bring more pleasure and satisfaction to those who locks me up..
i don't know why my fear can bring happiness,
and i don't understand the logic..
i knw they don't mean it.
but if they really left the door and lock me in..
i will go mad.
i think thats why i need to build up my strength..
thats why i'm walking so fast,
to show that i'm not weak.
thats why i like to carry heavy things,
to show that i'm not weak.
well, but at least i have friends now..
just that i still feel locked behind the doors.
and the real me, that i've so well hidden.
that me myself, have forgotten where it is,
and how it looks like.
its and it now, because i'm not sure what form it takes.
or even, if it takes up any.

so i'll wait. for the day, where the keysmith come,
and free me from the locked door,
and i'll own that pair of keys myself,
to do be able to open it myself.

but right now, i am still locked.

walls had immediate impact on me,
i wonder how it would be,
if i didn't leave that place..
would i be like them?
if were them,
would i have alrdy grown immuned towards the pain?
where walls are too high...
and the door is locked.
and when i feel so small...
so small...
yet unable to squeeze through the empty spaces of the door...

MUSIC.FOODFORLIFE.

my eyes are gradually shutting.
very very very very tired..
slept throughout my whole bus ride.. .and i think my bag was too big..
the poor uncle had part of my bag on his lap. woops =X
neway... thank god econs is not due this coming monday..
finally.. i can relax for a sunday... but still... minimal work. nt none. heh
wanna catch definitely, maybe. or horton?!
think i'll just go watch whtever there is after studies..
im zonked out again.
today's full dress was rather fulfilling..
sounded nice...
looked quite nice..
not as bad as expected la. hahah.
and OMG.. i'm sooo in love with yin xue!!!!!
gosh.... anyone wld marry her la. HAH
and yay. i feel taller. =D the pain is all worth it.
ok la.. actually i think its not how high the heel is that caused the pain.
but more of the toes... i've gt a huge blister.
but anyway.. had a great time singing. =D yay
drama night's first night today as well...
hope they did well. hee =D
will be catching it tmr.. i dunno how..
coz my whole day is super jammed packed.
sighh.. i'll sort out a way..
college day tmr...
surprise! school song. hah =.=
okie... im officially closing my eyes..
night people!! =D
take care of ur voices pple. <3

butterflies.

whats with butterflies recently..
firstly they raid my tummy..
and now they haunt me physically..
the journey from sch to the mrt station was so embarrasing..
butterflies jumping out of no where...
and this man got a shock and frantically looking at the grass patch..
thinking i saw something very grotesque or something...
(it is btw. fluttery things)
i've been feeling fluttery and i dunno why.
okay maybe i do. =/
maybe im just trying to convince myself that is not..
but escapism sometimes don't solve everything??
god has pranked me enough..
enough of heartaches?
is he going to return me all the bliss that he hid away from me for so long?
or had he forgotten to add it in to my life?
haha. talking to wifey just now made me recap all of it again.. ><

and my tummy is churning.. >< hungry i suppose..
my appetite grew smaller... cant finish food now..
counting down the days to drama nite, to concert, and to stepping down...
im gonna mug hard every single day aft concert.
i'll make sure the missing of england trip will be worth it.
it gives us motivation either way...
demoralizing but drives me on..
to show that i'm not dumb...
and that i've fully utilized the week they spent there.
im gonna work extra hard for the fun they have over there...
yes... and i will fly to places after my As proudly...
yupp. lyn sis, if u're reading this.. i may wanna fly over for a few weeks..
=D but u gotta teach me jap tt is.. heh.

okie.. my room is in a mess... ><
gotta continue packing.. =DD
and my tummy's growling...
roarrrr!!!
bye!

zonked

like wht the heading suggest. yes. im totally zonked out.
today was a jammed packed day...
few more days toconcert..
and i realise i forgot to learn festival gloria!!
omg.. i was just free styling just now...
tmr first period econs,
im so dead.
im alrdy dead..
and dying again early in the morning tmr.
yawns... im really really tired..
ok.. appealing to all people!!
pls come for the nyjc choir concert!!!!!!!
pls do support.. =D

tiring but at least not a bad day..
even tho toh kinda spoiled it...
yawns...
-.-ZzzzZZZZzzz
im really transforming into a panda soon..
huge eyebags n dark eye rings.

*why is everything coming to me all of a sudden?? moment of "epiphany" today??? nt really.. it dint lead to anything positive.. just another event in my life.. >< if you dun understand this part.. i can totally knw hw u feel. coz i dun even knw wht im typing. BAHH.
k. BYE BASTARDS!!! off to debastardize for a moment.

BAD DAY

hah, don't ask me why.
today's just bad.
feel zonked and carrying around a "souless soul" (familar eh?)
had "choir" today.. yes inverted commas, coz we dint do anything..
i was just pata pon-ing in the music room..
my eyes are sooo tired...
and im sooo tired..
and my nose is itching...
someones talking bad about me... ><
yawns... i still have heaps to do..
sighh.. bad day!!!!!
k. zonking off... BYE!

stoney.

econs make me feel stoney.
dun feel like moving my hand at all..
and my paper's still as blank as ever..
hahah, just came back from a round of shopping for concert stuffs.
bought my pants. ( i like it =D ) hides all the fats. HAHAH
and the lady actually gave me and theresa the "aww so sweet , she has big bucks look"
lol! utterly wrong imagery. i think its just the height.. tsk!
saw the trailer for "superhero movie" hahahha.. i think its a must watch..
damn funny... LOL... and i think my tummy is growling... ><
i'm almost done with memorizing the scores... yayness
finished the glass menagerie
left with 4 econs essays.
yawns...
thinking of work makes me sleep..
aight... gotta go nua abit before i do work. lol

mood : mild.
song of the day: White Love Story - As One =D
line of the day: AHhhhhhhh, i wanna quit school

choir...

choir day today...
super long day.......
was supposed to have sectionals at 1045, but ended up we started at 11 plus..
i went to school at 9 anyway. HAH.
did one paragraph of glass menagerie and tts about all..
hahaha. talked to my wife alot today.. =D
and im confused as ever. XD
and i've gotta go get my heels and my pants tmr! and finish up the essays.
busy busy busy...
and hes not helping at all la!
intimidating and screamings may work...
but it suck!!!! pressured by fear...
and fear driven progress is quite torturing..
but we did improve.. alot rather..
and i had a hard time being gu-niang...
HAHAH! shld try to be more gentle from now...
21st century sports woman! hahaha.. just now was so paiseh.. i called "auntie, UNCLE" LOL!
so embarrassing!! lol....
okie.. gotta go chiong essays!
see ya peeps. =D
get tickets from me pls!! =DD loves loves..

NYGT! SYNERGY

omg.. so many talented pple ard..
first and foremost.. grats to lester and tedson!!! and the rest of the CO pple..
i think half of the population can sing la! hahaha...
i dun care.. im gonna go learn from the experts... =P
i felt dumb just now..
whts my talent?!
good for nothing.. >< again.
i think ive been on this issue for a pretty long time...
the i-am-nothing issue.
nothingness... i think i'll do better in Lear than Othello. LOL
omg... the blindfolded pianists were damn good!!!!!!! RJ and Phu trinh ? cant spoil ur name!! hahaa. sorry!!! =D hidden talent!!! shld have just played Glory Of Love for us..
the magic show was damn cool... he reminds me of cleby i dunnno why. LOL
and... and.... the stanley guy?! omg.. his voice is damn good!!!!!
and so are the rest of the singers...
nat totally melted me just now!! the 2nd song.. on the brink of tears...
Lesty has fans alrdy! hahaha... but they are really WOW-ers up there la...
sighh... i cant do anything!!!!!! ok maybe just sing.. like WOW.... singing is no big D... ><
PW results is back... its a C... ok la... given that my presentation was really really screwed up...
so nothing much to complain about...

im really tired... have like 6 essays to do.... and theres a long day of choir tmr.. gonna miss 2 weeks of tuition for choir... arghhh... and just had some argument with my mum...
sighhh...
all sorts of emotions gushing over...
and im still guessing..
its a cycle..
and i think i will give up soon...

BYE BYE

say byebye to England. yup. officially. thanks to the 3 of U!!!!!!
seriously, i felt sad la.. being left behind and all
say byebye to the friends who are going. yes.. all my best buds are going.
thanks again to the 3 of U!
say byebye to the cheap condo that ive rented out for so long.. to so many pple..
its time to tear those old walls down, build another new house.
with more stable walls for the private landed property.
yes.. it will be on sale at high price, a free hold apartment,
where one stays on, forever..
yes, say byebye to the past.
i feel like saying bye bye to the current tenant,
but each time he says he wanna move out, the desire to stay holds him back again.
i guess i'll have to wait. for the conformation slip to come.
before i can really say byebye.

fragile heart.

my heart's fragile, handle with care. if not, dun touch it at all. thanks.
its just been pieced back, i dun wanna smash it against the wall again.. too much pain to take, to much for the young heart that has yet felt loved, and yet feel the thorns pierce through each time. too much of guessing, too much of wrong decisions and too much of thoughts. yes. i shld just find a corner and hide away forever... good for nothing piece of ****. well.. i have improvements... but GP still sucked like no ones business..and econs.. dun even talk about it...


okayy.. shld focus on something else... had choir just now... Ms Seah was sooooo cute la!! OMG... AHAHAHA... i will so love her if im a guy... on this issue about being a guy. LOL... i think its amusing.... hahha. (yup, we will make a damn good couple if its possible ) HAH. but of coz.. nature forbids us to be.. well.... we are BFF. ok, i realise this post is rather incoherrent. shld end right now...

*my gosh, is tt even jealousy? *

all year's fool

yawnss... im super tired.. just finished watching ten brothers. damn sad. but they died with smiling. so not that bad.... anyway... today was supposed to be half day thing..but we ended sch with lit lecture at 130... and! there was supposed to be econs lecture at the same time..
so.... there was lit and econs going on at the same time.. we went for the lit one obviously.. dint knw econs was tt timing...
ok, i shld blog about this silly prank they played on me.... and it was seemingly real....
the 3 girls... FAITH , ANGELA and THERESA (FAT : mean pple ) hid my phone... initially A n T said they flushed my phone down the toilet,.. like wow. hahah, im not a 3 year old can.. and.... later on... they said they hid it in ms poh's pigeon hole... and it really felt damn real... coz they really sound convinced that it was there... and i went up and down the corridor... looking for my phone...and it was totally not in sight!!!! i was so panicky.. and mr w. yeo was just at the door.. he must think im insane...opening and peeping into all the pigeon hole and the recycle bin... and after that... faith said tt it cld be ms poh that has taken my phone away.. coz she went to the toilet... high chance she cld have checked the PH and took it in... so faith suggested that i msg her... and she really did sound convincing!!!!! den i went to the staffroom... pacing outside.. thinking whether to press the intercom... and i decided to wait for her to come out... and when faith wanted to drag me downstairs to find panadol... guess wht?! ms poh came out!!! i just went to her.. and started laughing in frt of her.... i think she felt shocked and amused. haaha.. from her expression.... then, F n T just ran away.. and frantically signalling me back... so i just ran back ... laughing non stop still.... and she just went back confused, i think. wht a nice prank la!!! made me run up and down and doin stupid things running around.... and i had to msg ms poh to apologize... hahhaa... too late to apologize... but she was really cool about it.. damn, have her class tmr.. woops. hahaha..

oh oh!! and rewinding back to 9am. i had PE... and.. not wanting to waste the 5 stations results... i took my 2.4... tt teacher was just being mean yest. sulks. but i walked like most of it.. and i had a not very good timing... 1640. there goes my gold.. >< but well... thank god... i passed... and for the 4th consecutive year... i ran with my period..how unlucky.. but its always this kinda timing.. so yeahh... im not going into the army anyway.. hahah!

one more thing!!!! hahaha, me and my wife were just talking about our relationship.. seriously.. its amazing.. ok. sounds wrong.. friendship i meant.... yeahh, its a wonder how close i can be with a person..... =DD love you soooooooooo much!!! haaha.. yeah. and all my other wonderful wonderful bullies and friends.. LOL.. yay. love u all! =D

*you treaded into my heart, you took away nothing.. but left the gentle footprints behind... are you wiping it off?? or will time erase it away?? but at the moment, the prints blend into mine... not now, i wouldnt wanna take away the beauty... lemme just enjoy the present... im contented this way*

=D bye peeps!!

saranghae.

DBSK madness!! omg.. love xiah and mickey. mickey has tattoos... but hes sexy. so hes forgiven. hah. Xiah's still my type. =DD bring me to korea!!!
aherm, Theresa Tan and Angela Siow stop bullying me!! damn you pple. haha. im nt to be trifled with. theresa, u knw why.. HAHAHAA...
choir concert's coming up.. haven sold a single ticket yet.. sighhss...
sorry choir.. leen's not popular.. she dun sell books and stationery.. and cant sell tickets.
LOL. sorry. tt was utter crap, i knw. dun roll ur eyes.. they may never wanna come down again...
and yay!! i got 67 for history =D a friggin B! After like ages.. i broke free of the U grade curse!! hahahaa.. yay!!! but i still have 3 Us tho.. namely GP, Econs and Math.. not surprising yeh?! haha. its eileen.. failing's her forte..... totally.
and i've decided to like myself more... if not i will just continue sinking into my little pit and see darkness forever... NOOOOO.. and all i hear are muffled echoes and the silent screams that vibrates so violently in the pits of my heart. ok.. whts with me and pits?!! okie.. i'll go for RUTS next time... the grand canyon?! lol... i realised i really veer off tangent when i talk... or write.. which is why im always doing so badly for lit n gp. eileen justs drifts off to her lala land. Thou shalt not drift... im not jay chou and neither is the title of my life initial D or initial E. hahaha...

ok, i'm self proclaiming insane... right... gotta go do math... left sch early today.. finshed econs finally... and squatting down by the road side and flagging the cab aint glam at all.. o well, eileen's never glam. not her word.

finished dou niu today.. OMGAWD LA... how can someone propose with an empty box and look so suave kneeling down lidat?!! hahaha... hes not tw's hottest guy for nth... and hebe is totally HOT. hah. but Xiah still beats everyone... i still like changmin's pup!! a maltese or smthing.. just looks CUTE! ahahahaha.... i want a pup too... oh. and i still owe kenny a hamster.. i drew a super ugly purple one for him... HAHAHA... totally ugly even tho its purple. i cant draw for heavens sake!!! hahaha.

aight... gotta zhao... =D byebye!!!!
* miss you =D *
yes, you, whoever's reading this...
HAHA.. pukes*SPATS*

OH OH..last thing.... pls get my tickets.. =D i'll love you alot alot alot alot.. HAHAH!!

OH NO.

AHHHHH.... screams!!!!! this shldnt be happening to me... sighhhs.. my heart's meeting her demise again.

i wanna scream, someone bring me to the beach.
going to cp to mug tmr. muscles totally ache.
not from today's 5 stations but more of yesterday's running and jumping...
and 2.4 on monday. like wht?!?! with my muscles and my cramping abdomen.. .aoowww.. im not gonna run man... but did well for the 5 stations tho, broke many of my own records... standing broad jump and shuttle run was amazing... 186!! i can jump over the guys of 183 club and they will go unscathed. cool huh. hahaha. anyway, the fact that i jumped over my own height isnt amazing. coz everyone shld jump over my height. hahaha. shuttle run was nice too.. i will usually retard during turns but this time was so much better... 10.77.. ok la..for a non-sports cca person. its considered commendable. and i got A for sit and reach as well.. for a woodblock, its amazing too. hahaha. yay. but 2.4 will spoil it again... GAHHHH... i cant run long distance... and i realise that my periods always come when i have to run 2.4... for 4 years consecutively. wow. hahaha.. why cant they let me run at ease?!!

but i really still feel like screaming and going crazy... bring me to somewhere secluded so that doing crazy stuffs will not seem too crazy... yawns. aight. gonna do econs...
have fun pple... in whtever u are doing..
and rmb!! absomusiclutely!!! =DD

AbsoMusicLutely

Hey all, ABSOMUSICLUTELY is proud to present you NYJC choir. pls do come down and support us and we will reward you with our hearts and souls. This night is not to be missed. contact me for further details. =D

angel in disguise

I woke up this morning feeling kind of blue
and I stumbled out of bed and
dragged my feet across the room
Right outside my front door was a rose
and a note that said 'Somebody Loves You'
Oh~ But out on the street it starts to pour
and before I get soaking wet,
A total stranger runs to give me
the jacket off his back
I turn around to thank him
But he waves me with a smile
And I can hardly believe my eyes
He puts on a halo and starts to fly
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
I met a good friend for lunch
and we had a delicious meal
But I forgot to bring my wallet
I felt like an imbecile
But she was sweet, she gave me a treat and
Bought me a chicken sandwich
To take home for tea
Oh~ But out on the street with nothing to eat
A man and his shopping cart go
Travelling to places
Collecting social graces
I give him my sandwich
and we chatter for a while
I see a rainbow wash over his eyes
He gives me his halo and
I start to fly
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
Don't try to hide away from me
I know you're by my side
Oooh~~
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look at Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
Everyday can be legendary
Every minute, an endless surprise
You could be the next angel in disguise
I woke up this morning
Feeling kind of new

TAGGED

This quiz is dedicated to XINYING (yes, you! hah)
here goes...
Q1) 7 things/people that make u smile
Ans: my family; my friends; PURPLE?! ; cute stuffs ; the blue blue sky.. ; the As i will get in A Levels?! ahaha. [ I'LL GET IT! ] hahah, ; kids/babies?! sorry, im not a paedo. but they just make me smile =D

Q2) 7 things to do to win my heart
Ans: be ultra nice, share intimate things for 30 mins and stare deeply into my eyes for 4 mins. HAHAH. taken from GP, science of love. anyway, i just turned into a bull and shitted. sorry. HAH, anyway, the most impt things is to love me alot. tts all. =D
Q3) 7 things i believe inAns: everything.

Q4)7 things i am afraid ofAns:
hmmm? faith will wanna say everything. BUT, 7 greatest frights : dark, butterfly, eerie stuffs ( knw wht im talking abt.. ) , heights? , strange things!? , dogs or shld i say things tt move ard my legs... freaky aint it? , and most importantly the feeling of abandonment. well, im castrophobic. pple knws why. hah. =(

Q5) 7 things i do everydayAns: well, wht shld i say?! the mundane!? well.. wake, eat, bathe, sleep, study, sing, music? HAH. yey, music's in my life. =D

Q6) 7 things i want to see right nw
Ans: a fairy godmother that tells me, i will turn u pretty, rich, healthy, intelligent and everything u wanna be! ahahaha.. next, i wanna see a calendar that notes public holiday for the rest of the year, or years. then, i wanna see.... hmmm.. my history paper!... seriously.. why wun he give it back?! keeping us in suspense. anddd... i'll wanna see beautiful beautiful things?! libra has a thing for beauty. which is why i dislike the mirror.. >.< ... i wanna see everything else in frt of me, coz i cant imagine myself not able to see anything ( i just acted like the blind in lit class today, that short moment irritated me... feels so frustrating to feel the way toeverything.. )

Q7) 7 people i want to do this quizAns: kelvin, jackson, kenny, lester, elaine, amanda, faith ( write it on a piece of paper and hand in to me. by this week, or i'll call your parents. hahah ) , who else reads my blog?! i duno!! hahaha

WARNING

here again, i announce, that i am FULLY, 100% TOTALLY, STRAIGHT!!
surprised that people actually still have doubts on it.
hahaha, prolly too close to my wifey..
BUT!! im totally into guys aight?!?!'
hahaha. and im also surprised that people actually read these blogs..
and i heard haters usually read it more than friends..wow.
i dun even visit blogs of friends that often.
okie... i dunno who hates me anyway.. haha.
Blocks was a total screw up. amazing math results. U3.. U for econs n gp as well.. sighh..
when do i stop veering off tangent when i write?!
i think i'll just do wht ms kwok suggested. write the question with big writing and put it in the pencil case. hah. alright people. take care... as well as the teachers from 0732. amusing and motivating talk pck gave. hah. we are all teachers, wow.
right... byebye! wun be here for some time, concert will just jam up our whole schedule...

OH OH!!! and YOU!! yes you, the one reading this very post. please please come for <> concert! u wun be disappointed, well, we will sing our best, so bring your ears!!
pls contact me for tickets. yes.. my hotline and my email's there.. just drop me a msg or smth. THANKS PPLE! <3
nights. (: