what i've learnt in conversations. but no idea if my writing is correct. hehe, writing based on hearing.

안녕하새요!
저는이린이미다
저는NTU학생임미다
난양태학교애타임미다
만나써 방깝심미다
저는 씽가버르에쎠 와쎠요


행복어디애써?
저는 기다리는..
나빠남자 씨러요!!!!
왜 맘미아파써?

greatest voices, because the Faith is great. Because it comes from the heart, for god. Hillsong united's really good!!!

so much to say, but no idea where to start.
i don't really express myself well.
too many things i cant explain.
been wanting to use the right words, but i'll end up using wrong ones.
i hope mastering communication helps? but i seriously doubt so. hahaha

my gastric feels kinda messed up now. cereal dint really help. ):

watched gossip girl again. started on vampire diaries. bad time to start i know, but i couldnt resist.
cant wait for valentines day to come out. then again, no valentine to watch with. hahah..
officially gave up on horoscopes and zodiacs. yeap. like what mr busy said just now, how can there be 12 fates?! I've found my own faith. I'm new with this, and i'm still learning. I hope my heart will be filled then.

okay, i've yet to do the tutorial for tmr. guess i'll do it tmr during break. hehe.

good luck to the cheer team. sorry for backing out again and again. but then again, i've never been part of it, all the hard work all of you had put in. i don't want me to go in and ruin things.

nope, thats not the inferiority complex kicking in. though i wouldnt ignore the fact that its been there all along. but its for the best. (: as for the inferiority complex. hmmmm. i'm sure i will see a change soon. I WILL start BELIEVING, in myself and in Him.

okay, back to work. and everything else, it'll be sealed and corked up for today.


so much uncertainties.

It takes 2 hands to clap.


Unwritten

I can't sleep
Even when I'm trying to
Closed eyes
Wouldn't do


Unwritten

I see my peers hitting the big 2. Oh dear, time flies and I'm growing olddd. On bus 27 right now and the bus was swerving like no ones business. I should supposedly balance better with my low cg. But apparently not. One of the commuter was amused by how much I swerved and how hard it was for me to hold on to the handles up there. Know she wasn't being rude. She smiled at me. Odd way to make someone smile! Hahah but at least I did (: waiting for Shihui at he busstop. Traveling is convenient in sk, (esp when I'm staying at he expressway) BUT just not to NTU. The express bus service is coming soon , though I Wun see the need for it this sem. Would like to try it out though, hahah. It feels like old time, taking school bus.

My voice is halfway back, but I still can't sing ): can't hit certain notes. Aargghh, really miss singing. If my voice dun ever come back I'll be so freaking sad.

I see Shihui bus! Seeya
Unwritten

Back at my old place doing hair. Going to jas's party later, meeting Elaine n Manda tmr and going back hall straight. Where's the mugging??!!!!
Hope I'm nt sleepy enough to do it on sun night. But no lounge to go to ):):):


Unwritten

There are actually paid apps for the countdown!!

Live the way u want it nowww!!!!!

Another good read


Unwritten

Watched The Time Traveler' Wife yesterday.
Rachel McAdams(Clare) is simply hot. and Eric Bana (Henry a.k.a TheTimeTraveler) is HOT TOO!! a combi of keanu reeves and hugh jackman!! oolala~ okays, enough of salivating over the cast. The movie wasn't too bad if not for the medication kicking in halfway. BUT I'm pretty sure the novel will do ALOT better. My bro's hogging it now, so till he finishes, and till i'm done with The Last Lecture, i'll move on to that amazing read everyone were so in to.
The movie wasn't so much of a tearjerker, leaves me mellow with a tinge of melancholy. teared in a few scenes , and the most memorable ones were henry with her daughter and henry in the subway with his mum. I guess its really important to tell how much you love your loved ones. They might not know it, and you might not be there in time to tell them. Time traveling don't exist in our world, not that I know of at least. (p.s. i'm always leaving room for fantasies. heh)

my fingers are going numb. the medication is really quite effective! nice job doc, hope i can get back my voice ASAP. K session awaits me! i had a really odd dream. I dreamt that I was performing on stage with S.H.E!! lol. Guess I really really love to sing. Thats the only time i feel alive. Ftw, i really don't sing tt well. and my dear roomie please stop telling the whole world i can!!!!! lol. many will be very disappointed!!! My ability is like a plankton in the vast ocean. but im a happy plankton at least, when i sing (: for now, lemme hope i can get over stage fright.

just received a really really long msg from angela. hahaha, i wonder why we don't talk on the phone instead! but its gooood, i love long msges. Really nice to have u around everytime. (: Though we don't get to see each other often, we treasure the times when we are! this sounds so gay!! LOL. and i should try to not cling on to u like a koala bear next time. i sense weird stares from the public. HAHAHA. yes i look at pretty girls, i have female eye candies and i cling on to my wife like a koala, but take my word. im STRAIGHT!! LIKE THIS _________________ VERY STRAIGHT. I adore beautiful things , tts all. and probably side effects from past experiences, BUT, i do fancy guys, still . LOL.

People are turning pretty, especially people in love. I've yet to experience the wonders of it, and so I'm taking them in from novels, movies and drama. Cant deny they aren't doing much good, bringing my expectations higher, and being way too idealistic about it. I still believe we're made in pairs, just that he's yet to cross my path. or maybe he did, but we never knew. Will i ever know?

To wait or to pursue?

Guide me, Father.
For now, my pursuits will be set on knowledge. I want more answers, and i believe I will find them myself. Knowledge will not leave me, it will not mock me. It will always be there, filling me up, and leaving room for more. The emptiness i feel will be filled, because i will then be rich. Not with tangible gold, but hidden treasures that will be invaluable.

The last lecture

Current read:


Unwritten

To the doc, finally

So much med :(
Nice doctor gave mr discount somemore lol! And 2 days MC (: I'm legally ponning lecture hahhas


Unwritten

In transit and lost. What am I doing?

i conclude that cough is the worst thing to have!!!
beats fever and flu. and so sorry to the people whom i've spread to!!!
come to me for pi pa gao or whtever u all need!!!!

wheezing is back when i thought i recovered. ):
maybe its the aircon.
argghhh, god bless us.

Theres a reason why i'm created this way, but i don't see it, yet?

Night lights and emo songs.



ME

So easy to sink in, so hard to climb out of it..


ME

7 New Habits

This is a +ve post!!!!!

NOTE TO SELF:

1) see a doc ASAP

2) NO MORE EMO POSTS!!

3) NO MORE self hate situations!!
i'm just gonna put my best to everything. and if i still suck, i would simply resign to fate. no one's born perfect eh?

4) OPEN MY EYES and OPEN MY HEART.
looking back into the past, realised many things i've missed. Beautiful things are everywhere, i just need to discover them, right? My heart tells me the wrong things sometimes, but well, theres always my friends to help me judge eh? whats right and whats wrong.....

5) MOVE ON.
lingering in the past way too often. mistakes made, damage done. so, lesson learnt?

6) GPA 4+
this is to pull up my really cui GPA from last sem. Therefore, no more late nights, no more intensives trainings, no more stoning, and most imptantly, no more sleeping in lectures and tutorials. NO MORE. pinch me everytime i do sleep okayyy?!?!?!?!!?! AUNTIE U SEE THIS!? wake me up everytime i sleep!!!!!!!

7) Regain my patience.
too much adrenaline rush my bro says. Increasingly combustable. stayed away from home for too long i suppose. been popping back now and then lately so that i don't forget how i survived my 18 years at home. i get angry easily lately, at myself only actually. I am still nice, but not a push over anymore. (:

hmm... cant seem to think of anymore at the moment. LAST but not least be HAPPY? hahhas, not a huge problem since i find amusement in anything. oh!!! and dance dance revolution is actually quite fun. i wanna secretly go play again. and Alvin is damnnn zai !!! oh! Alvin just reminded me of the movie i wanna watch!!!!!! we need to watch it soon!!!! school is starting!!!!!!

IHG and Sentosa totally burned me. I miss my voice!!!!!!! It was gone yesterday. now i'm left with a really husky manly tone. wonder what my voice will become... i don't mind having a less kiddy voice ! so lets hope i retain a little bit of the bass tone after this cough. my physique and my voice totally label me as a kid please. hahaha. I AM NOT.

i want nice music. so please spam with songs aight?!?!??!!?!?

OH . sudden urge to play dai di. hahahaha.

9am foyer tmr
training at hall 2
match at 2
go home after match?

mmmm..... i need to get a few things done, but my mum will so kill me if she see me burnt like this. HAO HAO HAO???

Stephen in action - again.
I need epiphany.
Self controversial, self hate
Flaws magnified
Dunggg

Someone take them all away,
But why do your voice pop up in my head still, now and then. Wasn't aware of the impact you had on me. Maybe it was real then, or at least I thought it was...?

great show, great song. (:

if the the cycle's coming to an end.

its not a bad thing really.
so much destruction done, the world's crumbling.
well, let it crumble.
lets give nature a break.
hit the restart button in 2 years , and recover the beauty of plains.
not a bad idea.
at least we end this journey together.
living is the process of dying.
its just what we do while we wait.
some chose to help others reach their destination, faster.
and some try hard to prevent from reaching.
all futile, I would say.

if the prophecy is true, well then, i'd be happy to reach my destination with everyone else,
together.
it is good to have a deadline set,
so we know what we want to accomplish.
so that we do not leave regret.

live like tmr's the last day people!!!!!!
Carpe diem !!!