Saturday, October 4, 2008
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Friday, October 3, 2008
what can i do man,
it always happens.
again and again,
not like we want it,
not like we like it.
have you thought why,
we're seldom home.
and given the times that we are,
we want to leave far..
screw it , im gonna go mug and get myself a scholarship and leave .
i take my hat off daddy, seriously, and hes the only reason why we never flare up.
because its just too sad to see him suffer when he's done so much for us alrdy.
and now i hear them through the walls , about the same issues over and over again .
screw it. screw it screw it.
it always happens.
again and again,
not like we want it,
not like we like it.
have you thought why,
we're seldom home.
and given the times that we are,
we want to leave far..
screw it , im gonna go mug and get myself a scholarship and leave .
i take my hat off daddy, seriously, and hes the only reason why we never flare up.
because its just too sad to see him suffer when he's done so much for us alrdy.
and now i hear them through the walls , about the same issues over and over again .
screw it. screw it screw it.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
its just me i guess.
just look bully-able.
perhaps, i cant really blame them?
brought this upon myself??
so i guess nth much has changed?
ok maybe, i do have to admit, intentions are different now.
i dunno wht those kids had in their minds when they decide to bully eileen again.
for fun? because shes fugly and no one knows why shes among the rest?
it seems like no matter hw hard i train, hw tough i try to get,
the debris inside just allow others to break me so easily.
what should i do man, my identity , complicated enough, is coupled with my ever conflicting mind.
debris debris debris, the haunting again.
just look bully-able.
perhaps, i cant really blame them?
brought this upon myself??
so i guess nth much has changed?
ok maybe, i do have to admit, intentions are different now.
i dunno wht those kids had in their minds when they decide to bully eileen again.
for fun? because shes fugly and no one knows why shes among the rest?
it seems like no matter hw hard i train, hw tough i try to get,
the debris inside just allow others to break me so easily.
what should i do man, my identity , complicated enough, is coupled with my ever conflicting mind.
debris debris debris, the haunting again.
I'll be there for my friends who need me,
for a ear, for a hand, nothing more, nothing less.
once bitten twice shy, i have you to thank, in a way.
for teaching me, lessons that i need in life.
i take what i've experienced as learnings,
and to not repeat the same mistakes,
and to open up my eyes, to close up my heart a little,
to respect myself more.....
for a ear, for a hand, nothing more, nothing less.
once bitten twice shy, i have you to thank, in a way.
for teaching me, lessons that i need in life.
i take what i've experienced as learnings,
and to not repeat the same mistakes,
and to open up my eyes, to close up my heart a little,
to respect myself more.....
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
went to mug with lester at cp subway today,
and the queue was really long but the place was rather vacant today.
however, the crowd started streaming in soon,
and we knew we had to move after the staff came to ask if we were studying.
lols, i think he didn't knew how to chase us out of the place or anything.
so he started the conversation with:
" hi, are you all studying here? "
-err like duhhhh , as i looked down at our tables, spread with books, paper, pens and calculators.. thought it was pretty obvious . haha. and no, i didn't say that, cause i could tell he was trying hard through his awkward expression, poor guy. XD
" erm, yupp, we are"
" oh, so are you all gonna order any other food soon? "
- i looked down at my 1 1/2 cookies untouched and my 3 inch worth of oven roasted chicken breast hearty italian , PLUS a 3/4 filled regular barley. hmmmms, do i look like i can finish em all? hahas but i did feel bad about staying there to mug.
" i guess so? not now though."
" oh, err, do you all need 3 tables? or are there more coming? " (Something lidat)
- oh crap, yes i realised that 2 of us were taking 3 tables, but since angela was coming i didn't think about that at that time. hahas. pretty mean huh, sorry customers at subway today . XD
and so we left the place, and went around to get a new place while waiting for my buin.
and boy is cp crowded today!!!!!! the public holiday dint really do us students much good as there was a huge flow of crowd and patrons in fastfood outlets.
and sooooo, after walking around, we decided to go back to my area to look for tables under my flats. but unfortunately, they were either infested by ants, or stinky due to the garbage chute. and FINALLY, back to my place again, the sleep inducing warm home, that me and buin nua-ed the whole of yesterday after bball.
first time les went to a girl's place i think, haha, and for buin, i lost count of the number of times she came. almost like her second home alrdy =D
and wei quan nearly came over to mug together , lols.
les left in the evening to meet wq somewhere else and me and buin checked out some of royston tan's productions, they're really good, especially the film "cut", ( strongly recommended by me ) me and buin were utterly amused .
after dinner, me and buin wanted to play ball, BUT, to our dismay, when we arrived at the court, it was totally occupied by big boys in jerseys. that was a huge sign for us to back off home with our simple intentions to shoot some balls. o well, so we decided to divert our time to another sport, badminton, one that my dad LOVES A LOT. hahah, and so we went back up to exchange my bball for shuttlecocks and rackets ( i don't think that's how we spell it? but the dictionary spells it this way. hmmmm) and a new net. my dad came down to join us shortly and set up the net for us. hehes, i think i got my wife interested in badminton already. its been quite some time since i last played badminton already, but it was GREAT FUN =D smacking and smacking = firmer muscles. =DDD
alright, i shall go bathe, buin left half an hour ago. yup yup.
shall mug after bathing =D GAMBATTE! HWAITING! GA YAO!!
and the queue was really long but the place was rather vacant today.
however, the crowd started streaming in soon,
and we knew we had to move after the staff came to ask if we were studying.
lols, i think he didn't knew how to chase us out of the place or anything.
so he started the conversation with:
" hi, are you all studying here? "
-err like duhhhh , as i looked down at our tables, spread with books, paper, pens and calculators.. thought it was pretty obvious . haha. and no, i didn't say that, cause i could tell he was trying hard through his awkward expression, poor guy. XD
" erm, yupp, we are"
" oh, so are you all gonna order any other food soon? "
- i looked down at my 1 1/2 cookies untouched and my 3 inch worth of oven roasted chicken breast hearty italian , PLUS a 3/4 filled regular barley. hmmmms, do i look like i can finish em all? hahas but i did feel bad about staying there to mug.
" i guess so? not now though."
" oh, err, do you all need 3 tables? or are there more coming? " (Something lidat)
- oh crap, yes i realised that 2 of us were taking 3 tables, but since angela was coming i didn't think about that at that time. hahas. pretty mean huh, sorry customers at subway today . XD
and so we left the place, and went around to get a new place while waiting for my buin.
and boy is cp crowded today!!!!!! the public holiday dint really do us students much good as there was a huge flow of crowd and patrons in fastfood outlets.
and sooooo, after walking around, we decided to go back to my area to look for tables under my flats. but unfortunately, they were either infested by ants, or stinky due to the garbage chute. and FINALLY, back to my place again, the sleep inducing warm home, that me and buin nua-ed the whole of yesterday after bball.
first time les went to a girl's place i think, haha, and for buin, i lost count of the number of times she came. almost like her second home alrdy =D
and wei quan nearly came over to mug together , lols.
les left in the evening to meet wq somewhere else and me and buin checked out some of royston tan's productions, they're really good, especially the film "cut", ( strongly recommended by me ) me and buin were utterly amused .
after dinner, me and buin wanted to play ball, BUT, to our dismay, when we arrived at the court, it was totally occupied by big boys in jerseys. that was a huge sign for us to back off home with our simple intentions to shoot some balls. o well, so we decided to divert our time to another sport, badminton, one that my dad LOVES A LOT. hahah, and so we went back up to exchange my bball for shuttlecocks and rackets ( i don't think that's how we spell it? but the dictionary spells it this way. hmmmm) and a new net. my dad came down to join us shortly and set up the net for us. hehes, i think i got my wife interested in badminton already. its been quite some time since i last played badminton already, but it was GREAT FUN =D smacking and smacking = firmer muscles. =DDD
alright, i shall go bathe, buin left half an hour ago. yup yup.
shall mug after bathing =D GAMBATTE! HWAITING! GA YAO!!
Here I Am
Another end, another start.
There's no beginning if there's is no end,
yup, so here I am again, starting off from where i left.
the reason, being technical faults of my live journal.
the page just wouldn't load on my side,
and many times i feel liking penning (typing) something,
the page gets stuck and after like 10 mins, i lost all senses to write/type.
たから, blogspot, again. =D
There's no beginning if there's is no end,
yup, so here I am again, starting off from where i left.
the reason, being technical faults of my live journal.
the page just wouldn't load on my side,
and many times i feel liking penning (typing) something,
the page gets stuck and after like 10 mins, i lost all senses to write/type.
たから, blogspot, again. =D
Friday, June 13, 2008
死亡
说了太多。
是为别人而说。
自己的话，都到哪儿了？
一句一句，被心中的旋涡吞咽，埋没。
被卷进了龙卷风。
忘了心语该怎么表达。
奇怪，是忘了？还是逃避？
答案很清楚，但却不想被触碰到。。
虽然说了那么多，我发现，我的表达能力真得很差。
差在不懂得怎么表达自己。
难过，悲伤。
但原因却显得愚蠢。
因为又害怕，一再被遗忘，被丢下，被遗弃。。
所以信任。我还是不认识这个字眼。
不想接受。。
不敢接受。。
害怕又被伤害。
我想。
这次因该够清楚了吧。
我也是时候面对了。
这样不是最完美的结局吧。。
时间，可以冲淡一切。好与坏。。。
也不该去想了吧。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
我的心，再一次，选择死亡。-----------------------------------------------------------------
是为别人而说。
自己的话，都到哪儿了？
一句一句，被心中的旋涡吞咽，埋没。
被卷进了龙卷风。
忘了心语该怎么表达。
奇怪，是忘了？还是逃避？
答案很清楚，但却不想被触碰到。。
虽然说了那么多，我发现，我的表达能力真得很差。
差在不懂得怎么表达自己。
难过，悲伤。
但原因却显得愚蠢。
因为又害怕，一再被遗忘，被丢下，被遗弃。。
所以信任。我还是不认识这个字眼。
不想接受。。
不敢接受。。
害怕又被伤害。
我想。
这次因该够清楚了吧。
我也是时候面对了。
这样不是最完美的结局吧。。
时间，可以冲淡一切。好与坏。。。
也不该去想了吧。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
我的心，再一次，选择死亡。-----------------------------------------------------------------
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
紫色的旋律
为何是华文？！哈哈，被骏哥感染了。是的，我会PO多点文章的。＝Ｄ我也好久没接触华文了。谢谢你啦！把我拉回来。还有，我说骏哥啊，隐私，是不存在的。我想，连内心深处的某个角落，都不可能得到隐私。 世界上，人类，没有秘密。
深夜里的寂静，优美，凄凉。
脱离白天的吵杂，黑夜的喧哗。
深夜的宁静，不受打扰。
只听见键盘的敲打声。
打着每个字眼，
一切显得，平凡，毫无目的。
人的最终目的。不就是死亡吗？
那为何把空虚填满，而最后得到的，还是空虚呢？
而在填补那些空虚的当下，仿佛早成了更多空虚。
哦。时间不多了。
该回到书海了。许如芸的泪海，因该是来自Ｋ书Ｋ到飚泪的灵感吧。
好的。跟大家说掰掰咯！
深夜里的寂静，优美，凄凉。
脱离白天的吵杂，黑夜的喧哗。
深夜的宁静，不受打扰。
只听见键盘的敲打声。
打着每个字眼，
一切显得，平凡，毫无目的。
人的最终目的。不就是死亡吗？
那为何把空虚填满，而最后得到的，还是空虚呢？
而在填补那些空虚的当下，仿佛早成了更多空虚。
哦。时间不多了。
该回到书海了。许如芸的泪海，因该是来自Ｋ书Ｋ到飚泪的灵感吧。
好的。跟大家说掰掰咯！
Monday, June 2, 2008
BACK finally
HEY!!!!!! am i missed?! bet i am! i'm so in a procrastinating mood these days...
and i'm supposed to make these 10 days worth while?! gosh! i suck!!!!
went to AMK to mug today.. the library wasnt that comfortable to talk so we shifted downstairs only with all the tables packed. so we left the library for the drive in Macs.
that place's rather cool. looks huge but the interior's actually quite small...
i think its mainly outdoor seating.... yay Jim! we have fate! hahaha.
anyways, i did something really dumb today, i waited for the friggin bus for like near half an hour, but when i stood up to go flag the bus, it just zoomed off!!!!! so i had to wait for another half an hour.. so practically an hour spent on waiting for the bus, highly frustrating! but W.Jim came along and took the same bus wimme, company for the bus ride, and some catching up, so is that considered yin huo de fu?! heh. (and sorry! seldom link pple. im quite an IT idiot. ).
supposed to finish my SGC by 4 June, econs lesson tmr. supposed to prepare essay outlines for the essay qn 2. which i dunno wht. URGH. and my mum keeps chasing me to bed!!!!!!!!! highly highly frustrating... >< my gosh. ulcers give me bad temper!!!!!
and ive been PMS-ing for ages alrdy!!!!!!
sighh... owight! shall get my SGC over and done with..yes its such a chore!!!
BYEEEE~
and i'm supposed to make these 10 days worth while?! gosh! i suck!!!!
went to AMK to mug today.. the library wasnt that comfortable to talk so we shifted downstairs only with all the tables packed. so we left the library for the drive in Macs.
that place's rather cool. looks huge but the interior's actually quite small...
i think its mainly outdoor seating.... yay Jim! we have fate! hahaha.
anyways, i did something really dumb today, i waited for the friggin bus for like near half an hour, but when i stood up to go flag the bus, it just zoomed off!!!!! so i had to wait for another half an hour.. so practically an hour spent on waiting for the bus, highly frustrating! but W.Jim came along and took the same bus wimme, company for the bus ride, and some catching up, so is that considered yin huo de fu?! heh. (and sorry! seldom link pple. im quite an IT idiot. ).
supposed to finish my SGC by 4 June, econs lesson tmr. supposed to prepare essay outlines for the essay qn 2. which i dunno wht. URGH. and my mum keeps chasing me to bed!!!!!!!!! highly highly frustrating... >< my gosh. ulcers give me bad temper!!!!!
and ive been PMS-ing for ages alrdy!!!!!!
sighh... owight! shall get my SGC over and done with..yes its such a chore!!!
BYEEEE~
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
baday
ok.. today really started out badly..
should have known, it warned me alrdy..
pseudo is really freaky sometimes.. ><
or issit like wht mushi said? HAHA.
wow, i just laughed..
its a bad sign when you see me up here..
now tt i dun really blog...
i come here only when i need to..
and when theres a need.. its not a good thing..
yeah. ok, eileen chia, pls put on a smile and leave the room now..
u've got a long day... (quite short actually. hah)
yeahh... gotta go get my stuffs from cwp l8r too. ties in nicely for me.
aight. looking forward to tmr alrdy =D
should have known, it warned me alrdy..
pseudo is really freaky sometimes.. ><
or issit like wht mushi said? HAHA.
wow, i just laughed..
its a bad sign when you see me up here..
now tt i dun really blog...
i come here only when i need to..
and when theres a need.. its not a good thing..
yeah. ok, eileen chia, pls put on a smile and leave the room now..
u've got a long day... (quite short actually. hah)
yeahh... gotta go get my stuffs from cwp l8r too. ties in nicely for me.
aight. looking forward to tmr alrdy =D
Sunday, May 11, 2008
can you feel the love tonight~
my gosh.. i feel like doing something romantic tonight! hahaha
random me have random feelings. HAHA
and i feel like screaming!!!!!
it took me like 3 days to do my gp presentation... redone it like upteen times...
problem with perfectionists.. cant say its perfect now... but i tried to not go off tangent like what i always do..
my parents are out for wedding dinner tonight!!
and my mum look super cute!!!!!! HAHAHA..
issit the radiance added on by mother's day?!? lol..
but her new haircut really make her look so cute!!! hahahah...
oh, and i have the sudden urge to cook my own dinner.. lols...
speaking of random...... i miss my wife!! HAHAHA... or hubby now?! lol! confused identities and roles.. lols...
and wifey! its unfair k! i've been man for sooo long..lols.. arent u gonna return me manly love?! LOL!! and u got too much from him alrdy!! so gimme more!! yes.. MORE!!!!
hahaa, and theres another moment of realization....
this is really random coz this matter happened soo long ago.. and only its recently that i learnt something from it... haha. [ I had eyes. but I couldn't see. the next time, I will look, with my heart. (: ]
im just talking to myself now.. just in case you pple are confused over wht im talking about.. hahaha! yeahh... can totally ignore this part...
okieee... so right now i have 3 choices : 1) go to a beach and feed myself to the mosquitos and red ants 2) go to coldstorage and get stuffs to cook. 3) stone until my bro get food for me. hahaha
hahhaa.. im feeling unsettled and jumpy.. shoo myself off before i start spouting nonsense.. lol..
BYEE XD
random me have random feelings. HAHA
and i feel like screaming!!!!!
it took me like 3 days to do my gp presentation... redone it like upteen times...
problem with perfectionists.. cant say its perfect now... but i tried to not go off tangent like what i always do..
my parents are out for wedding dinner tonight!!
and my mum look super cute!!!!!! HAHAHA..
issit the radiance added on by mother's day?!? lol..
but her new haircut really make her look so cute!!! hahahah...
oh, and i have the sudden urge to cook my own dinner.. lols...
speaking of random...... i miss my wife!! HAHAHA... or hubby now?! lol! confused identities and roles.. lols...
and wifey! its unfair k! i've been man for sooo long..lols.. arent u gonna return me manly love?! LOL!! and u got too much from him alrdy!! so gimme more!! yes.. MORE!!!!
hahaa, and theres another moment of realization....
this is really random coz this matter happened soo long ago.. and only its recently that i learnt something from it... haha. [ I had eyes. but I couldn't see. the next time, I will look, with my heart. (: ]
im just talking to myself now.. just in case you pple are confused over wht im talking about.. hahaha! yeahh... can totally ignore this part...
okieee... so right now i have 3 choices : 1) go to a beach and feed myself to the mosquitos and red ants 2) go to coldstorage and get stuffs to cook. 3) stone until my bro get food for me. hahaha
hahhaa.. im feeling unsettled and jumpy.. shoo myself off before i start spouting nonsense.. lol..
BYEE XD
Friday, May 9, 2008
GO GO FIGHTING!
ate super alot today... bursting. hahah.
i think i eat alot when i'm stressed... gonna turn really fat soon.
esp when mids are coming...
hah. YAY. finally could understand something..
hypothesis testing.. even tho i feel asleep, but managed to catch up with what i missed.
yay. i understood.. finally.. the aliens went back to Mars.. human language finally.. =D
its Be Yourself Day today! my gosh.. 0730 totally rock the campus grounds today luhh. haha.
nice one guys! with the timeline thingy... heh, we dint get to do it coz we THOUGHT we handed in the form, but we dint... so yeahh.. haahaa.. but i was expecting something better from pck. hah.
had consultation with mdm sha just now... early in the morning.. >< if not i wld have gone later... my lessons starts at 11! wth right. hah
gonna redo my gp presentation for the 4th time.. the play ended. finally.. with alot of screw ups on my part.. coz i realised i forgot all about euthanasia.. lol... but dint turn out tt bad. haha! balveen n tie zheng shld be more intitmate la!!!! RAH. hahaha.
and aiyahh., feel bad to the group. hahaha. gave them shit stuffs..
neways.... i wanna swim!!!!!!!!! its been ages since i last swam...i refuse to go to a public pool. HAHA. >.<
alright. ishld get back to gp.. ( haha, what you give is not always what u get! )
i think i eat alot when i'm stressed... gonna turn really fat soon.
esp when mids are coming...
hah. YAY. finally could understand something..
hypothesis testing.. even tho i feel asleep, but managed to catch up with what i missed.
yay. i understood.. finally.. the aliens went back to Mars.. human language finally.. =D
its Be Yourself Day today! my gosh.. 0730 totally rock the campus grounds today luhh. haha.
nice one guys! with the timeline thingy... heh, we dint get to do it coz we THOUGHT we handed in the form, but we dint... so yeahh.. haahaa.. but i was expecting something better from pck. hah.
had consultation with mdm sha just now... early in the morning.. >< if not i wld have gone later... my lessons starts at 11! wth right. hah
gonna redo my gp presentation for the 4th time.. the play ended. finally.. with alot of screw ups on my part.. coz i realised i forgot all about euthanasia.. lol... but dint turn out tt bad. haha! balveen n tie zheng shld be more intitmate la!!!! RAH. hahaha.
and aiyahh., feel bad to the group. hahaha. gave them shit stuffs..
neways.... i wanna swim!!!!!!!!! its been ages since i last swam...i refuse to go to a public pool. HAHA. >.<
alright. ishld get back to gp.. ( haha, what you give is not always what u get! )
Thursday, May 8, 2008
JIAYOU
okayy. firstly, one thing that impacted me alot was the thing that PCK said to me
" she says your math won't make it. which means you won't pass"
i felt something bit me hard, like a piece of my flesh tearing away..
okay la, nt that bad. HAHA. anyway. plus wht my bro told me yest.
im like totally motivated to work hard! YES!!!
i will work hard!!!! hehe. JIAYOU! create optimum environment to work in..
work smart. and i will get to the top!!!!!!!!
and YAY! no more tenants! im sealing up the place.
no more intrusions, no more invasions.
yupp. till next year... and during this period of time, its gotta revamp, renovate and put on fresh coats of paints to welcome the new owner. and its gotta be a freehold space on high price.
okay. i got too metaphorical to the extent that no one understood. HAH!
alright.. jiayous with gp!!!! im gonna need more sleep! =D
take care guys!!!
" she says your math won't make it. which means you won't pass"
i felt something bit me hard, like a piece of my flesh tearing away..
okay la, nt that bad. HAHA. anyway. plus wht my bro told me yest.
im like totally motivated to work hard! YES!!!
i will work hard!!!! hehe. JIAYOU! create optimum environment to work in..
work smart. and i will get to the top!!!!!!!!
and YAY! no more tenants! im sealing up the place.
no more intrusions, no more invasions.
yupp. till next year... and during this period of time, its gotta revamp, renovate and put on fresh coats of paints to welcome the new owner. and its gotta be a freehold space on high price.
okay. i got too metaphorical to the extent that no one understood. HAH!
alright.. jiayous with gp!!!! im gonna need more sleep! =D
take care guys!!!
Sunday, May 4, 2008
long time no speak if you guys realised! hahah
its been a few days since i last blogged..
okay, not that long actually..
not very much updates tho...
life's as usual. all bout the mundane..
except that recently the pokemon bug is infused into us. hahah
our class surfaced a few trainers. =D yeap. 17/18 year old pokemon trainers. HAHAH
amusing huh.. but its quite fun actually... u just feel like walking on and on... training the pokemons to higher level, and hunting for more!!!!
gotta catch em all!
HAH, that felt ages ago..
okay.. there's choir on wed.. >< thought there'd be no more.. but still its an official wrapup,
a handover to the next batch of J1s.. yupp. hang in there!!! poor J1s. haha.
yeahh.. with TBS.. really feels like a long way to go..
im in the com lab now.. super multitasking.. pokemoning, blogging, doing my gp..
yeah, i cant really multitask esp when im on the phone..
when im on the phone i realise i will just either only able to talk to the person on the other end..
or ignore the person on the phone while doing my own stuffs. hahahaa..
yeahh.. been talking to theresa quite abit lately... its becoz of the M1 thing la.. hahaha..shes one of the M1 chat friends.. i can add one more ya knw.. so whoever's M1 customer do let me knw! hahahaa. if not its going to waste.. im only fully utilizing theresa's part. yupp
really hungry, and im PMS-ing, amanda as well.. hunger plus drowsiness and lessons dosent help. ):
HAI! gotta go have lunch... we are alllllll deaddddd XD
aight. BYEBYE!!!!!!!
=DD
its been a few days since i last blogged..
okay, not that long actually..
not very much updates tho...
life's as usual. all bout the mundane..
except that recently the pokemon bug is infused into us. hahah
our class surfaced a few trainers. =D yeap. 17/18 year old pokemon trainers. HAHAH
amusing huh.. but its quite fun actually... u just feel like walking on and on... training the pokemons to higher level, and hunting for more!!!!
gotta catch em all!
HAH, that felt ages ago..
okay.. there's choir on wed.. >< thought there'd be no more.. but still its an official wrapup,
a handover to the next batch of J1s.. yupp. hang in there!!! poor J1s. haha.
yeahh.. with TBS.. really feels like a long way to go..
im in the com lab now.. super multitasking.. pokemoning, blogging, doing my gp..
yeah, i cant really multitask esp when im on the phone..
when im on the phone i realise i will just either only able to talk to the person on the other end..
or ignore the person on the phone while doing my own stuffs. hahahaa..
yeahh.. been talking to theresa quite abit lately... its becoz of the M1 thing la.. hahaha..shes one of the M1 chat friends.. i can add one more ya knw.. so whoever's M1 customer do let me knw! hahahaa. if not its going to waste.. im only fully utilizing theresa's part. yupp
really hungry, and im PMS-ing, amanda as well.. hunger plus drowsiness and lessons dosent help. ):
HAI! gotta go have lunch... we are alllllll deaddddd XD
aight. BYEBYE!!!!!!!
=DD
Friday, May 2, 2008
CREEP
When you were here before,
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so very special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here
I don't care if it hurts, I wanna have control
I want a perfect body I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around
You're so very special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh
She's running out the door
She's running out
She run run run run...run...
Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so very special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here...
When you were here before,
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so very special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here
I don't care if it hurts, I wanna have control
I want a perfect body I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around
You're so very special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh
She's running out the door
She's running out
She run run run run...run...
Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so very special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here...
Thursday, May 1, 2008
OUCH
ahh, my hopes went up to the clouds and crashed down instantly when mummy said i cant go.
and i bet lynette's feeling terrible too.. sorry!!! i gave you tt glimpse of hope and threw it away.. but i do really wanna go. i really do... so after exams.. i will definitely fly over!!!
went to the airport with wifey today..
super super super packed..
we were shooed away from t3 so we took the skytrain to t2.
t2 macs was packed too.. but we managed to find a table..
and the manager just went ardchasing pple away but we dint budge
then theres this table that have been left there because some pple left their belongings there.. unattended... den the police had to come and take it away.. drama rama. lol.
den it was only after angela telling me den i realise the tables beside us were actually J1s.. no wonder the PW materials felt so familiar. yupp.. poor J1s...
yeahh.. and i had to leave early to visit my granny at TTSH.
creepy place.. i have the bad feeling in hospitals..
luckily my grandma was just doing some check, nth much is confirmed yet..
but when she said her heart felt abit congested i was feeelin rather scared..
i had a dream that i had heart problem not long ago...
so freaky... ahhhhh.. okayyy...
lemme move on....
hahaha.. yeah.. okay.. so the day pretty much comes to an end after dinner.. toured around sengkang-punggol... really dark at night.. (Esp. at punggol end. )
ahhh. and cheer up my dearest friends!!!!!
FATE won't be FATE if someone's soul is not present.. find back ur souls!!!!!!
yeahh??? JIAYOU!!!!!!! and im really proud of the 2 of you...
who have the courage to face it...
yes.. thanks im not practicing wht i preach, but do cheer up k?!?!!!!!!
and i see the 2 of ur convos flashing at me right now.. HAHAHAAA
aight.. lester's infusing his KoRn into my music bank.. hahhaaa.
and OMG.. i finally found CREEP!!!!!!!!!!
come find me if u want it k?!?!!! its really nice..
yoga from xing guang 1 sang it and got 20++ marks!!!! yes.. its tt nice..
im still confused constantly..
yehh.. OMG... YAY 11:11 . hahaha..
okayy... my train of thoughts is getting messy..
shld stopp here.. hahahaha
and... guys shld seriously beware of their language used..
yepp. BYE!
and i bet lynette's feeling terrible too.. sorry!!! i gave you tt glimpse of hope and threw it away.. but i do really wanna go. i really do... so after exams.. i will definitely fly over!!!
went to the airport with wifey today..
super super super packed..
we were shooed away from t3 so we took the skytrain to t2.
t2 macs was packed too.. but we managed to find a table..
and the manager just went ardchasing pple away but we dint budge
then theres this table that have been left there because some pple left their belongings there.. unattended... den the police had to come and take it away.. drama rama. lol.
den it was only after angela telling me den i realise the tables beside us were actually J1s.. no wonder the PW materials felt so familiar. yupp.. poor J1s...
yeahh.. and i had to leave early to visit my granny at TTSH.
creepy place.. i have the bad feeling in hospitals..
luckily my grandma was just doing some check, nth much is confirmed yet..
but when she said her heart felt abit congested i was feeelin rather scared..
i had a dream that i had heart problem not long ago...
so freaky... ahhhhh.. okayyy...
lemme move on....
hahaha.. yeah.. okay.. so the day pretty much comes to an end after dinner.. toured around sengkang-punggol... really dark at night.. (Esp. at punggol end. )
ahhh. and cheer up my dearest friends!!!!!
FATE won't be FATE if someone's soul is not present.. find back ur souls!!!!!!
yeahh??? JIAYOU!!!!!!! and im really proud of the 2 of you...
who have the courage to face it...
yes.. thanks im not practicing wht i preach, but do cheer up k?!?!!!!!!
and i see the 2 of ur convos flashing at me right now.. HAHAHAAA
aight.. lester's infusing his KoRn into my music bank.. hahhaaa.
and OMG.. i finally found CREEP!!!!!!!!!!
come find me if u want it k?!?!!! its really nice..
yoga from xing guang 1 sang it and got 20++ marks!!!! yes.. its tt nice..
im still confused constantly..
yehh.. OMG... YAY 11:11 . hahaha..
okayy... my train of thoughts is getting messy..
shld stopp here.. hahahaha
and... guys shld seriously beware of their language used..
yepp. BYE!
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
confused
been confused all the while.
but i'm really stubborn tho. hahaha!
i've kept mum for years..
so why cant i this time?? right?!
yupp. i think god is pissed off with my way of handling my own emotions alrdy.
cant blame me...
how strong can i be when i've been blown up so many times.
yupp..
neway.. busy week..
its only wed..
tmr's labour day! yay. airport. XD
friday ends late.... so dinner's postponed!!!
sat studying, tuition, chat (haha, dunno if its the right word)
yeahh.. sunday: airport again!? hah.
yes.. i think its all or nothing now...
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hate this kinda things..
RAWWWWWHHHH
but i'm really stubborn tho. hahaha!
i've kept mum for years..
so why cant i this time?? right?!
yupp. i think god is pissed off with my way of handling my own emotions alrdy.
cant blame me...
how strong can i be when i've been blown up so many times.
yupp..
neway.. busy week..
its only wed..
tmr's labour day! yay. airport. XD
friday ends late.... so dinner's postponed!!!
sat studying, tuition, chat (haha, dunno if its the right word)
yeahh.. sunday: airport again!? hah.
yes.. i think its all or nothing now...
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hate this kinda things..
RAWWWWWHHHH
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
dates
tmr: mug, with alone i guess, choristers have elections.. =.=
thurs: changi airport!!! yay.
fri: four of our gathering!!!! =D long time no meet up anyways... everyone just disintegrate...
Sat: mug + tuition
Sun: MUG @ changi airport again?? =D
wow... mugging days.. >< how nice... been mathing for soooo long today
really.... im zonked.. seeing another complex no. or integration, or inequality or anything regarding math can send me to my grave...
eyes shutting alrdy.. needa get to the script..
bye peeps!!!
hahaha... and yeahh.. im kinda looking forward to friday actually.. got alot of catching up to do! LOL =D
bye peeps!!!!!
thurs: changi airport!!! yay.
fri: four of our gathering!!!! =D long time no meet up anyways... everyone just disintegrate...
Sat: mug + tuition
Sun: MUG @ changi airport again?? =D
wow... mugging days.. >< how nice... been mathing for soooo long today
really.... im zonked.. seeing another complex no. or integration, or inequality or anything regarding math can send me to my grave...
eyes shutting alrdy.. needa get to the script..
bye peeps!!!
hahaha... and yeahh.. im kinda looking forward to friday actually.. got alot of catching up to do! LOL =D
bye peeps!!!!!
because of you
"Because Of You"
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
Monday, April 28, 2008
bad me.
aahh.. okay.. i feel so bad for not wanting him to take the same lift as me..
i mean... i dunno 'what he will do la... after all... him killing me wldnt be illegal...
he has the "rights" to... based on medical reasons i guess...
but i nearly died when i saw him at the lift....
then i took a deep breathe and run him and i kept pressing the close button..
omg.... tt was so mean.. i know its mean.. but i was really really scared...
luckily he continued to wait outside...
so i just stop breathing until i was safe inside the lift..
this is the only one time where i really want to be left alone in the lift. hahaha..
irony... in times of emergency.. i rather feel trapped. LOL.. den having something happen... ><
hahahaha.. okayy.. YAY angela!! i hugged u! lol
and so sorry kelvin! hahahaha.... ur com suck.. not my fault! lols...
but i hate to reformat coms.. so im like totally sorry about it.. yeahhh. but im not sending u emoticons!! hahaha!
neway... happy to be on track for math.. other den revision la.. but tutorials im on track..
and my econs i nearly done!! YAY!!!! more time to aud! LOL
okayyy... crap.. i think im gonna be paralysed from spamming keys...
and my dinner's nice.. daddy warmed it up for me before i reach home.. so nice.. heh!
yupp..eating my dinner now...
spamming keys later..
tralalala~ bye!!!!!!
hahahhaa.. and for one more time.. i wanna clear my name!!!!!!! i am FULLY 100 PERCENT STRAIGHT!!!!!!!!! =D
i mean... i dunno 'what he will do la... after all... him killing me wldnt be illegal...
he has the "rights" to... based on medical reasons i guess...
but i nearly died when i saw him at the lift....
then i took a deep breathe and run him and i kept pressing the close button..
omg.... tt was so mean.. i know its mean.. but i was really really scared...
luckily he continued to wait outside...
so i just stop breathing until i was safe inside the lift..
this is the only one time where i really want to be left alone in the lift. hahaha..
irony... in times of emergency.. i rather feel trapped. LOL.. den having something happen... ><
hahahaha.. okayy.. YAY angela!! i hugged u! lol
and so sorry kelvin! hahahaha.... ur com suck.. not my fault! lols...
but i hate to reformat coms.. so im like totally sorry about it.. yeahhh. but im not sending u emoticons!! hahaha!
neway... happy to be on track for math.. other den revision la.. but tutorials im on track..
and my econs i nearly done!! YAY!!!! more time to aud! LOL
okayyy... crap.. i think im gonna be paralysed from spamming keys...
and my dinner's nice.. daddy warmed it up for me before i reach home.. so nice.. heh!
yupp..eating my dinner now...
spamming keys later..
tralalala~ bye!!!!!!
hahahhaa.. and for one more time.. i wanna clear my name!!!!!!! i am FULLY 100 PERCENT STRAIGHT!!!!!!!!! =D
Saturday, April 26, 2008
距离
有些人,你常常想念,想得几乎废寝忘食,但是,距离再近,你却不会真的走上前去触摸.只是,远远地看着她,远远地.生怕一不小心就打扰到什么,尽管,你是那样希望成为她生活中的一部分,息息相关的重要部分。
似乎你就是个梦，我眷恋得睡过了头。[ credits to theresa tan hui xin. lol ]
似乎你就是个梦，我眷恋得睡过了头。[ credits to theresa tan hui xin. lol ]
vivola~
hahah, vivocity just reminds me of the vivola thing everytime..
i bet all of you (choristers) feel the same way. =P
spent the day alone...
went out early in the morning..
so early tt none of the shops were open, and i had to sit down n wait while reading econs..
i was the first few in the theatre queue, its kinda cool..
but buying one tickets seemed abit odd:
" can i have a ticket for definitely, maybe at 11:15?"
"so its definitely maybe at 11:15, 3 tickets miss?"
"no, just one."
"one?!"
"yes, one."
"okayy.."
LOL... i was amused, but went to get my wallet during the 1 hour wait..
went by the bookstore, browsed some books.. went to the cute shop but it wasnt open. ><
n.. i went ti the toilet before the show, n guess what.. when i went upstairs.
i realised i left my wallet in the toilet! the new one!
den i chionged down to find it... thank god it was there la. hahah.
and soo.. i went into the theatres.. forgot i had night blindness...
so i cldnt find my seat! couldnt see anything..
i realised that everytime i step in.. i just follow blindly n sit beside my friends.hahah.
so today was kinda special...
but the thing is... it was 11:15am.. and hence..only the back row was filled..
and the worse thing is... i see couples strolling in... like i was the only kuku over there..
hahaha. but once the movie started... i just got so lost in it.. i forgot about everyone around me..
OMG..tt Will haze is HOT!!!! i found April n "Summer" hot too!!!! the movie was soooo sweet... so touching la! and the little girl was sooo cute!!!!! so thoughtful of her.. and so mature for her age... =D love little girls.. heh! great recommendation to those who haven caught this movie... its really nice =D
ahaah.. and im so gonna watch the vegas show!!!! is that guy Ashton krutcher?! looks like him.. but i cldnt figure out and theres cameron diaz!!!
the superheroes movie is a must watch!! lol... gonna catch it soon..
ahhh.. broke!
with RJ concert and band concert. im gonna be more broke, ><
after the show... i just went down to kovan macs to mug...
surprised by the rate i was doing econs.. and everything just made sense to me!!
wow right?! hahaha.. credits to kenny.. no wonder ur grades are amazing...
i wonder how pple can just do econs so easily.. and do it so well!
gahhhh... but did abit of case study today.. yay!
and tuition was quite good..
think can concentrate better alone..even though it was rather sian...
and stats rock!!!! and our sch is exempted from the questions for both tuesday n friday class =D
OMG.. i have a complaint!!! the sr people were creating a hell out of noise.. the whole macs was filled with their high pitched laughter..
i was blasting my mp3 and cld still hear them...
even the aunty was shaking her head to me.. and everyone else just kept staring at them...
yeahh... noise is alright la.. but they went abit too over..
hah. okie... i gotta go continue work...
hooked on audition recently...
just keep spaming my keyboard..
add me if u are playing!!!! ign: xOleenOx
yeahh... bye peeps!! =DD
i bet all of you (choristers) feel the same way. =P
spent the day alone...
went out early in the morning..
so early tt none of the shops were open, and i had to sit down n wait while reading econs..
i was the first few in the theatre queue, its kinda cool..
but buying one tickets seemed abit odd:
" can i have a ticket for definitely, maybe at 11:15?"
"so its definitely maybe at 11:15, 3 tickets miss?"
"no, just one."
"one?!"
"yes, one."
"okayy.."
LOL... i was amused, but went to get my wallet during the 1 hour wait..
went by the bookstore, browsed some books.. went to the cute shop but it wasnt open. ><
n.. i went ti the toilet before the show, n guess what.. when i went upstairs.
i realised i left my wallet in the toilet! the new one!
den i chionged down to find it... thank god it was there la. hahah.
and soo.. i went into the theatres.. forgot i had night blindness...
so i cldnt find my seat! couldnt see anything..
i realised that everytime i step in.. i just follow blindly n sit beside my friends.hahah.
so today was kinda special...
but the thing is... it was 11:15am.. and hence..only the back row was filled..
and the worse thing is... i see couples strolling in... like i was the only kuku over there..
hahaha. but once the movie started... i just got so lost in it.. i forgot about everyone around me..
OMG..tt Will haze is HOT!!!! i found April n "Summer" hot too!!!! the movie was soooo sweet... so touching la! and the little girl was sooo cute!!!!! so thoughtful of her.. and so mature for her age... =D love little girls.. heh! great recommendation to those who haven caught this movie... its really nice =D
ahaah.. and im so gonna watch the vegas show!!!! is that guy Ashton krutcher?! looks like him.. but i cldnt figure out and theres cameron diaz!!!
the superheroes movie is a must watch!! lol... gonna catch it soon..
ahhh.. broke!
with RJ concert and band concert. im gonna be more broke, ><
after the show... i just went down to kovan macs to mug...
surprised by the rate i was doing econs.. and everything just made sense to me!!
wow right?! hahaha.. credits to kenny.. no wonder ur grades are amazing...
i wonder how pple can just do econs so easily.. and do it so well!
gahhhh... but did abit of case study today.. yay!
and tuition was quite good..
think can concentrate better alone..even though it was rather sian...
and stats rock!!!! and our sch is exempted from the questions for both tuesday n friday class =D
OMG.. i have a complaint!!! the sr people were creating a hell out of noise.. the whole macs was filled with their high pitched laughter..
i was blasting my mp3 and cld still hear them...
even the aunty was shaking her head to me.. and everyone else just kept staring at them...
yeahh... noise is alright la.. but they went abit too over..
hah. okie... i gotta go continue work...
hooked on audition recently...
just keep spaming my keyboard..
add me if u are playing!!!! ign: xOleenOx
yeahh... bye peeps!! =DD
Friday, April 25, 2008
its been ages since i last typed in chinese...
theresa's essay made me wanna write something too. hahaha.
its been a shitty week for me and her..
my earphones died.. not like i want it to..
not like i want my earphones to keep dying...
so its really no point screaming at me over earphones..
it alrdy died.. wht can i do?!! i promise i'll take more care of it this time..
had ajisen at J8 just now and mr kwek was there..
his wife is really pretty. heh
ok.this week's really really bad.. ><
tmr : theres this supposedly choir outing.. but it clashes with my tuition.
hmmm.. gonna catch a movie tmr.. alone i suppose. dun mind trying watching a movie alone..
hah. definitely, maybe or superheroes?! one emotional one really funny..
ok.. maybe i need something funny to cheer me up.. but watching a funny movie alone feels kinda sad... hahahaha.. okay. whtever....
going vivo to get my wallet also i supppose..and head down for tuition...
dun mind some time alone tmr... perhaps easier to help me sort my own thoughts out..
was very messy this week...
bad bad bad....
sunday: hmmms.. i kinda miss the airport..
dun mind going there...
and i think i might again.. need the time alone.. =X
theresa's essay made me wanna write something too. hahaha.
its been a shitty week for me and her..
my earphones died.. not like i want it to..
not like i want my earphones to keep dying...
so its really no point screaming at me over earphones..
it alrdy died.. wht can i do?!! i promise i'll take more care of it this time..
had ajisen at J8 just now and mr kwek was there..
his wife is really pretty. heh
ok.this week's really really bad.. ><
tmr : theres this supposedly choir outing.. but it clashes with my tuition.
hmmm.. gonna catch a movie tmr.. alone i suppose. dun mind trying watching a movie alone..
hah. definitely, maybe or superheroes?! one emotional one really funny..
ok.. maybe i need something funny to cheer me up.. but watching a funny movie alone feels kinda sad... hahahaha.. okay. whtever....
going vivo to get my wallet also i supppose..and head down for tuition...
dun mind some time alone tmr... perhaps easier to help me sort my own thoughts out..
was very messy this week...
bad bad bad....
sunday: hmmms.. i kinda miss the airport..
dun mind going there...
and i think i might again.. need the time alone.. =X
Thursday, April 24, 2008
HUAT AH
HAHAH. TODAY'S HUAT DAY!
and my moment of epiphany today??!!
i guessed i only realised it..
but abit late.. hahahaha... argh.
dun matter.. im sealing everything up with cement.
=D anyway.. grats dear!!!!!
wish u bliss anyway..
i haven got the chance to watch a movie alone...
1) superheroes movie 2) definitely maybe 3) ???
and my moment of epiphany today??!!
i guessed i only realised it..
but abit late.. hahahaha... argh.
dun matter.. im sealing everything up with cement.
=D anyway.. grats dear!!!!!
wish u bliss anyway..
i haven got the chance to watch a movie alone...
1) superheroes movie 2) definitely maybe 3) ???
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
SUPERHERO MOVIE
YAY! its FINALLY OUT!!!!
gotta watch it.. its damn hilarious! hahah
and today is such a crisis day for me n theresa. hah
yeah. i guess im left with 3 choices now.
i'll take the last 2 i guess..
and i better stop the inferiority complex thing.. ><
yeahh.. i rock! and i love myself! hah
ohhh.. im damnnn tired... ><
today's a really hot day!
and my ulcers are really killing me!!!!
hurts like crap..
cant talk...
okie. gotta go do work soon.
and yay! i got DBSK's stuffs from moo!!
thanks! hah
gotta watch it.. its damn hilarious! hahah
and today is such a crisis day for me n theresa. hah
yeah. i guess im left with 3 choices now.
i'll take the last 2 i guess..
and i better stop the inferiority complex thing.. ><
yeahh.. i rock! and i love myself! hah
ohhh.. im damnnn tired... ><
today's a really hot day!
and my ulcers are really killing me!!!!
hurts like crap..
cant talk...
okie. gotta go do work soon.
and yay! i got DBSK's stuffs from moo!!
thanks! hah
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
memory?
there was one thing that Ms kwok said that impacted me alot today..
about memory, about trying to forget a part of our lives, trying to forget the traumatic experiences some had in life...
i've been searching for her recently..
facebook. friendster, blogs.. wherever..
i don't know why i'm even bothering to find out..
to see how shes doing perhaps?? to see if she's changed??
to see if shes getting on "well".... i know we were young, and naive...
but i cant help but wish that something would happen to her..
that something small.... just for vengence perhaps???
maybe something small to show her how it feels to be in my shoes..
a little revenge i wanna take..
nt too severe, afterall we were so young...
harmless as the young may look.. but the years of my growth (psychologically? ) were taunted,
and scarred.
no matter how much i tried to forgot...
the terror still flashes back now and then.....
evrey little trigger... can just pull me back to the past,
where everything was dark and haunting....
where i had no where to escape...
about memory, about trying to forget a part of our lives, trying to forget the traumatic experiences some had in life...
i've been searching for her recently..
facebook. friendster, blogs.. wherever..
i don't know why i'm even bothering to find out..
to see how shes doing perhaps?? to see if she's changed??
to see if shes getting on "well".... i know we were young, and naive...
but i cant help but wish that something would happen to her..
that something small.... just for vengence perhaps???
maybe something small to show her how it feels to be in my shoes..
a little revenge i wanna take..
nt too severe, afterall we were so young...
harmless as the young may look.. but the years of my growth (psychologically? ) were taunted,
and scarred.
no matter how much i tried to forgot...
the terror still flashes back now and then.....
evrey little trigger... can just pull me back to the past,
where everything was dark and haunting....
where i had no where to escape...
Monday, April 21, 2008
21APRIL08
today's concert day!!!!
=D nothing really bad happened
but it was really really short..
and i think our rehearsal was alot better..
coz of the crowd perhaps??
im really tired now...
legs, hands, feet, brain, eyes, everywhere.....
and i've still got math to do
well at least i've got no more choir...
can just mug and mug and mug..
aint tt bad i guess?! =D
JIAYOU people!!!!!
and omg... we're having a really cool history sem. =DDD
i feel ashamed to even like you.
afraid that you will find it digusted that someone like me actually liked you..
but everytime i wanna resist the temptations of talking to you,
i find it so hard that i give up...
so... sorry to you, whom i've liked. (:
=D nothing really bad happened
but it was really really short..
and i think our rehearsal was alot better..
coz of the crowd perhaps??
im really tired now...
legs, hands, feet, brain, eyes, everywhere.....
and i've still got math to do
well at least i've got no more choir...
can just mug and mug and mug..
aint tt bad i guess?! =D
JIAYOU people!!!!!
and omg... we're having a really cool history sem. =DDD
i feel ashamed to even like you.
afraid that you will find it digusted that someone like me actually liked you..
but everytime i wanna resist the temptations of talking to you,
i find it so hard that i give up...
so... sorry to you, whom i've liked. (:
Saturday, April 19, 2008
locked.
i dunno me.
i've never known me.
Like many other disorders, claustrophobia can sometimes develop due to a traumatic incident in childhood.
my mum was doing my brows just now...
i dunno how long she took..
but it seemed forever..
she pressed me down in my swivel chair...
i found it hard to breathe
and after a really long time... i started breathing really heavily
and something in me.. told me i had to break free...
i kept struggling to leave the chair but she shuned my pleas, thinking that i was just impatient
until i started tearing and she received a shock..
i got a shock myself too..
i thought it was only in enclose spaces that i'll feel that way..
but i think somehow.. someone pressing me down or trapping me.
will trigger the pain as well...
yest, they closed me in the toilet again...
for fun, i was really scared..
but i tried not to show it..
i knw showing fear would only bring more pleasure and satisfaction to those who locks me up..
i don't know why my fear can bring happiness,
and i don't understand the logic..
i knw they don't mean it.
but if they really left the door and lock me in..
i will go mad.
i think thats why i need to build up my strength..
thats why i'm walking so fast,
to show that i'm not weak.
thats why i like to carry heavy things,
to show that i'm not weak.
well, but at least i have friends now..
just that i still feel locked behind the doors.
and the real me, that i've so well hidden.
that me myself, have forgotten where it is,
and how it looks like.
its and it now, because i'm not sure what form it takes.
or even, if it takes up any.
so i'll wait. for the day, where the keysmith come,
and free me from the locked door,
and i'll own that pair of keys myself,
to do be able to open it myself.
but right now, i am still locked.
walls had immediate impact on me,
i wonder how it would be,
if i didn't leave that place..
would i be like them?
if were them,
would i have alrdy grown immuned towards the pain?
where walls are too high...
and the door is locked.
and when i feel so small...
so small...
yet unable to squeeze through the empty spaces of the door...
i've never known me.
Like many other disorders, claustrophobia can sometimes develop due to a traumatic incident in childhood.
my mum was doing my brows just now...
i dunno how long she took..
but it seemed forever..
she pressed me down in my swivel chair...
i found it hard to breathe
and after a really long time... i started breathing really heavily
and something in me.. told me i had to break free...
i kept struggling to leave the chair but she shuned my pleas, thinking that i was just impatient
until i started tearing and she received a shock..
i got a shock myself too..
i thought it was only in enclose spaces that i'll feel that way..
but i think somehow.. someone pressing me down or trapping me.
will trigger the pain as well...
yest, they closed me in the toilet again...
for fun, i was really scared..
but i tried not to show it..
i knw showing fear would only bring more pleasure and satisfaction to those who locks me up..
i don't know why my fear can bring happiness,
and i don't understand the logic..
i knw they don't mean it.
but if they really left the door and lock me in..
i will go mad.
i think thats why i need to build up my strength..
thats why i'm walking so fast,
to show that i'm not weak.
thats why i like to carry heavy things,
to show that i'm not weak.
well, but at least i have friends now..
just that i still feel locked behind the doors.
and the real me, that i've so well hidden.
that me myself, have forgotten where it is,
and how it looks like.
its and it now, because i'm not sure what form it takes.
or even, if it takes up any.
so i'll wait. for the day, where the keysmith come,
and free me from the locked door,
and i'll own that pair of keys myself,
to do be able to open it myself.
but right now, i am still locked.
walls had immediate impact on me,
i wonder how it would be,
if i didn't leave that place..
would i be like them?
if were them,
would i have alrdy grown immuned towards the pain?
where walls are too high...
and the door is locked.
and when i feel so small...
so small...
yet unable to squeeze through the empty spaces of the door...
Friday, April 18, 2008
MUSIC.FOODFORLIFE.
my eyes are gradually shutting.
very very very very tired..
slept throughout my whole bus ride.. .and i think my bag was too big..
the poor uncle had part of my bag on his lap. woops =X
neway... thank god econs is not due this coming monday..
finally.. i can relax for a sunday... but still... minimal work. nt none. heh
wanna catch definitely, maybe. or horton?!
think i'll just go watch whtever there is after studies..
im zonked out again.
today's full dress was rather fulfilling..
sounded nice...
looked quite nice..
not as bad as expected la. hahah.
and OMG.. i'm sooo in love with yin xue!!!!!
gosh.... anyone wld marry her la. HAH
and yay. i feel taller. =D the pain is all worth it.
ok la.. actually i think its not how high the heel is that caused the pain.
but more of the toes... i've gt a huge blister.
but anyway.. had a great time singing. =D yay
drama night's first night today as well...
hope they did well. hee =D
will be catching it tmr.. i dunno how..
coz my whole day is super jammed packed.
sighh.. i'll sort out a way..
college day tmr...
surprise! school song. hah =.=
okie... im officially closing my eyes..
night people!! =D
take care of ur voices pple. <3
very very very very tired..
slept throughout my whole bus ride.. .and i think my bag was too big..
the poor uncle had part of my bag on his lap. woops =X
neway... thank god econs is not due this coming monday..
finally.. i can relax for a sunday... but still... minimal work. nt none. heh
wanna catch definitely, maybe. or horton?!
think i'll just go watch whtever there is after studies..
im zonked out again.
today's full dress was rather fulfilling..
sounded nice...
looked quite nice..
not as bad as expected la. hahah.
and OMG.. i'm sooo in love with yin xue!!!!!
gosh.... anyone wld marry her la. HAH
and yay. i feel taller. =D the pain is all worth it.
ok la.. actually i think its not how high the heel is that caused the pain.
but more of the toes... i've gt a huge blister.
but anyway.. had a great time singing. =D yay
drama night's first night today as well...
hope they did well. hee =D
will be catching it tmr.. i dunno how..
coz my whole day is super jammed packed.
sighh.. i'll sort out a way..
college day tmr...
surprise! school song. hah =.=
okie... im officially closing my eyes..
night people!! =D
take care of ur voices pple. <3
Thursday, April 17, 2008
butterflies.
whats with butterflies recently..
firstly they raid my tummy..
and now they haunt me physically..
the journey from sch to the mrt station was so embarrasing..
butterflies jumping out of no where...
and this man got a shock and frantically looking at the grass patch..
thinking i saw something very grotesque or something...
(it is btw. fluttery things)
i've been feeling fluttery and i dunno why.
okay maybe i do. =/
maybe im just trying to convince myself that is not..
but escapism sometimes don't solve everything??
god has pranked me enough..
enough of heartaches?
is he going to return me all the bliss that he hid away from me for so long?
or had he forgotten to add it in to my life?
haha. talking to wifey just now made me recap all of it again.. ><
and my tummy is churning.. >< hungry i suppose..
my appetite grew smaller... cant finish food now..
counting down the days to drama nite, to concert, and to stepping down...
im gonna mug hard every single day aft concert.
i'll make sure the missing of england trip will be worth it.
it gives us motivation either way...
demoralizing but drives me on..
to show that i'm not dumb...
and that i've fully utilized the week they spent there.
im gonna work extra hard for the fun they have over there...
yes... and i will fly to places after my As proudly...
yupp. lyn sis, if u're reading this.. i may wanna fly over for a few weeks..
=D but u gotta teach me jap tt is.. heh.
okie.. my room is in a mess... ><
gotta continue packing.. =DD
and my tummy's growling...
roarrrr!!!
bye!
firstly they raid my tummy..
and now they haunt me physically..
the journey from sch to the mrt station was so embarrasing..
butterflies jumping out of no where...
and this man got a shock and frantically looking at the grass patch..
thinking i saw something very grotesque or something...
(it is btw. fluttery things)
i've been feeling fluttery and i dunno why.
okay maybe i do. =/
maybe im just trying to convince myself that is not..
but escapism sometimes don't solve everything??
god has pranked me enough..
enough of heartaches?
is he going to return me all the bliss that he hid away from me for so long?
or had he forgotten to add it in to my life?
haha. talking to wifey just now made me recap all of it again.. ><
and my tummy is churning.. >< hungry i suppose..
my appetite grew smaller... cant finish food now..
counting down the days to drama nite, to concert, and to stepping down...
im gonna mug hard every single day aft concert.
i'll make sure the missing of england trip will be worth it.
it gives us motivation either way...
demoralizing but drives me on..
to show that i'm not dumb...
and that i've fully utilized the week they spent there.
im gonna work extra hard for the fun they have over there...
yes... and i will fly to places after my As proudly...
yupp. lyn sis, if u're reading this.. i may wanna fly over for a few weeks..
=D but u gotta teach me jap tt is.. heh.
okie.. my room is in a mess... ><
gotta continue packing.. =DD
and my tummy's growling...
roarrrr!!!
bye!
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
zonked
like wht the heading suggest. yes. im totally zonked out.
today was a jammed packed day...
few more days toconcert..
and i realise i forgot to learn festival gloria!!
omg.. i was just free styling just now...
tmr first period econs,
im so dead.
im alrdy dead..
and dying again early in the morning tmr.
yawns... im really really tired..
ok.. appealing to all people!!
pls come for the nyjc choir concert!!!!!!!
pls do support.. =D
tiring but at least not a bad day..
even tho toh kinda spoiled it...
yawns...
-.-ZzzzZZZZzzz
im really transforming into a panda soon..
huge eyebags n dark eye rings.
*why is everything coming to me all of a sudden?? moment of "epiphany" today??? nt really.. it dint lead to anything positive.. just another event in my life.. >< if you dun understand this part.. i can totally knw hw u feel. coz i dun even knw wht im typing. BAHH.
k. BYE BASTARDS!!! off to debastardize for a moment.
today was a jammed packed day...
few more days toconcert..
and i realise i forgot to learn festival gloria!!
omg.. i was just free styling just now...
tmr first period econs,
im so dead.
im alrdy dead..
and dying again early in the morning tmr.
yawns... im really really tired..
ok.. appealing to all people!!
pls come for the nyjc choir concert!!!!!!!
pls do support.. =D
tiring but at least not a bad day..
even tho toh kinda spoiled it...
yawns...
-.-ZzzzZZZZzzz
im really transforming into a panda soon..
huge eyebags n dark eye rings.
*why is everything coming to me all of a sudden?? moment of "epiphany" today??? nt really.. it dint lead to anything positive.. just another event in my life.. >< if you dun understand this part.. i can totally knw hw u feel. coz i dun even knw wht im typing. BAHH.
k. BYE BASTARDS!!! off to debastardize for a moment.
Monday, April 14, 2008
BAD DAY
hah, don't ask me why.
today's just bad.
feel zonked and carrying around a "souless soul" (familar eh?)
had "choir" today.. yes inverted commas, coz we dint do anything..
i was just pata pon-ing in the music room..
my eyes are sooo tired...
and im sooo tired..
and my nose is itching...
someones talking bad about me... ><
yawns... i still have heaps to do..
sighh.. bad day!!!!!
k. zonking off... BYE!
today's just bad.
feel zonked and carrying around a "souless soul" (familar eh?)
had "choir" today.. yes inverted commas, coz we dint do anything..
i was just pata pon-ing in the music room..
my eyes are sooo tired...
and im sooo tired..
and my nose is itching...
someones talking bad about me... ><
yawns... i still have heaps to do..
sighh.. bad day!!!!!
k. zonking off... BYE!
Sunday, April 13, 2008
stoney.
econs make me feel stoney.
dun feel like moving my hand at all..
and my paper's still as blank as ever..
hahah, just came back from a round of shopping for concert stuffs.
bought my pants. ( i like it =D ) hides all the fats. HAHAH
and the lady actually gave me and theresa the "aww so sweet , she has big bucks look"
lol! utterly wrong imagery. i think its just the height.. tsk!
saw the trailer for "superhero movie" hahahha.. i think its a must watch..
damn funny... LOL... and i think my tummy is growling... ><
i'm almost done with memorizing the scores... yayness
finished the glass menagerie
left with 4 econs essays.
yawns...
thinking of work makes me sleep..
aight... gotta go nua abit before i do work. lol
mood : mild.
song of the day: White Love Story - As One =D
line of the day: AHhhhhhhh, i wanna quit school
dun feel like moving my hand at all..
and my paper's still as blank as ever..
hahah, just came back from a round of shopping for concert stuffs.
bought my pants. ( i like it =D ) hides all the fats. HAHAH
and the lady actually gave me and theresa the "aww so sweet , she has big bucks look"
lol! utterly wrong imagery. i think its just the height.. tsk!
saw the trailer for "superhero movie" hahahha.. i think its a must watch..
damn funny... LOL... and i think my tummy is growling... ><
i'm almost done with memorizing the scores... yayness
finished the glass menagerie
left with 4 econs essays.
yawns...
thinking of work makes me sleep..
aight... gotta go nua abit before i do work. lol
mood : mild.
song of the day: White Love Story - As One =D
line of the day: AHhhhhhhh, i wanna quit school
Saturday, April 12, 2008
choir...
choir day today...
super long day.......
was supposed to have sectionals at 1045, but ended up we started at 11 plus..
i went to school at 9 anyway. HAH.
did one paragraph of glass menagerie and tts about all..
hahaha. talked to my wife alot today.. =D
and im confused as ever. XD
and i've gotta go get my heels and my pants tmr! and finish up the essays.
busy busy busy...
and hes not helping at all la!
intimidating and screamings may work...
but it suck!!!! pressured by fear...
and fear driven progress is quite torturing..
but we did improve.. alot rather..
and i had a hard time being gu-niang...
HAHAH! shld try to be more gentle from now...
21st century sports woman! hahaha.. just now was so paiseh.. i called "auntie, UNCLE" LOL!
so embarrassing!! lol....
okie.. gotta go chiong essays!
see ya peeps. =D
get tickets from me pls!! =DD loves loves..
super long day.......
was supposed to have sectionals at 1045, but ended up we started at 11 plus..
i went to school at 9 anyway. HAH.
did one paragraph of glass menagerie and tts about all..
hahaha. talked to my wife alot today.. =D
and im confused as ever. XD
and i've gotta go get my heels and my pants tmr! and finish up the essays.
busy busy busy...
and hes not helping at all la!
intimidating and screamings may work...
but it suck!!!! pressured by fear...
and fear driven progress is quite torturing..
but we did improve.. alot rather..
and i had a hard time being gu-niang...
HAHAH! shld try to be more gentle from now...
21st century sports woman! hahaha.. just now was so paiseh.. i called "auntie, UNCLE" LOL!
so embarrassing!! lol....
okie.. gotta go chiong essays!
see ya peeps. =D
get tickets from me pls!! =DD loves loves..
Friday, April 11, 2008
NYGT! SYNERGY
omg.. so many talented pple ard..
first and foremost.. grats to lester and tedson!!! and the rest of the CO pple..
i think half of the population can sing la! hahaha...
i dun care.. im gonna go learn from the experts... =P
i felt dumb just now..
whts my talent?!
good for nothing.. >< again.
i think ive been on this issue for a pretty long time...
the i-am-nothing issue.
nothingness... i think i'll do better in Lear than Othello. LOL
omg... the blindfolded pianists were damn good!!!!!!! RJ and Phu trinh ? cant spoil ur name!! hahaa. sorry!!! =D hidden talent!!! shld have just played Glory Of Love for us..
the magic show was damn cool... he reminds me of cleby i dunnno why. LOL
and... and.... the stanley guy?! omg.. his voice is damn good!!!!!
and so are the rest of the singers...
nat totally melted me just now!! the 2nd song.. on the brink of tears...
Lesty has fans alrdy! hahaha... but they are really WOW-ers up there la...
sighh... i cant do anything!!!!!! ok maybe just sing.. like WOW.... singing is no big D... ><
PW results is back... its a C... ok la... given that my presentation was really really screwed up...
so nothing much to complain about...
im really tired... have like 6 essays to do.... and theres a long day of choir tmr.. gonna miss 2 weeks of tuition for choir... arghhh... and just had some argument with my mum...
sighhh...
all sorts of emotions gushing over...
and im still guessing..
its a cycle..
and i think i will give up soon...
first and foremost.. grats to lester and tedson!!! and the rest of the CO pple..
i think half of the population can sing la! hahaha...
i dun care.. im gonna go learn from the experts... =P
i felt dumb just now..
whts my talent?!
good for nothing.. >< again.
i think ive been on this issue for a pretty long time...
the i-am-nothing issue.
nothingness... i think i'll do better in Lear than Othello. LOL
omg... the blindfolded pianists were damn good!!!!!!! RJ and Phu trinh ? cant spoil ur name!! hahaa. sorry!!! =D hidden talent!!! shld have just played Glory Of Love for us..
the magic show was damn cool... he reminds me of cleby i dunnno why. LOL
and... and.... the stanley guy?! omg.. his voice is damn good!!!!!
and so are the rest of the singers...
nat totally melted me just now!! the 2nd song.. on the brink of tears...
Lesty has fans alrdy! hahaha... but they are really WOW-ers up there la...
sighh... i cant do anything!!!!!! ok maybe just sing.. like WOW.... singing is no big D... ><
PW results is back... its a C... ok la... given that my presentation was really really screwed up...
so nothing much to complain about...
im really tired... have like 6 essays to do.... and theres a long day of choir tmr.. gonna miss 2 weeks of tuition for choir... arghhh... and just had some argument with my mum...
sighhh...
all sorts of emotions gushing over...
and im still guessing..
its a cycle..
and i think i will give up soon...
Thursday, April 10, 2008
BYE BYE
say byebye to England. yup. officially. thanks to the 3 of U!!!!!!
seriously, i felt sad la.. being left behind and all
say byebye to the friends who are going. yes.. all my best buds are going.
thanks again to the 3 of U!
say byebye to the cheap condo that ive rented out for so long.. to so many pple..
its time to tear those old walls down, build another new house.
with more stable walls for the private landed property.
yes.. it will be on sale at high price, a free hold apartment,
where one stays on, forever..
yes, say byebye to the past.
i feel like saying bye bye to the current tenant,
but each time he says he wanna move out, the desire to stay holds him back again.
i guess i'll have to wait. for the conformation slip to come.
before i can really say byebye.
seriously, i felt sad la.. being left behind and all
say byebye to the friends who are going. yes.. all my best buds are going.
thanks again to the 3 of U!
say byebye to the cheap condo that ive rented out for so long.. to so many pple..
its time to tear those old walls down, build another new house.
with more stable walls for the private landed property.
yes.. it will be on sale at high price, a free hold apartment,
where one stays on, forever..
yes, say byebye to the past.
i feel like saying bye bye to the current tenant,
but each time he says he wanna move out, the desire to stay holds him back again.
i guess i'll have to wait. for the conformation slip to come.
before i can really say byebye.
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
fragile heart.
my heart's fragile, handle with care. if not, dun touch it at all. thanks.
its just been pieced back, i dun wanna smash it against the wall again.. too much pain to take, to much for the young heart that has yet felt loved, and yet feel the thorns pierce through each time. too much of guessing, too much of wrong decisions and too much of thoughts. yes. i shld just find a corner and hide away forever... good for nothing piece of ****. well.. i have improvements... but GP still sucked like no ones business..and econs.. dun even talk about it...
okayy.. shld focus on something else... had choir just now... Ms Seah was sooooo cute la!! OMG... AHAHAHA... i will so love her if im a guy... on this issue about being a guy. LOL... i think its amusing.... hahha. (yup, we will make a damn good couple if its possible ) HAH. but of coz.. nature forbids us to be.. well.... we are BFF. ok, i realise this post is rather incoherrent. shld end right now...
*my gosh, is tt even jealousy? *
its just been pieced back, i dun wanna smash it against the wall again.. too much pain to take, to much for the young heart that has yet felt loved, and yet feel the thorns pierce through each time. too much of guessing, too much of wrong decisions and too much of thoughts. yes. i shld just find a corner and hide away forever... good for nothing piece of ****. well.. i have improvements... but GP still sucked like no ones business..and econs.. dun even talk about it...
okayy.. shld focus on something else... had choir just now... Ms Seah was sooooo cute la!! OMG... AHAHAHA... i will so love her if im a guy... on this issue about being a guy. LOL... i think its amusing.... hahha. (yup, we will make a damn good couple if its possible ) HAH. but of coz.. nature forbids us to be.. well.... we are BFF. ok, i realise this post is rather incoherrent. shld end right now...
*my gosh, is tt even jealousy? *
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
all year's fool
yawnss... im super tired.. just finished watching ten brothers. damn sad. but they died with smiling. so not that bad.... anyway... today was supposed to be half day thing..but we ended sch with lit lecture at 130... and! there was supposed to be econs lecture at the same time..
so.... there was lit and econs going on at the same time.. we went for the lit one obviously.. dint knw econs was tt timing...
ok, i shld blog about this silly prank they played on me.... and it was seemingly real....
the 3 girls... FAITH , ANGELA and THERESA (FAT : mean pple ) hid my phone... initially A n T said they flushed my phone down the toilet,.. like wow. hahah, im not a 3 year old can.. and.... later on... they said they hid it in ms poh's pigeon hole... and it really felt damn real... coz they really sound convinced that it was there... and i went up and down the corridor... looking for my phone...and it was totally not in sight!!!! i was so panicky.. and mr w. yeo was just at the door.. he must think im insane...opening and peeping into all the pigeon hole and the recycle bin... and after that... faith said tt it cld be ms poh that has taken my phone away.. coz she went to the toilet... high chance she cld have checked the PH and took it in... so faith suggested that i msg her... and she really did sound convincing!!!!! den i went to the staffroom... pacing outside.. thinking whether to press the intercom... and i decided to wait for her to come out... and when faith wanted to drag me downstairs to find panadol... guess wht?! ms poh came out!!! i just went to her.. and started laughing in frt of her.... i think she felt shocked and amused. haaha.. from her expression.... then, F n T just ran away.. and frantically signalling me back... so i just ran back ... laughing non stop still.... and she just went back confused, i think. wht a nice prank la!!! made me run up and down and doin stupid things running around.... and i had to msg ms poh to apologize... hahhaa... too late to apologize... but she was really cool about it.. damn, have her class tmr.. woops. hahaha..
oh oh!! and rewinding back to 9am. i had PE... and.. not wanting to waste the 5 stations results... i took my 2.4... tt teacher was just being mean yest. sulks. but i walked like most of it.. and i had a not very good timing... 1640. there goes my gold.. >< but well... thank god... i passed... and for the 4th consecutive year... i ran with my period..how unlucky.. but its always this kinda timing.. so yeahh... im not going into the army anyway.. hahah!
one more thing!!!! hahaha, me and my wife were just talking about our relationship.. seriously.. its amazing.. ok. sounds wrong.. friendship i meant.... yeahh, its a wonder how close i can be with a person..... =DD love you soooooooooo much!!! haaha.. yeah. and all my other wonderful wonderful bullies and friends.. LOL.. yay. love u all! =D
*you treaded into my heart, you took away nothing.. but left the gentle footprints behind... are you wiping it off?? or will time erase it away?? but at the moment, the prints blend into mine... not now, i wouldnt wanna take away the beauty... lemme just enjoy the present... im contented this way*
=D bye peeps!!
so.... there was lit and econs going on at the same time.. we went for the lit one obviously.. dint knw econs was tt timing...
ok, i shld blog about this silly prank they played on me.... and it was seemingly real....
the 3 girls... FAITH , ANGELA and THERESA (FAT : mean pple ) hid my phone... initially A n T said they flushed my phone down the toilet,.. like wow. hahah, im not a 3 year old can.. and.... later on... they said they hid it in ms poh's pigeon hole... and it really felt damn real... coz they really sound convinced that it was there... and i went up and down the corridor... looking for my phone...and it was totally not in sight!!!! i was so panicky.. and mr w. yeo was just at the door.. he must think im insane...opening and peeping into all the pigeon hole and the recycle bin... and after that... faith said tt it cld be ms poh that has taken my phone away.. coz she went to the toilet... high chance she cld have checked the PH and took it in... so faith suggested that i msg her... and she really did sound convincing!!!!! den i went to the staffroom... pacing outside.. thinking whether to press the intercom... and i decided to wait for her to come out... and when faith wanted to drag me downstairs to find panadol... guess wht?! ms poh came out!!! i just went to her.. and started laughing in frt of her.... i think she felt shocked and amused. haaha.. from her expression.... then, F n T just ran away.. and frantically signalling me back... so i just ran back ... laughing non stop still.... and she just went back confused, i think. wht a nice prank la!!! made me run up and down and doin stupid things running around.... and i had to msg ms poh to apologize... hahhaa... too late to apologize... but she was really cool about it.. damn, have her class tmr.. woops. hahaha..
oh oh!! and rewinding back to 9am. i had PE... and.. not wanting to waste the 5 stations results... i took my 2.4... tt teacher was just being mean yest. sulks. but i walked like most of it.. and i had a not very good timing... 1640. there goes my gold.. >< but well... thank god... i passed... and for the 4th consecutive year... i ran with my period..how unlucky.. but its always this kinda timing.. so yeahh... im not going into the army anyway.. hahah!
one more thing!!!! hahaha, me and my wife were just talking about our relationship.. seriously.. its amazing.. ok. sounds wrong.. friendship i meant.... yeahh, its a wonder how close i can be with a person..... =DD love you soooooooooo much!!! haaha.. yeah. and all my other wonderful wonderful bullies and friends.. LOL.. yay. love u all! =D
*you treaded into my heart, you took away nothing.. but left the gentle footprints behind... are you wiping it off?? or will time erase it away?? but at the moment, the prints blend into mine... not now, i wouldnt wanna take away the beauty... lemme just enjoy the present... im contented this way*
=D bye peeps!!
Monday, April 7, 2008
saranghae.
DBSK madness!! omg.. love xiah and mickey. mickey has tattoos... but hes sexy. so hes forgiven. hah. Xiah's still my type. =DD bring me to korea!!!
aherm, Theresa Tan and Angela Siow stop bullying me!! damn you pple. haha. im nt to be trifled with. theresa, u knw why.. HAHAHAA...
choir concert's coming up.. haven sold a single ticket yet.. sighhss...
sorry choir.. leen's not popular.. she dun sell books and stationery.. and cant sell tickets.
LOL. sorry. tt was utter crap, i knw. dun roll ur eyes.. they may never wanna come down again...
and yay!! i got 67 for history =D a friggin B! After like ages.. i broke free of the U grade curse!! hahahaa.. yay!!! but i still have 3 Us tho.. namely GP, Econs and Math.. not surprising yeh?! haha. its eileen.. failing's her forte..... totally.
and i've decided to like myself more... if not i will just continue sinking into my little pit and see darkness forever... NOOOOO.. and all i hear are muffled echoes and the silent screams that vibrates so violently in the pits of my heart. ok.. whts with me and pits?!! okie.. i'll go for RUTS next time... the grand canyon?! lol... i realised i really veer off tangent when i talk... or write.. which is why im always doing so badly for lit n gp. eileen justs drifts off to her lala land. Thou shalt not drift... im not jay chou and neither is the title of my life initial D or initial E. hahaha...
ok, i'm self proclaiming insane... right... gotta go do math... left sch early today.. finshed econs finally... and squatting down by the road side and flagging the cab aint glam at all.. o well, eileen's never glam. not her word.
finished dou niu today.. OMGAWD LA... how can someone propose with an empty box and look so suave kneeling down lidat?!! hahaha... hes not tw's hottest guy for nth... and hebe is totally HOT. hah. but Xiah still beats everyone... i still like changmin's pup!! a maltese or smthing.. just looks CUTE! ahahahaha.... i want a pup too... oh. and i still owe kenny a hamster.. i drew a super ugly purple one for him... HAHAHA... totally ugly even tho its purple. i cant draw for heavens sake!!! hahaha.
aight... gotta zhao... =D byebye!!!!
* miss you =D *
yes, you, whoever's reading this...
HAHA.. pukes*SPATS*
OH OH..last thing.... pls get my tickets.. =D i'll love you alot alot alot alot.. HAHAH!!
aherm, Theresa Tan and Angela Siow stop bullying me!! damn you pple. haha. im nt to be trifled with. theresa, u knw why.. HAHAHAA...
choir concert's coming up.. haven sold a single ticket yet.. sighhss...
sorry choir.. leen's not popular.. she dun sell books and stationery.. and cant sell tickets.
LOL. sorry. tt was utter crap, i knw. dun roll ur eyes.. they may never wanna come down again...
and yay!! i got 67 for history =D a friggin B! After like ages.. i broke free of the U grade curse!! hahahaa.. yay!!! but i still have 3 Us tho.. namely GP, Econs and Math.. not surprising yeh?! haha. its eileen.. failing's her forte..... totally.
and i've decided to like myself more... if not i will just continue sinking into my little pit and see darkness forever... NOOOOO.. and all i hear are muffled echoes and the silent screams that vibrates so violently in the pits of my heart. ok.. whts with me and pits?!! okie.. i'll go for RUTS next time... the grand canyon?! lol... i realised i really veer off tangent when i talk... or write.. which is why im always doing so badly for lit n gp. eileen justs drifts off to her lala land. Thou shalt not drift... im not jay chou and neither is the title of my life initial D or initial E. hahaha...
ok, i'm self proclaiming insane... right... gotta go do math... left sch early today.. finshed econs finally... and squatting down by the road side and flagging the cab aint glam at all.. o well, eileen's never glam. not her word.
finished dou niu today.. OMGAWD LA... how can someone propose with an empty box and look so suave kneeling down lidat?!! hahaha... hes not tw's hottest guy for nth... and hebe is totally HOT. hah. but Xiah still beats everyone... i still like changmin's pup!! a maltese or smthing.. just looks CUTE! ahahahaha.... i want a pup too... oh. and i still owe kenny a hamster.. i drew a super ugly purple one for him... HAHAHA... totally ugly even tho its purple. i cant draw for heavens sake!!! hahaha.
aight... gotta zhao... =D byebye!!!!
* miss you =D *
yes, you, whoever's reading this...
HAHA.. pukes*SPATS*
OH OH..last thing.... pls get my tickets.. =D i'll love you alot alot alot alot.. HAHAH!!
Sunday, April 6, 2008
OH NO.
AHHHHH.... screams!!!!! this shldnt be happening to me... sighhhs.. my heart's meeting her demise again.
Saturday, April 5, 2008
i wanna scream, someone bring me to the beach.
going to cp to mug tmr. muscles totally ache.
not from today's 5 stations but more of yesterday's running and jumping...
and 2.4 on monday. like wht?!?! with my muscles and my cramping abdomen.. .aoowww.. im not gonna run man... but did well for the 5 stations tho, broke many of my own records... standing broad jump and shuttle run was amazing... 186!! i can jump over the guys of 183 club and they will go unscathed. cool huh. hahaha. anyway, the fact that i jumped over my own height isnt amazing. coz everyone shld jump over my height. hahaha. shuttle run was nice too.. i will usually retard during turns but this time was so much better... 10.77.. ok la..for a non-sports cca person. its considered commendable. and i got A for sit and reach as well.. for a woodblock, its amazing too. hahaha. yay. but 2.4 will spoil it again... GAHHHH... i cant run long distance... and i realise that my periods always come when i have to run 2.4... for 4 years consecutively. wow. hahaha.. why cant they let me run at ease?!!
but i really still feel like screaming and going crazy... bring me to somewhere secluded so that doing crazy stuffs will not seem too crazy... yawns. aight. gonna do econs...
have fun pple... in whtever u are doing..
and rmb!! absomusiclutely!!! =DD
going to cp to mug tmr. muscles totally ache.
not from today's 5 stations but more of yesterday's running and jumping...
and 2.4 on monday. like wht?!?! with my muscles and my cramping abdomen.. .aoowww.. im not gonna run man... but did well for the 5 stations tho, broke many of my own records... standing broad jump and shuttle run was amazing... 186!! i can jump over the guys of 183 club and they will go unscathed. cool huh. hahaha. anyway, the fact that i jumped over my own height isnt amazing. coz everyone shld jump over my height. hahaha. shuttle run was nice too.. i will usually retard during turns but this time was so much better... 10.77.. ok la..for a non-sports cca person. its considered commendable. and i got A for sit and reach as well.. for a woodblock, its amazing too. hahaha. yay. but 2.4 will spoil it again... GAHHHH... i cant run long distance... and i realise that my periods always come when i have to run 2.4... for 4 years consecutively. wow. hahaha.. why cant they let me run at ease?!!
but i really still feel like screaming and going crazy... bring me to somewhere secluded so that doing crazy stuffs will not seem too crazy... yawns. aight. gonna do econs...
have fun pple... in whtever u are doing..
and rmb!! absomusiclutely!!! =DD
AbsoMusicLutely
Hey all, ABSOMUSICLUTELY is proud to present you NYJC choir. pls do come down and support us and we will reward you with our hearts and souls. This night is not to be missed. contact me for further details. =D
Friday, April 4, 2008
angel in disguise
I woke up this morning feeling kind of blue
and I stumbled out of bed and
dragged my feet across the room
Right outside my front door was a rose
and a note that said 'Somebody Loves You'
Oh~ But out on the street it starts to pour
and before I get soaking wet,
A total stranger runs to give me
the jacket off his back
I turn around to thank him
But he waves me with a smile
And I can hardly believe my eyes
He puts on a halo and starts to fly
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
I met a good friend for lunch
and we had a delicious meal
But I forgot to bring my wallet
I felt like an imbecile
But she was sweet, she gave me a treat and
Bought me a chicken sandwich
To take home for tea
Oh~ But out on the street with nothing to eat
A man and his shopping cart go
Travelling to places
Collecting social graces
I give him my sandwich
and we chatter for a while
I see a rainbow wash over his eyes
He gives me his halo and
I start to fly
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
Don't try to hide away from me
I know you're by my side
Oooh~~
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look at Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
Everyday can be legendary
Every minute, an endless surprise
You could be the next angel in disguise
I woke up this morning
Feeling kind of new
and I stumbled out of bed and
dragged my feet across the room
Right outside my front door was a rose
and a note that said 'Somebody Loves You'
Oh~ But out on the street it starts to pour
and before I get soaking wet,
A total stranger runs to give me
the jacket off his back
I turn around to thank him
But he waves me with a smile
And I can hardly believe my eyes
He puts on a halo and starts to fly
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
I met a good friend for lunch
and we had a delicious meal
But I forgot to bring my wallet
I felt like an imbecile
But she was sweet, she gave me a treat and
Bought me a chicken sandwich
To take home for tea
Oh~ But out on the street with nothing to eat
A man and his shopping cart go
Travelling to places
Collecting social graces
I give him my sandwich
and we chatter for a while
I see a rainbow wash over his eyes
He gives me his halo and
I start to fly
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
Don't try to hide away from me
I know you're by my side
Oooh~~
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look at Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
Everyday can be legendary
Every minute, an endless surprise
You could be the next angel in disguise
I woke up this morning
Feeling kind of new
Thursday, April 3, 2008
TAGGED
This quiz is dedicated to XINYING (yes, you! hah)
here goes...
Q1) 7 things/people that make u smile
Ans: my family; my friends; PURPLE?! ; cute stuffs ; the blue blue sky.. ; the As i will get in A Levels?! ahaha. [ I'LL GET IT! ] hahah, ; kids/babies?! sorry, im not a paedo. but they just make me smile =D
Q2) 7 things to do to win my heart
Ans: be ultra nice, share intimate things for 30 mins and stare deeply into my eyes for 4 mins. HAHAH. taken from GP, science of love. anyway, i just turned into a bull and shitted. sorry. HAH, anyway, the most impt things is to love me alot. tts all. =D
Q3) 7 things i believe inAns: everything.
Q4)7 things i am afraid ofAns:
hmmm? faith will wanna say everything. BUT, 7 greatest frights : dark, butterfly, eerie stuffs ( knw wht im talking abt.. ) , heights? , strange things!? , dogs or shld i say things tt move ard my legs... freaky aint it? , and most importantly the feeling of abandonment. well, im castrophobic. pple knws why. hah. =(
Q5) 7 things i do everydayAns: well, wht shld i say?! the mundane!? well.. wake, eat, bathe, sleep, study, sing, music? HAH. yey, music's in my life. =D
Q6) 7 things i want to see right nw
Ans: a fairy godmother that tells me, i will turn u pretty, rich, healthy, intelligent and everything u wanna be! ahahaha.. next, i wanna see a calendar that notes public holiday for the rest of the year, or years. then, i wanna see.... hmmm.. my history paper!... seriously.. why wun he give it back?! keeping us in suspense. anddd... i'll wanna see beautiful beautiful things?! libra has a thing for beauty. which is why i dislike the mirror.. >.< ... i wanna see everything else in frt of me, coz i cant imagine myself not able to see anything ( i just acted like the blind in lit class today, that short moment irritated me... feels so frustrating to feel the way toeverything.. )
Q7) 7 people i want to do this quizAns: kelvin, jackson, kenny, lester, elaine, amanda, faith ( write it on a piece of paper and hand in to me. by this week, or i'll call your parents. hahah ) , who else reads my blog?! i duno!! hahaha
here goes...
Q1) 7 things/people that make u smile
Ans: my family; my friends; PURPLE?! ; cute stuffs ; the blue blue sky.. ; the As i will get in A Levels?! ahaha. [ I'LL GET IT! ] hahah, ; kids/babies?! sorry, im not a paedo. but they just make me smile =D
Q2) 7 things to do to win my heart
Ans: be ultra nice, share intimate things for 30 mins and stare deeply into my eyes for 4 mins. HAHAH. taken from GP, science of love. anyway, i just turned into a bull and shitted. sorry. HAH, anyway, the most impt things is to love me alot. tts all. =D
Q3) 7 things i believe inAns: everything.
Q4)7 things i am afraid ofAns:
hmmm? faith will wanna say everything. BUT, 7 greatest frights : dark, butterfly, eerie stuffs ( knw wht im talking abt.. ) , heights? , strange things!? , dogs or shld i say things tt move ard my legs... freaky aint it? , and most importantly the feeling of abandonment. well, im castrophobic. pple knws why. hah. =(
Q5) 7 things i do everydayAns: well, wht shld i say?! the mundane!? well.. wake, eat, bathe, sleep, study, sing, music? HAH. yey, music's in my life. =D
Q6) 7 things i want to see right nw
Ans: a fairy godmother that tells me, i will turn u pretty, rich, healthy, intelligent and everything u wanna be! ahahaha.. next, i wanna see a calendar that notes public holiday for the rest of the year, or years. then, i wanna see.... hmmm.. my history paper!... seriously.. why wun he give it back?! keeping us in suspense. anddd... i'll wanna see beautiful beautiful things?! libra has a thing for beauty. which is why i dislike the mirror.. >.< ... i wanna see everything else in frt of me, coz i cant imagine myself not able to see anything ( i just acted like the blind in lit class today, that short moment irritated me... feels so frustrating to feel the way toeverything.. )
Q7) 7 people i want to do this quizAns: kelvin, jackson, kenny, lester, elaine, amanda, faith ( write it on a piece of paper and hand in to me. by this week, or i'll call your parents. hahah ) , who else reads my blog?! i duno!! hahaha
WARNING
here again, i announce, that i am FULLY, 100% TOTALLY, STRAIGHT!!
surprised that people actually still have doubts on it.
hahaha, prolly too close to my wifey..
BUT!! im totally into guys aight?!?!'
hahaha. and im also surprised that people actually read these blogs..
and i heard haters usually read it more than friends..wow.
i dun even visit blogs of friends that often.
okie... i dunno who hates me anyway.. haha.
Blocks was a total screw up. amazing math results. U3.. U for econs n gp as well.. sighh..
when do i stop veering off tangent when i write?!
i think i'll just do wht ms kwok suggested. write the question with big writing and put it in the pencil case. hah. alright people. take care... as well as the teachers from 0732. amusing and motivating talk pck gave. hah. we are all teachers, wow.
right... byebye! wun be here for some time, concert will just jam up our whole schedule...
OH OH!!! and YOU!! yes you, the one reading this very post. please please come for <> concert! u wun be disappointed, well, we will sing our best, so bring your ears!!
pls contact me for tickets. yes.. my hotline and my email's there.. just drop me a msg or smth. THANKS PPLE! <3
nights. (:
surprised that people actually still have doubts on it.
hahaha, prolly too close to my wifey..
BUT!! im totally into guys aight?!?!'
hahaha. and im also surprised that people actually read these blogs..
and i heard haters usually read it more than friends..wow.
i dun even visit blogs of friends that often.
okie... i dunno who hates me anyway.. haha.
Blocks was a total screw up. amazing math results. U3.. U for econs n gp as well.. sighh..
when do i stop veering off tangent when i write?!
i think i'll just do wht ms kwok suggested. write the question with big writing and put it in the pencil case. hah. alright people. take care... as well as the teachers from 0732. amusing and motivating talk pck gave. hah. we are all teachers, wow.
right... byebye! wun be here for some time, concert will just jam up our whole schedule...
OH OH!!! and YOU!! yes you, the one reading this very post. please please come for <> concert! u wun be disappointed, well, we will sing our best, so bring your ears!!
pls contact me for tickets. yes.. my hotline and my email's there.. just drop me a msg or smth. THANKS PPLE! <3
nights. (:
Saturday, March 29, 2008
sick....
sighh... i thought my post exam sickness curse has gone away.
but it never fails to pounce on me again.
sighhhh.... tmr ktv-ing.. how how how?!!??!
damn sian when ur whole nasal passage is clogged up. and feeling hot in the face, breathing hot air...and cold the rest of the body....
aight... shld post my journey today for orienteering on another day..
bye guys!!!
and dun fall sick.... =D
but it never fails to pounce on me again.
sighhhh.... tmr ktv-ing.. how how how?!!??!
damn sian when ur whole nasal passage is clogged up. and feeling hot in the face, breathing hot air...and cold the rest of the body....
aight... shld post my journey today for orienteering on another day..
bye guys!!!
and dun fall sick.... =D
Friday, March 28, 2008
slackerz
hey peeps!! =D today aint so bad after all..
cancelled the optician thing and went home to sleep.. after all its like damn rush...
sighh,.... canceled my date with my mum. hahaha.
anyway.. sorta looking forward to the sports carnival thing.
and PILLOWMAN. =D and my mumma's birthday.
another round of singing..
omg.. im really hooked on singing now.. hahhaa
i hear music in me! lol... music is my food.
poor neighbours...i will prolly receive a warning letter soon.
or they will put me in IMH or smth... quite near my place somemore. hAH!
had a rotter's life today, but had tuition so not soo bad...
omg... Jin Zi Cong really damn nice la!! hahahaa...
i want a guy like him too! hahaha.
O well, if u describe men and women as magnets... men will prolly be the north.. and out of all the south females.. im the only north one...
repelling those guys away...
HAHA. ok, i really have weird metaphors running in my head..
aight! gotta go sleep!!
tata pple!!
LOVES..
MWAHH
cancelled the optician thing and went home to sleep.. after all its like damn rush...
sighh,.... canceled my date with my mum. hahaha.
anyway.. sorta looking forward to the sports carnival thing.
and PILLOWMAN. =D and my mumma's birthday.
another round of singing..
omg.. im really hooked on singing now.. hahhaa
i hear music in me! lol... music is my food.
poor neighbours...i will prolly receive a warning letter soon.
or they will put me in IMH or smth... quite near my place somemore. hAH!
had a rotter's life today, but had tuition so not soo bad...
omg... Jin Zi Cong really damn nice la!! hahahaa...
i want a guy like him too! hahaha.
O well, if u describe men and women as magnets... men will prolly be the north.. and out of all the south females.. im the only north one...
repelling those guys away...
HAHA. ok, i really have weird metaphors running in my head..
aight! gotta go sleep!!
tata pple!!
LOVES..
MWAHH
Thursday, March 27, 2008
happiness, short lived.
papers ended today. yay.
but my phone passes on bad news to me.
choir tmr. sectionals.
right after blocks.
wow.
ok, i knw the concert's coming up and we shldnt complain.
but argghhh... plans for the whole day have been made. morning till night.
all planned.. and i still have to go out with my mamma tmr after the optician.
and wht? tuition!? wth.
watching Hooping Dulcinea, aka 鬥牛要不要
well, i shldnt be so grouchy..
but choir's really becoming a chore..
and i lost my voice from today's singing...
had fun with the girls today tho. =D
well, happiness are often short lived.
ok, shld look forward to choir tmr.
i'll try to.
but my phone passes on bad news to me.
choir tmr. sectionals.
right after blocks.
wow.
ok, i knw the concert's coming up and we shldnt complain.
but argghhh... plans for the whole day have been made. morning till night.
all planned.. and i still have to go out with my mamma tmr after the optician.
and wht? tuition!? wth.
watching Hooping Dulcinea, aka 鬥牛要不要
well, i shldnt be so grouchy..
but choir's really becoming a chore..
and i lost my voice from today's singing...
had fun with the girls today tho. =D
well, happiness are often short lived.
ok, shld look forward to choir tmr.
i'll try to.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Past Midnight ( memory)
sorry if there are mistakes. this is purely from my memory. hee
Past Midnight
i turn the light on to see if i am still there
the bulb creeps to life, resentful
at being roused to work. the dreary repertoire
which a discordant band went through a dozen times
during a neighbour's funeral, is stomping in my head.
i hum a classical tune, summon
the words of a sentimental song to expel the stubborn band.
the blaring trumpets cut them down in a single blow
life is perpetual unrest in
the house estates. the endless knockings,
the endless stampeding feet, the endless hurricanes of bad temper.
the eternal television, the thrashing of bodies.
and the endless rituals of life and death.
where is the point of stillness
mature art directs us to?
my mind veers crazily,
i turn of the light,
the bulb goes on burning inside.
yup, all from my memory. not bad a go. HAHA. love this poem.
beautiful solitude. =D
aight. getting back to JJ. not the SPOP guy duhh... the LPOP guy. haha!
Past Midnight
i turn the light on to see if i am still there
the bulb creeps to life, resentful
at being roused to work. the dreary repertoire
which a discordant band went through a dozen times
during a neighbour's funeral, is stomping in my head.
i hum a classical tune, summon
the words of a sentimental song to expel the stubborn band.
the blaring trumpets cut them down in a single blow
life is perpetual unrest in
the house estates. the endless knockings,
the endless stampeding feet, the endless hurricanes of bad temper.
the eternal television, the thrashing of bodies.
and the endless rituals of life and death.
where is the point of stillness
mature art directs us to?
my mind veers crazily,
i turn of the light,
the bulb goes on burning inside.
yup, all from my memory. not bad a go. HAHA. love this poem.
beautiful solitude. =D
aight. getting back to JJ. not the SPOP guy duhh... the LPOP guy. haha!
Last day of mugging for some time. at least.
Was studying at the library today again, with lester.
piles of books at our table, printed copies as well.
literature becomes a drag when you have examinations.
when theres a time limit and an exam scope.
damn the examinations.
damn the system.
damn!
I was just sitting at the same spot today and saw this quite cute guy. perhaps a tall version of ***
(hahaha. sorry bout the *** ) Oh well, he felt like a nice guy. HAH.
i was stoning and just looked at him while stoning, and i think he sorta realised that im "looking" at him. Right, amusing things happens between strangers. hahah
ok, i've got no idea why i'm still here. And since this is merely a textbox, i don't think it can, in any way, shoo me off this page.. argh, tmr's paper will be total thrash.
In the very first place, we have got no idea what kind of questions will be out to kill us, and we have not in much ways practiced for these 2 books, let alone an identity paper. what the hell is that? My England trip is so not my dream come true. its a say-bye-bye-to-me thing now. RAHHHHHHH. london bridge is falling down falling down falling down.....
ok, that was random, but thats me, welcome to my life. yerh. HAH
watched jeff duhman. omg, he totally rock my world!!
his humour and everything... the thing is... hes talking to himself!! which amuses me alot.. LOL..
i will post some vids of him up here soon. and trust me, ur sides will ache too.
aight. gotta go. yawns.
hate this.
BYE!
piles of books at our table, printed copies as well.
literature becomes a drag when you have examinations.
when theres a time limit and an exam scope.
damn the examinations.
damn the system.
damn!
I was just sitting at the same spot today and saw this quite cute guy. perhaps a tall version of ***
(hahaha. sorry bout the *** ) Oh well, he felt like a nice guy. HAH.
i was stoning and just looked at him while stoning, and i think he sorta realised that im "looking" at him. Right, amusing things happens between strangers. hahah
ok, i've got no idea why i'm still here. And since this is merely a textbox, i don't think it can, in any way, shoo me off this page.. argh, tmr's paper will be total thrash.
In the very first place, we have got no idea what kind of questions will be out to kill us, and we have not in much ways practiced for these 2 books, let alone an identity paper. what the hell is that? My England trip is so not my dream come true. its a say-bye-bye-to-me thing now. RAHHHHHHH. london bridge is falling down falling down falling down.....
ok, that was random, but thats me, welcome to my life. yerh. HAH
watched jeff duhman. omg, he totally rock my world!!
his humour and everything... the thing is... hes talking to himself!! which amuses me alot.. LOL..
i will post some vids of him up here soon. and trust me, ur sides will ache too.
aight. gotta go. yawns.
hate this.
BYE!
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
the story starts today...
The smell of cinnamon feeds the hungry nostrils.
The self, curious and inquisitive, yearning to learn everything there is..
The bubbling curosity peeks in more,
as she remain in wait for the one, day by day, the youthful lass search in vain,
for that right moment, for that right feelings, for that right man.
For the love, that she has yet to comprehend.
it remains a mystery, an ambiguous word in her dictionary.
the definition not yet discovered and felt.
she creates her make-believe-world.
trying to find the happiness in her own famous-happy-ends.
the girl turns hungry for it,
when she sees her friends. one by one, all well fed.
may not be the right kind of food.
sometimes it tastes nice, sometimes it tastes bad,
giving you occasional tummyaches.
the girl cringed and winced as she feels her tummy growled,
and the heart, just being pieced back into one, chorusing in the growls.
its gone tired yearning, tired waiting for the right food to come..
assured with the one-in-this-world safety health label..
the label, with her name on it.
she breathe the air of caffine,
so tantalizing, so enticing, so inspiring.
the smell of art, the coffeebeans appear exotic to her.
something alluring and mysterious about it.
the poems she has on hand sets her into more thinking.
each white hair determines a new set of troubles and thoughts
The sudden rush of melancholy silences her usual humour.
even though the poems are simply just examinable syllabus,
her emotions brimmed from the literary writings on life, on the sufferings on the other side of the world.
sometimes the grass is not always greener on the other side..
she felt she took the very steps of the pilgrim and feeling the gloom loom.
she heaves a few sighs, just staring at the tourists who had just arrived.
hearing mixtures of japanese, cantonese....
The last paper's on thursday.
finally the break will come soon.
this expedition seemed never ending.
and this station, for a whole 2 years. seemed the most strenous among all
many times, she break.
the flaws and the mistakes.. keeps the tears brimming in the endless pit,
her tears never dries.
as she stumble into the myriad of thoughts about India,
a foreign voice penetrated through the string on thoughts...
she turned and sees an English couple.
they took an interest with what she was doing and strike up a conversation
they seemed to be in their late 50s, early 60s.
but despite their age, they look as fit as a fiddle.
their bond were inseparable, but when her husband left the table,
she said that it was good to have sometime alone when you have been together with someone for so long.. 33 years she said.. that you can make decisions without being obliged to compromise with the other..
its a form of freedom that couples will sacrifice..
they travel together at times, alone at times...
she watches in envy at the old blissful couple.
the lady shared loads of things.
some that even inspired her..
like doing what we want and like to do,
instead of doing what we have to.
As she munches on the McSpicy she grabs in her long fingers,
her face turns red (duh, its McSPICY for goodness sake.) she feels her entire nasal passage clogging up.
her hammocks containing some water now..
she can't take spiciness, not so much, yet.
putting down the half eaten lunch,
she left her seat.
the mirror shows how red her face was
the chilling water ran from the tap, through her fingers.
she looked up again.
she sees ME
The self, curious and inquisitive, yearning to learn everything there is..
The bubbling curosity peeks in more,
as she remain in wait for the one, day by day, the youthful lass search in vain,
for that right moment, for that right feelings, for that right man.
For the love, that she has yet to comprehend.
it remains a mystery, an ambiguous word in her dictionary.
the definition not yet discovered and felt.
she creates her make-believe-world.
trying to find the happiness in her own famous-happy-ends.
the girl turns hungry for it,
when she sees her friends. one by one, all well fed.
may not be the right kind of food.
sometimes it tastes nice, sometimes it tastes bad,
giving you occasional tummyaches.
the girl cringed and winced as she feels her tummy growled,
and the heart, just being pieced back into one, chorusing in the growls.
its gone tired yearning, tired waiting for the right food to come..
assured with the one-in-this-world safety health label..
the label, with her name on it.
she breathe the air of caffine,
so tantalizing, so enticing, so inspiring.
the smell of art, the coffeebeans appear exotic to her.
something alluring and mysterious about it.
the poems she has on hand sets her into more thinking.
each white hair determines a new set of troubles and thoughts
The sudden rush of melancholy silences her usual humour.
even though the poems are simply just examinable syllabus,
her emotions brimmed from the literary writings on life, on the sufferings on the other side of the world.
sometimes the grass is not always greener on the other side..
she felt she took the very steps of the pilgrim and feeling the gloom loom.
she heaves a few sighs, just staring at the tourists who had just arrived.
hearing mixtures of japanese, cantonese....
The last paper's on thursday.
finally the break will come soon.
this expedition seemed never ending.
and this station, for a whole 2 years. seemed the most strenous among all
many times, she break.
the flaws and the mistakes.. keeps the tears brimming in the endless pit,
her tears never dries.
as she stumble into the myriad of thoughts about India,
a foreign voice penetrated through the string on thoughts...
she turned and sees an English couple.
they took an interest with what she was doing and strike up a conversation
they seemed to be in their late 50s, early 60s.
but despite their age, they look as fit as a fiddle.
their bond were inseparable, but when her husband left the table,
she said that it was good to have sometime alone when you have been together with someone for so long.. 33 years she said.. that you can make decisions without being obliged to compromise with the other..
its a form of freedom that couples will sacrifice..
they travel together at times, alone at times...
she watches in envy at the old blissful couple.
the lady shared loads of things.
some that even inspired her..
like doing what we want and like to do,
instead of doing what we have to.
As she munches on the McSpicy she grabs in her long fingers,
her face turns red (duh, its McSPICY for goodness sake.) she feels her entire nasal passage clogging up.
her hammocks containing some water now..
she can't take spiciness, not so much, yet.
putting down the half eaten lunch,
she left her seat.
the mirror shows how red her face was
the chilling water ran from the tap, through her fingers.
she looked up again.
she sees ME
Monday, March 24, 2008
rubiks cube
in progress...
i think im really slow with this.
hahaha. the videos seemed idiot proof..
but with me around...
ahahahaha.. the statement will fail. LOL
i think im really slow with this.
hahaha. the videos seemed idiot proof..
but with me around...
ahahahaha.. the statement will fail. LOL
Sunday, March 23, 2008
the tragic emptiness
its late, i know.
the later the night delves into its hearts
the deeper my hole sinks.
engulfing all the darkness..
burrowing into the endless pit.
reading shakespeare's tragedy aint such a nice thing to do.
no, it definitely won't fill up the emptiness
pls ignore the quotes below, just wanna practice. HAHAHA. we cant bring the book in. sighh.
this verse here, serves some form of irony to me.
it is supposedly, a profession of love.
a bold thing to do infront of the senates.
but yet, within the boldness..
in her words, surfaces and highlights the nature of subservience.
so afterall, the adventurous spirit is not so after all.
my noble father
I do perceived a divided duty:
To you, i am bound for life and education;
My life and education both do learn me
How to respect you. You are lord of all my duty
I am in hitherto you daughter. But here's my husband;
and so much duty as my mother showed
To you, preferring you before her father,
So much i challenge that i profess
Due to the moor my lord
(1.3.178-87)
the profession of love being one thing, and having a repetition of "duty" for 3 times accentuates her acceptance of the subservient role mandated even by the consensual, companionate marital model.
quotes of love:
desdemona to othello--
I saw Othellows visage in his mind
And to his honours and his valiant parts
Did I my soul and fortunes consecrate
(1.3.248 - 50)
on money : ( the first and the last lines )
That thou, Iago, who hast had my purse (1.1.2)
and seize upon the fortunes of the Moor (5.2.363)
the first one, being Iago using Roderigo's money.
so we can see how scheming Iago is from the start
and we can see from the second one, that despite the Moor having suicide and dead.
his fortunes are taken away.
is this a representation of another issue on race. of him being a Moor??
are you people bored??
confused?
yeah, i am too.
hahaha, sometimes its just too controversial and too many ideas jumbled up.
such that having one quote for one meaning would actually mean the other.
end up, i just contradict myself.
to think or not to think, thats my question.
the later the night delves into its hearts
the deeper my hole sinks.
engulfing all the darkness..
burrowing into the endless pit.
reading shakespeare's tragedy aint such a nice thing to do.
no, it definitely won't fill up the emptiness
pls ignore the quotes below, just wanna practice. HAHAHA. we cant bring the book in. sighh.
this verse here, serves some form of irony to me.
it is supposedly, a profession of love.
a bold thing to do infront of the senates.
but yet, within the boldness..
in her words, surfaces and highlights the nature of subservience.
so afterall, the adventurous spirit is not so after all.
my noble father
I do perceived a divided duty:
To you, i am bound for life and education;
My life and education both do learn me
How to respect you. You are lord of all my duty
I am in hitherto you daughter. But here's my husband;
and so much duty as my mother showed
To you, preferring you before her father,
So much i challenge that i profess
Due to the moor my lord
(1.3.178-87)
the profession of love being one thing, and having a repetition of "duty" for 3 times accentuates her acceptance of the subservient role mandated even by the consensual, companionate marital model.
quotes of love:
desdemona to othello--
I saw Othellows visage in his mind
And to his honours and his valiant parts
Did I my soul and fortunes consecrate
(1.3.248 - 50)
on money : ( the first and the last lines )
That thou, Iago, who hast had my purse (1.1.2)
and seize upon the fortunes of the Moor (5.2.363)
the first one, being Iago using Roderigo's money.
so we can see how scheming Iago is from the start
and we can see from the second one, that despite the Moor having suicide and dead.
his fortunes are taken away.
is this a representation of another issue on race. of him being a Moor??
are you people bored??
confused?
yeah, i am too.
hahaha, sometimes its just too controversial and too many ideas jumbled up.
such that having one quote for one meaning would actually mean the other.
end up, i just contradict myself.
to think or not to think, thats my question.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
shelved up
OMG..... recently im so insecured..
i may just be left on the shelf!!!!!
i don't have too many years to spare..!!
and with time flying and him still not in sight!!
gosh gosh gosh...
i don't wanna be like Li-Ann.
don't even have her own kid!
ahahha. im thinking too much
maybe i shld have just gone for those blind dates..
lol!
okay.. u guys may think im insane for thinking about this at the age of 17+++
but seriously times flies..
i may just blog 5 years later with the same thing!!!
plus my so-manly-me character.
i think i will be shelved up.
collecting dust and cobwebs
rahhhhhh
aight.. bless my friends who are absorbing happiness like spongebob.
i'll be like patrick and try to get abit from them. hahahaha
lit is making me insane..
no fear shakespeare.
have fear eileen!
LOL
i may just be left on the shelf!!!!!
i don't have too many years to spare..!!
and with time flying and him still not in sight!!
gosh gosh gosh...
i don't wanna be like Li-Ann.
don't even have her own kid!
ahahha. im thinking too much
maybe i shld have just gone for those blind dates..
lol!
okay.. u guys may think im insane for thinking about this at the age of 17+++
but seriously times flies..
i may just blog 5 years later with the same thing!!!
plus my so-manly-me character.
i think i will be shelved up.
collecting dust and cobwebs
rahhhhhh
aight.. bless my friends who are absorbing happiness like spongebob.
i'll be like patrick and try to get abit from them. hahahaha
lit is making me insane..
no fear shakespeare.
have fear eileen!
LOL
Friday, March 21, 2008
The Leap Years ( again? )
not again, this time round's the movie.
lovely music, beautiful plot, amazing setting.
how breath taking singapore can look.
everything about it is simply BEAUTIFUL.
Thank you Dr. Catherine Lim, for coming with such an intriguing plot.
touching right into our hearts and souls.
thanks to the producer and the music director and everyone involved for the great show put up.
really, it gave me a huge impact.
the lines from William shakespeare, oscar wilde, and even einstein...
all mean so much.... ( they have to after all.. )
but these, are simply reminders to us.
to stop and think about life.
think about how much we've missed
how much we are trying to avoid.
and yet ending up with the same ending.
so, moral of story. face it. accept fate, even though if it comes right smack on your face. don't hide. don't run.....
haha. the whole idea is sooooooooo very beautiful...
and the songs are melting me...
finally, corrine may is heard.
such a good voice and yet so little coverage in singapore..
not many knows her..
i hope people do love her music after watching the movie..
im so getting the OST..
i wanna go up to the OCBC tower to throw airplanes too... i'll bring a whole suit case as well....
and let the wind tell you how much i missed you.
the you i've never met.
but always been somewhere in my world,
just that we are all to busy to meet.
so i let the wind blow u my desires.
my burning desire for you,
whom i have known for so long,
yet not know who you are..
omgawd... im drifting off to the metaphysical again.. hahaahha
something so intangible..
so unpractical.
so wrong in this pragmatic society.
who cares, this is MY WORLD.
MY OWN WORLD.
lovely music, beautiful plot, amazing setting.
how breath taking singapore can look.
everything about it is simply BEAUTIFUL.
Thank you Dr. Catherine Lim, for coming with such an intriguing plot.
touching right into our hearts and souls.
thanks to the producer and the music director and everyone involved for the great show put up.
really, it gave me a huge impact.
the lines from William shakespeare, oscar wilde, and even einstein...
all mean so much.... ( they have to after all.. )
but these, are simply reminders to us.
to stop and think about life.
think about how much we've missed
how much we are trying to avoid.
and yet ending up with the same ending.
so, moral of story. face it. accept fate, even though if it comes right smack on your face. don't hide. don't run.....
haha. the whole idea is sooooooooo very beautiful...
and the songs are melting me...
finally, corrine may is heard.
such a good voice and yet so little coverage in singapore..
not many knows her..
i hope people do love her music after watching the movie..
im so getting the OST..
i wanna go up to the OCBC tower to throw airplanes too... i'll bring a whole suit case as well....
and let the wind tell you how much i missed you.
the you i've never met.
but always been somewhere in my world,
just that we are all to busy to meet.
so i let the wind blow u my desires.
my burning desire for you,
whom i have known for so long,
yet not know who you are..
omgawd... im drifting off to the metaphysical again.. hahaahha
something so intangible..
so unpractical.
so wrong in this pragmatic society.
who cares, this is MY WORLD.
MY OWN WORLD.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
其實很愛你
其實很愛你( 偶像劇 屋頂上的綠寶石 主題曲 )
張韶涵作詞：黃漢青 ( F.I.R ) 桃子
作曲：黃漢青 ( F.I.R ) 編曲：林於賢
離開 不會太悲傷有些
心情該釋放直到
眼淚它自己落下才發現騙不了自己其實很愛你
現在 學著去遺忘躲開
有你的地方回憶
被誰放在書架上把它從最高的地方
落下感動越是深刻
寂寞就越傷人
OH ~每個人的心裡都會有一段傷痕
像白紙的天真
反覆被你傷的好深相愛不需要理由
離開也沒有理由
挽留現在
學著去遺忘躲開
有你的地方回憶
被誰放在書架上把它從最高的地方
落下感動越是深刻 寂寞就越傷人
OH ~每個人的心裡都會有一段傷痕像白紙的天真
反覆被你傷的好深相愛不需要理由
離開也沒有理由 挽留感動越是深刻
寂寞就越傷人
OH ~每個人的心裡都會有一段傷痕
像白紙的天真
反覆被你傷的好深相愛不需要理由
離開也沒有理由 挽留
張韶涵作詞：黃漢青 ( F.I.R ) 桃子
作曲：黃漢青 ( F.I.R ) 編曲：林於賢
離開 不會太悲傷有些
心情該釋放直到
眼淚它自己落下才發現騙不了自己其實很愛你
現在 學著去遺忘躲開
有你的地方回憶
被誰放在書架上把它從最高的地方
落下感動越是深刻
寂寞就越傷人
OH ~每個人的心裡都會有一段傷痕
像白紙的天真
反覆被你傷的好深相愛不需要理由
離開也沒有理由
挽留現在
學著去遺忘躲開
有你的地方回憶
被誰放在書架上把它從最高的地方
落下感動越是深刻 寂寞就越傷人
OH ~每個人的心裡都會有一段傷痕像白紙的天真
反覆被你傷的好深相愛不需要理由
離開也沒有理由 挽留感動越是深刻
寂寞就越傷人
OH ~每個人的心裡都會有一段傷痕
像白紙的天真
反覆被你傷的好深相愛不需要理由
離開也沒有理由 挽留
LOST
its not a good sign when im frequently up here.
because this means that i need a getaway.
who is Eileen?
what is she like?
lame? weird/eccentric?/short?/retarded?/foolish?/childish?
to some... i'm able to handle stuffs, able to talk sense into some, able to provide advice and assurance.
but i feel i'm lacking the power to assure,
because somehow i cant persuade myself that i will be fine in this world as well..
i like to be there for my friends.
but sometimes. its hard......
the feeling unexplanatory, and even unknown.
despite all the pilosophies of life i've vommited out...
despite all the flowery perceptions of mine...
i'm not what i say.
ok... im really drained. emotionally this time..
i need a fall back. just a firm shoulder to be there for me.
a smile i can think of when my day needs some light.
a warming embrace to dry the tears away.
to send the shivers away.
bringing my smiles back again.
an authentic smile.
someone to find my identity back.
to remove the layers of wall
and free me and my soul.
because this means that i need a getaway.
who is Eileen?
what is she like?
lame? weird/eccentric?/short?/retarded?/foolish?/childish?
to some... i'm able to handle stuffs, able to talk sense into some, able to provide advice and assurance.
but i feel i'm lacking the power to assure,
because somehow i cant persuade myself that i will be fine in this world as well..
i like to be there for my friends.
but sometimes. its hard......
the feeling unexplanatory, and even unknown.
despite all the pilosophies of life i've vommited out...
despite all the flowery perceptions of mine...
i'm not what i say.
ok... im really drained. emotionally this time..
i need a fall back. just a firm shoulder to be there for me.
a smile i can think of when my day needs some light.
a warming embrace to dry the tears away.
to send the shivers away.
bringing my smiles back again.
an authentic smile.
someone to find my identity back.
to remove the layers of wall
and free me and my soul.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
Friday, March 14, 2008
interrogation room
heyya whoever's reading this.
its "Past Midnight"
shall share the poem by Boey Kim Cheng here...
Past Midnight
I turn the light on to see if i am still there
the bulb creeps to life, resentful
at being roused to work. The dreary repertoire
which a discordant band went through a dozen times
during a neighbour's funeral, is stomping
in my head. I hum a classical tune, summon
the words of a sentimental song
to expel the stubborn band. The blaring trumpets
cut them down with a single blow
Life is perpetual unrest
inthe housing estates. the endless knockings
the stampeding feet, the hurricanes of bad temper,
the eternal television, the thrashing bodies,
the endless rituals of life and death
where is the point of stillness
mature art directs us to?
my mind veers crazily.
i turn the light off.
the bulb goes on burning inside.
this poem gave me alot of images.
the reason im posting it up here...
is the coincidence of having a wake at the void deck
however, it is not producing much sounds,
could be due to my aircon, i do not know.
the of past midnight gives me alot of thoughts..
the interrogation room.
dark, cold and still.
with that shining lamp, the burning bulb in my head.
interrogating my very own thoughts.
questioning and questioning.
forcing every single cell to strip naked.
to be true, to be seen through...
the lamp shining, the bulb burning.
the night shunning, the darkness encircling..
so still on the outside, but the bulb burns,
sending the flames leapin' movin' within'
yet it remain still. on the outside..
so cold on the outside, but the bulb burns,
setting the soul on fire.
leavin' me in a pile.
pile of soot in the hood.
till its end, it remained in the hood.
hidden, and faceless.
thats how the night goes,
like the interrogation room.
its "Past Midnight"
shall share the poem by Boey Kim Cheng here...
Past Midnight
I turn the light on to see if i am still there
the bulb creeps to life, resentful
at being roused to work. The dreary repertoire
which a discordant band went through a dozen times
during a neighbour's funeral, is stomping
in my head. I hum a classical tune, summon
the words of a sentimental song
to expel the stubborn band. The blaring trumpets
cut them down with a single blow
Life is perpetual unrest
inthe housing estates. the endless knockings
the stampeding feet, the hurricanes of bad temper,
the eternal television, the thrashing bodies,
the endless rituals of life and death
where is the point of stillness
mature art directs us to?
my mind veers crazily.
i turn the light off.
the bulb goes on burning inside.
this poem gave me alot of images.
the reason im posting it up here...
is the coincidence of having a wake at the void deck
however, it is not producing much sounds,
could be due to my aircon, i do not know.
the of past midnight gives me alot of thoughts..
the interrogation room.
dark, cold and still.
with that shining lamp, the burning bulb in my head.
interrogating my very own thoughts.
questioning and questioning.
forcing every single cell to strip naked.
to be true, to be seen through...
the lamp shining, the bulb burning.
the night shunning, the darkness encircling..
so still on the outside, but the bulb burns,
sending the flames leapin' movin' within'
yet it remain still. on the outside..
so cold on the outside, but the bulb burns,
setting the soul on fire.
leavin' me in a pile.
pile of soot in the hood.
till its end, it remained in the hood.
hidden, and faceless.
thats how the night goes,
like the interrogation room.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
T3
Bonjour!!
taking a break to print math stuff and rot..
been doing nth the whole day...
except eating and sleeping and tv..
hahaha, forgot about block test suddenly...
and tt felt good..
=X
been looking for the mock paper for the whole hour..
they shld just have huge labels and neon signs to link us there la!
such an impt thing yet hidden in such a secluded place. ahhaha
issit just me??
anyway... been mugging at T3 macs...
totally rocks.... nice ambience,
it feels "out of the world"
beautiful alieniation i wld say.
at least to me it is..
POPEYE'S was DAMN NICE...
the food rocks.. and not to forget the cartoon which i haven watched in ages
i rmb i cried watching it. hahaha... coz popeye nearly wasnt in time to save Olive from that terrible monster. hahaha.
anyway.... jiayou for those who are chionging as well..
yupp!!
and i so want to clear my name... prank msges are initiated and sent by faith yang. ( i was of no involvement, other seeing my phone being violated )
yes. i want back my name, my identity.
i'm coming clean..
taking a break to print math stuff and rot..
been doing nth the whole day...
except eating and sleeping and tv..
hahaha, forgot about block test suddenly...
and tt felt good..
=X
been looking for the mock paper for the whole hour..
they shld just have huge labels and neon signs to link us there la!
such an impt thing yet hidden in such a secluded place. ahhaha
issit just me??
anyway... been mugging at T3 macs...
totally rocks.... nice ambience,
it feels "out of the world"
beautiful alieniation i wld say.
at least to me it is..
POPEYE'S was DAMN NICE...
the food rocks.. and not to forget the cartoon which i haven watched in ages
i rmb i cried watching it. hahaha... coz popeye nearly wasnt in time to save Olive from that terrible monster. hahaha.
anyway.... jiayou for those who are chionging as well..
yupp!!
and i so want to clear my name... prank msges are initiated and sent by faith yang. ( i was of no involvement, other seeing my phone being violated )
yes. i want back my name, my identity.
i'm coming clean..
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Saturday, March 8, 2008
Leap of Love
Finished the leap of love today, the movie was adapted from Catherine Lim's novella.
one of the best love novels I've read, one closest to my heart at the moment.
our prospect towards love, irritatingly romantic and idealistic.
like her (Li-Ann) , i have to fall in love with LOVE before i can fall in love with a HIM
when would he appear? i would know with a certainty of the heart that surpassed any understanding by the mind, inferior organ by far, in the eternal human quest. i would know when place and person came together in the moment of Love's epiphany. The road to Love's Damascus had is blinding lights too: she would be dazzled for one moment then get up, rub her eyes and come face to face with the promised presence waiting at the end of the road.
now, none claimed any part of my heart. a heart rich and abundant, ready for the claiming and the claimant stood somewhere along the path. Fate will lead me. At some point, Fate ever a gentle benign presence, would stop, bend down and whisper. " That's HIM ", that point, will be the closure of a chapter of ardent search and opening the next one of joyous meeting, discovery, fulfilment, and love.
Fate being an amazing thing, comes swiftly and swoop past before you know it.
i believe in fate, not just between lovers but also friends, family and even strangers.
strangers are just friends whom you yet to know, yet to understand, yet to love.
i believe in the seemingly childish and perhaps even lame belief, that someone somewhere out there is thinking of you when you coincidentally sees the time "11:11" it sounds dumb, but that belief gives me surprise, gives me that short- lasting , perhaps a 3 seconds worth of happiness and love. Afterall, if it is a belief that brings happiness and a smile, so why not believe in something though silly, gives you joy.
this random thought just came into my mind when i was walking from the school to the station, where do people bury responsibility and guilt?
is there a pit for it?
why do some find it so hard to shove it away, to take a break and not feel guilt, to step into a train and not be guilty and worried taking a seat that someone else might need it more than me, or to have to help not because it does you good ( sometimes you hurt urself in the course of helping) yet, feels a need to, because of the obligations, and the guilt that comes along if you do not give out your hand. whereas some can just push the responsibilities and not feel anything?
i could just walk on the streets and feel bad when i see an old person carrying something heavy and i feel the need to help, yet helpless when i see how withdrawn they are. i step into the train and not dare to sit even when theres empty seats, afraid that someone comes, in a need of a place to seat. the guilt and all, happening every single moment. so "pip-ish", yet so me. sighhhh... if only, i can find the pit, i'll dump half the guilt, half my "busy-bodiness" , half of my sensitivity...
hahaha, but the main thing i wanna blog about was about the leap of love la... its just so romantic, so heart wrenching, so sweet it makes u wanna fall in love immediately. yehhhh, i feel like falling in love all over again...... >< sighhs....
as i waste the night in sighs......... i picture you in my mind.. the eyes... so mysterious, pulling me to you... then again, pulls back to reality. =.=
MUSIC AT THE MO:
1) Hardest Thing - 98 Degrees
2) Someones Watching over me - Hilary Duff
3) Beautiful - Christina
4) Until i find you again - Richard Marx
5) Wu Ding ( Rooftop?!) - Jay Chou and Landy
6) This I swear - Nick Lachey =DDDD
7) reflection - Coco Lee's rendition of it. =D
8) Nobody's home - Avril Lavigne
one of the best love novels I've read, one closest to my heart at the moment.
our prospect towards love, irritatingly romantic and idealistic.
like her (Li-Ann) , i have to fall in love with LOVE before i can fall in love with a HIM
when would he appear? i would know with a certainty of the heart that surpassed any understanding by the mind, inferior organ by far, in the eternal human quest. i would know when place and person came together in the moment of Love's epiphany. The road to Love's Damascus had is blinding lights too: she would be dazzled for one moment then get up, rub her eyes and come face to face with the promised presence waiting at the end of the road.
now, none claimed any part of my heart. a heart rich and abundant, ready for the claiming and the claimant stood somewhere along the path. Fate will lead me. At some point, Fate ever a gentle benign presence, would stop, bend down and whisper. " That's HIM ", that point, will be the closure of a chapter of ardent search and opening the next one of joyous meeting, discovery, fulfilment, and love.
Fate being an amazing thing, comes swiftly and swoop past before you know it.
i believe in fate, not just between lovers but also friends, family and even strangers.
strangers are just friends whom you yet to know, yet to understand, yet to love.
i believe in the seemingly childish and perhaps even lame belief, that someone somewhere out there is thinking of you when you coincidentally sees the time "11:11" it sounds dumb, but that belief gives me surprise, gives me that short- lasting , perhaps a 3 seconds worth of happiness and love. Afterall, if it is a belief that brings happiness and a smile, so why not believe in something though silly, gives you joy.
this random thought just came into my mind when i was walking from the school to the station, where do people bury responsibility and guilt?
is there a pit for it?
why do some find it so hard to shove it away, to take a break and not feel guilt, to step into a train and not be guilty and worried taking a seat that someone else might need it more than me, or to have to help not because it does you good ( sometimes you hurt urself in the course of helping) yet, feels a need to, because of the obligations, and the guilt that comes along if you do not give out your hand. whereas some can just push the responsibilities and not feel anything?
i could just walk on the streets and feel bad when i see an old person carrying something heavy and i feel the need to help, yet helpless when i see how withdrawn they are. i step into the train and not dare to sit even when theres empty seats, afraid that someone comes, in a need of a place to seat. the guilt and all, happening every single moment. so "pip-ish", yet so me. sighhhh... if only, i can find the pit, i'll dump half the guilt, half my "busy-bodiness" , half of my sensitivity...
hahaha, but the main thing i wanna blog about was about the leap of love la... its just so romantic, so heart wrenching, so sweet it makes u wanna fall in love immediately. yehhhh, i feel like falling in love all over again...... >< sighhs....
as i waste the night in sighs......... i picture you in my mind.. the eyes... so mysterious, pulling me to you... then again, pulls back to reality. =.=
MUSIC AT THE MO:
1) Hardest Thing - 98 Degrees
2) Someones Watching over me - Hilary Duff
3) Beautiful - Christina
4) Until i find you again - Richard Marx
5) Wu Ding ( Rooftop?!) - Jay Chou and Landy
6) This I swear - Nick Lachey =DDDD
7) reflection - Coco Lee's rendition of it. =D
8) Nobody's home - Avril Lavigne
Thursday, March 6, 2008
| - EILEEN |
modulus don't work for me.
went for the well being rep meeting today.
the role play thing and the situation...
feels really like me after getting back my econs paper everytime
and i think the counsellors methods will really make things worse la..
whts with... " i knw how it feels.. NO ONE KNOWS HOW IT FEELS. IT WILL ONLY MAKE MATTERS WORSE SAYING THAT. "
haha, and thinking about it made me close to tears at the point of time
been really tired and sick recently..
both physically and emotionally..
and whatever that is...
i feel like i really need the peace and quiet in my thundering mind
need some kind of solace and solitude.
some time to really space out and just clear the loads in my heart and mind
and my water bill been really high..
i guess my water tap's faulty...
needa plumber..
needa tailor, to sew back the wounds.
needa surgeon to put up the plaster smiles
need an architect to build up the walls that crumbled.
need a LIFESAVER, to save my life from the drowning waters
need a BREAK.
im faulty. spoilt and malfunctioned
went for the well being rep meeting today.
the role play thing and the situation...
feels really like me after getting back my econs paper everytime
and i think the counsellors methods will really make things worse la..
whts with... " i knw how it feels.. NO ONE KNOWS HOW IT FEELS. IT WILL ONLY MAKE MATTERS WORSE SAYING THAT. "
haha, and thinking about it made me close to tears at the point of time
been really tired and sick recently..
both physically and emotionally..
and whatever that is...
i feel like i really need the peace and quiet in my thundering mind
need some kind of solace and solitude.
some time to really space out and just clear the loads in my heart and mind
and my water bill been really high..
i guess my water tap's faulty...
needa plumber..
needa tailor, to sew back the wounds.
needa surgeon to put up the plaster smiles
need an architect to build up the walls that crumbled.
need a LIFESAVER, to save my life from the drowning waters
need a BREAK.
im faulty. spoilt and malfunctioned
a song. for the unloved
"Song For The Unloved"
Hey..This one is for the mothers
Who've lost a child
This one is for the gypsies
Who left their hearts behind
This is for the strangers
Sleeping in my heart
Take what they want
And leave while it's still dark
[Bridge]
No one is glamourouslyLonely,
all by themselves
[Chorus]This is a song for the unloved
This is a music for one last cry
This is a prayer that tomorrow will help me leave the past behind
It's a song for the unloved (the unloved)
This one's for the bridesmaid
Never the bride
This one's for the dreamers
Who locked their faith inside
This is for the widows
Who think there's only one
The dying fathers that never told their sons
No one is glamourously, lonelyFollow your heart
[Chorus repeat]
Ohh Tomorrow the sun will shine
And dry the tears in your eyes
Suddenly love comes alive
For one last cryJust one last cry
[Chorus repeat x2]
Hey..This one is for the mothers
Who've lost a child
This one is for the gypsies
Who left their hearts behind
This is for the strangers
Sleeping in my heart
Take what they want
And leave while it's still dark
[Bridge]
No one is glamourouslyLonely,
all by themselves
[Chorus]This is a song for the unloved
This is a music for one last cry
This is a prayer that tomorrow will help me leave the past behind
It's a song for the unloved (the unloved)
This one's for the bridesmaid
Never the bride
This one's for the dreamers
Who locked their faith inside
This is for the widows
Who think there's only one
The dying fathers that never told their sons
No one is glamourously, lonelyFollow your heart
[Chorus repeat]
Ohh Tomorrow the sun will shine
And dry the tears in your eyes
Suddenly love comes alive
For one last cryJust one last cry
[Chorus repeat x2]
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
moment of ephiphany
when will my revelation come?
where i find my answers to the many questions and doubts.
hungry for answers, hungry for realization.
i wonder why my puny brain works so differently from others,
not faster, but much much slower.. retardation, i often call it. some name it blureness, whichever way you want it.. im just S-L-O-W.
nice record i broke today, first time in my whole entire life where my econs test didn't rank last.
( i always did. never fail to not.. ) not something to be proud of. but i'm a little glad.. just a little, i made that really milli nano "improvement", "its just one mark, you're as bad" she said. used to it...shes also used to the "dumb-script = dumb grades " kinda thing for me, so she didnt even bother to ask me what happen... yupp. but none prolly know how it feels, coz sometimes i don't get the feelin myself. i think my posts are always so dark and depressing... sorry ><
i know readers prolly have that " cmon, i know how u feel and u are not dumb.." kinda expression and thought in them already, but seriously, don't say you understand how it feels to anyone, because, its really hard or rather impossible to really feel the same way as the subjected person. its really not the same, because we are who we are, and no one can replace anything about who we are... its our IDENTITY. (wow, am i doing too much literature? - i think i did. hah)
literature is an amazing subject. and mrs teo really really enlighten us. ( as quoted from faith) but i do agree strongly as well. that half an hour is really so productive, so much more than the prev hour of lesson. HAHA. woops. everyone knows who or what i'm talking about.. but i really don't wanna be that direct ( no offense )
the week's been really stressing and hectic.. with what? so far 3 choir practices alrdy?! (Mon, tues and wed. ) wow right... and guess where we find time??? hahaha, nawhhh... its hiding well, just can't find it.. TIME!! where are you?!.... aight.. i know i know.. the time im squandering on blogging... but aint it a release, a stress reliever, so that i can unload some of it and walk off with lighter weights on my shoulders?
was talking to mx just now... been ages since i talked to her like that.. and about guys.. wow.. leen talks about guys now. hahahaa. sorry, just that i'm talking so much on girls that people really will question my sexual orientation. FYI. yes im 100% straight. as straight as parallel lines.. hetero. normal and very sane. just a little prejudiced against man, and constant stereotyping. woops. sorry to the guys out there. hah. school work took such a toll on me that i actually forgotten everything about bgf and stuffs.. leaving me with no time to think about anyone,.. and when someone ask.. do you even eyecandy any guys... it was hard for me to cough out an answer... hahah! sorry not that im saying no one looks good or im in any position to s ay anything ( ok, i look abit less than fuggly but near there. ) ->> notice... the intensity of ugliness is decreasing... dr/dt) hahaha. no pun intended. aight.. back ta the topic.. yeahh.. im just rather numb...............towards L-O-V-E.
ok... ive been getting on for long........... and all of you are prolly really really bored and dozing off.. (that is if anyone is reading.. ) i desperately want $$$$.. oh oh!! great great news! i'm going for Pillowman!!! yayness la!!! finally... i've been wanting to watch since forever...its gonna be great.... so.. pls pple get the tixs if u havent. it rocks totally =D ... i keep digressing..my train of consciousness is really like stephen dedalus... sama sama.. LOL... as i was sayingg... i needed $$$$ to shop!!!! hah. i wanna go for a kinno spree... getting all the books on hot shelves... getting nice notebooks. ( i really like them. for their everything.. i never get bored of them ) i need a new wallet. a cardigan ( not for u dom!) , and many many many other stuffs.... >< and i've been spending all my money on food!!! dammit..... growing horizontally.. i feel like a compressed can of food. hahaha! weird imagery and metaphor. ignore me...
ok.. ive been rambling on for god knows why ( and i don't )...... making nonsensical statements and im just typing weird stuffs.. freaking the hell out of my friends.. yes.. this is stil eileen.. no one kidnapped her... no worries ( even tho u guys may want it to happen O.O ) hahhaah.
ok... i think u get wht i mean...so... gotta go zonk off to my bed alrdy...
nightey nights pple!!
loads of <3
MWAHH
CIAO!!
where i find my answers to the many questions and doubts.
hungry for answers, hungry for realization.
i wonder why my puny brain works so differently from others,
not faster, but much much slower.. retardation, i often call it. some name it blureness, whichever way you want it.. im just S-L-O-W.
nice record i broke today, first time in my whole entire life where my econs test didn't rank last.
( i always did. never fail to not.. ) not something to be proud of. but i'm a little glad.. just a little, i made that really milli nano "improvement", "its just one mark, you're as bad" she said. used to it...shes also used to the "dumb-script = dumb grades " kinda thing for me, so she didnt even bother to ask me what happen... yupp. but none prolly know how it feels, coz sometimes i don't get the feelin myself. i think my posts are always so dark and depressing... sorry ><
i know readers prolly have that " cmon, i know how u feel and u are not dumb.." kinda expression and thought in them already, but seriously, don't say you understand how it feels to anyone, because, its really hard or rather impossible to really feel the same way as the subjected person. its really not the same, because we are who we are, and no one can replace anything about who we are... its our IDENTITY. (wow, am i doing too much literature? - i think i did. hah)
literature is an amazing subject. and mrs teo really really enlighten us. ( as quoted from faith) but i do agree strongly as well. that half an hour is really so productive, so much more than the prev hour of lesson. HAHA. woops. everyone knows who or what i'm talking about.. but i really don't wanna be that direct ( no offense )
the week's been really stressing and hectic.. with what? so far 3 choir practices alrdy?! (Mon, tues and wed. ) wow right... and guess where we find time??? hahaha, nawhhh... its hiding well, just can't find it.. TIME!! where are you?!.... aight.. i know i know.. the time im squandering on blogging... but aint it a release, a stress reliever, so that i can unload some of it and walk off with lighter weights on my shoulders?
was talking to mx just now... been ages since i talked to her like that.. and about guys.. wow.. leen talks about guys now. hahahaa. sorry, just that i'm talking so much on girls that people really will question my sexual orientation. FYI. yes im 100% straight. as straight as parallel lines.. hetero. normal and very sane. just a little prejudiced against man, and constant stereotyping. woops. sorry to the guys out there. hah. school work took such a toll on me that i actually forgotten everything about bgf and stuffs.. leaving me with no time to think about anyone,.. and when someone ask.. do you even eyecandy any guys... it was hard for me to cough out an answer... hahah! sorry not that im saying no one looks good or im in any position to s ay anything ( ok, i look abit less than fuggly but near there. ) ->> notice... the intensity of ugliness is decreasing... dr/dt) hahaha. no pun intended. aight.. back ta the topic.. yeahh.. im just rather numb...............towards L-O-V-E.
ok... ive been getting on for long........... and all of you are prolly really really bored and dozing off.. (that is if anyone is reading.. ) i desperately want $$$$.. oh oh!! great great news! i'm going for Pillowman!!! yayness la!!! finally... i've been wanting to watch since forever...its gonna be great.... so.. pls pple get the tixs if u havent. it rocks totally =D ... i keep digressing..my train of consciousness is really like stephen dedalus... sama sama.. LOL... as i was sayingg... i needed $$$$ to shop!!!! hah. i wanna go for a kinno spree... getting all the books on hot shelves... getting nice notebooks. ( i really like them. for their everything.. i never get bored of them ) i need a new wallet. a cardigan ( not for u dom!) , and many many many other stuffs.... >< and i've been spending all my money on food!!! dammit..... growing horizontally.. i feel like a compressed can of food. hahaha! weird imagery and metaphor. ignore me...
ok.. ive been rambling on for god knows why ( and i don't )...... making nonsensical statements and im just typing weird stuffs.. freaking the hell out of my friends.. yes.. this is stil eileen.. no one kidnapped her... no worries ( even tho u guys may want it to happen O.O ) hahhaah.
ok... i think u get wht i mean...so... gotta go zonk off to my bed alrdy...
nightey nights pple!!
loads of <3
MWAHH
CIAO!!
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
dead, revived, dead again.
been so caught up with school work and choir...
sleep, i've been missing it all..
other than dozing off and not realizing it until someone pokes me.
is that sleeping? how can i stop myself from sleeping when i don't even know when i've alrdy dozed off...
its not simple for those who do not understand..
i believe everyone has different minds, different thinking, different body conditions..
please do not show that you understand when u you truly don't.
coz im confused myself.
i need my own revelation... sighhhh
crisis moment. is this?
a time when u think that life is nothing but a process of death..
when all the things you go through now, all the unhappiness, all the laughter, all the tears..
all the sleepless nights.. all the As and "Papers"... all boils down to nothing in the end.. does it?
sorry, but you're reading a cynic's blog. so parden my pessimism here... prolly end after my As... which is dumb ranting now, coz i know that after As... these entries will only be seen as nothing...
really.... when u pass the certain stages in life.. crucial it may seem at that point of time... but in the end, it dosent really matter...
im just tired.. and blabbering nonsense.. again.....
ok... my bed's calling out to me... tata~
sleep, i've been missing it all..
other than dozing off and not realizing it until someone pokes me.
is that sleeping? how can i stop myself from sleeping when i don't even know when i've alrdy dozed off...
its not simple for those who do not understand..
i believe everyone has different minds, different thinking, different body conditions..
please do not show that you understand when u you truly don't.
coz im confused myself.
i need my own revelation... sighhhh
crisis moment. is this?
a time when u think that life is nothing but a process of death..
when all the things you go through now, all the unhappiness, all the laughter, all the tears..
all the sleepless nights.. all the As and "Papers"... all boils down to nothing in the end.. does it?
sorry, but you're reading a cynic's blog. so parden my pessimism here... prolly end after my As... which is dumb ranting now, coz i know that after As... these entries will only be seen as nothing...
really.... when u pass the certain stages in life.. crucial it may seem at that point of time... but in the end, it dosent really matter...
im just tired.. and blabbering nonsense.. again.....
ok... my bed's calling out to me... tata~
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
depressing
i'm just stupid and slow.
ok, maybe not the stupid part
but definitely slow.
it seems only the shans understand how i feel
coz at least we are of the same standards....
and its really exhausting to keep trying,
trying real hard to catch up,
to understand,
to not fall asleep so often.
but apparently the grades still don;t show..
it feels like its just stupidity on my side.
that i stumbled into the wrong world.
fell off the parallels into this odd world that i don't belong
is this just tentative? i hope.
that i can return to my real world soon,
or perhaps, be aided to live through this place,
another place that i do not know of.
ok, maybe not the stupid part
but definitely slow.
it seems only the shans understand how i feel
coz at least we are of the same standards....
and its really exhausting to keep trying,
trying real hard to catch up,
to understand,
to not fall asleep so often.
but apparently the grades still don;t show..
it feels like its just stupidity on my side.
that i stumbled into the wrong world.
fell off the parallels into this odd world that i don't belong
is this just tentative? i hope.
that i can return to my real world soon,
or perhaps, be aided to live through this place,
another place that i do not know of.
Sunday, February 10, 2008
those days
really miss those days..
when we sat down and talked for hours.
even though today was just for that short hour..
i think it really means alot.
it is not how much time u have,
but how u spend that every minute
like how it tells about life
it dosent matter how long you live,
but how you live it.
whether u chose to paint it with colours in that short moment.
or keep it blank forever.
i miss those days...
we'll find time out again wunt we??
=D
went to play bball with the 2 bros just now...
feel so intimidated by that near 190 sch team player..
and another 170 (hahah!) great 3 pointer..
seriously.. the 3 point line is dammnnn far away from me...
hahaha. but okay la.. still managed to get a few 2 pointers in. >.O
=3 and i cant do anymore pull ups. not even one. which i could do before..
gahhhhh.. i should go on a diet. i've been saying this since sec 4
blame it on the birthday wish 10 years ago.
i was like paper. cant blame me for wishing to grow fat. HAHAH
now i got it, and im complaining. hahaa. i shld wish to slim down to perfect figure.
cant be wrong now. =D thts why pple say "becareful wht u wish for"
and. hahaa, i feel so much better with integration now.
even tho i cant finish the tutorial
but...... i did stay up to try..
i still want to watch my 27 dresses and PS. I Love You.. plus one more!!! KungFu Guan Lan!!!!!
hahaa, and i think alot more other movies... i cant watch feast of love!!! OMG... why!!!!???
no time for movies anyway... but the 3 movies will be must watch
=D aight, im yawning alrdy...going off soon..
+ the moment u step onto this world, beating the first beat of your heart.
we are all destined to die. +
so cherish every moment. coz every single moment, u are waiting for death..
hahaha... i feel so pessimistic, but its how i remind myself to enjoy myself... so i do not spend the waiting days in sorrows. yup! jiayou everyone!!!! =D
when we sat down and talked for hours.
even though today was just for that short hour..
i think it really means alot.
it is not how much time u have,
but how u spend that every minute
like how it tells about life
it dosent matter how long you live,
but how you live it.
whether u chose to paint it with colours in that short moment.
or keep it blank forever.
i miss those days...
we'll find time out again wunt we??
=D
went to play bball with the 2 bros just now...
feel so intimidated by that near 190 sch team player..
and another 170 (hahah!) great 3 pointer..
seriously.. the 3 point line is dammnnn far away from me...
hahaha. but okay la.. still managed to get a few 2 pointers in. >.O
=3 and i cant do anymore pull ups. not even one. which i could do before..
gahhhhh.. i should go on a diet. i've been saying this since sec 4
blame it on the birthday wish 10 years ago.
i was like paper. cant blame me for wishing to grow fat. HAHAH
now i got it, and im complaining. hahaa. i shld wish to slim down to perfect figure.
cant be wrong now. =D thts why pple say "becareful wht u wish for"
and. hahaa, i feel so much better with integration now.
even tho i cant finish the tutorial
but...... i did stay up to try..
i still want to watch my 27 dresses and PS. I Love You.. plus one more!!! KungFu Guan Lan!!!!!
hahaa, and i think alot more other movies... i cant watch feast of love!!! OMG... why!!!!???
no time for movies anyway... but the 3 movies will be must watch
=D aight, im yawning alrdy...going off soon..
+ the moment u step onto this world, beating the first beat of your heart.
we are all destined to die. +
so cherish every moment. coz every single moment, u are waiting for death..
hahaha... i feel so pessimistic, but its how i remind myself to enjoy myself... so i do not spend the waiting days in sorrows. yup! jiayou everyone!!!! =D
Thursday, February 7, 2008
This I swear.
You're there by my side
In every way
I know that you would not forsake me
I give you my life
Would not think twice
Your love is all I need believe me
I may not say it quite as much as I should
When I say I love you darling that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in
And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
This I swear
I'm wondering how I ever got by
Without you in my life to guide me
Where ever I go the one thing that's true
Is everything I do I do for you
I may not say it quite as much as I should
When I say I love you darling that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in
And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
This I swear
So whenever you get there
Just reach out for me
I'll never let you down my love
And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
This I swear
And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there This I swear
i know this sounds too cheesy and phony and whatever terms pple can think of.
but cliche as it sounds... i think its really sweet and all...
and this kind of love..... is extinct.
nonetheless, i still love this song....
i get goosebumps whenever i hear it...
(not becoz of aircon or anything.. )
and yes. this will be played on my wedding.
(that is if im not left on the shelf or smth )
In every way
I know that you would not forsake me
I give you my life
Would not think twice
Your love is all I need believe me
I may not say it quite as much as I should
When I say I love you darling that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in
And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
This I swear
I'm wondering how I ever got by
Without you in my life to guide me
Where ever I go the one thing that's true
Is everything I do I do for you
I may not say it quite as much as I should
When I say I love you darling that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in
And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
This I swear
So whenever you get there
Just reach out for me
I'll never let you down my love
And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
This I swear
And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there This I swear
i know this sounds too cheesy and phony and whatever terms pple can think of.
but cliche as it sounds... i think its really sweet and all...
and this kind of love..... is extinct.
nonetheless, i still love this song....
i get goosebumps whenever i hear it...
(not becoz of aircon or anything.. )
and yes. this will be played on my wedding.
(that is if im not left on the shelf or smth )
cny
happy cny pple!!! =D
dun get too fat!!! hahaha
and i should really start dieting...
everyones saying i've grown fatter...
gahhhh.... yes yes.. i have.
no offense for those who feels offended...
coz my fats are hidden under the sch u...
yupp.. so. ahaa.... 148 is fat!!
yay. and i passed 2.4 screening with my period!!!
hahaha!!!! i thought i was dying on the 4th round already...
last year was 16 secs to gold ( thanks to my ipod. coz i dropped it along the way while listening )
thank god im not a guy... =D sorry to the men out there.
watched cj7 yest. with my uncle, cousins and bro.
cj7 ( the pet itself ) is damnnnn cute!!!!
oh well.. i believe every kid has their imaginary toy/friend that they wished to have.
something perfect and super natural to satisfy human greed and desires..
gonna catch 27 dresses and kungfu dunk with the cuzins as well
and ps. i love you with the singles club.
its really really a must watch.......
i will watch it even if its the only movie i can watch for the whole year.
=D the plot is that nice.
and i wonder howmany tissues i'll use up..
oh... and its amazing how i can tear in stephen chow's movie. HAHAHA
the hospital scene is really heart wrenching...
gahhhh... i've gotta go do my tutorial ... ms seah will be breathing down our necks if i dun...
gambatte!!! fighting!! jiayou!!
=DDD
dun get too fat!!! hahaha
and i should really start dieting...
everyones saying i've grown fatter...
gahhhh.... yes yes.. i have.
no offense for those who feels offended...
coz my fats are hidden under the sch u...
yupp.. so. ahaa.... 148 is fat!!
yay. and i passed 2.4 screening with my period!!!
hahaha!!!! i thought i was dying on the 4th round already...
last year was 16 secs to gold ( thanks to my ipod. coz i dropped it along the way while listening )
thank god im not a guy... =D sorry to the men out there.
watched cj7 yest. with my uncle, cousins and bro.
cj7 ( the pet itself ) is damnnnn cute!!!!
oh well.. i believe every kid has their imaginary toy/friend that they wished to have.
something perfect and super natural to satisfy human greed and desires..
gonna catch 27 dresses and kungfu dunk with the cuzins as well
and ps. i love you with the singles club.
its really really a must watch.......
i will watch it even if its the only movie i can watch for the whole year.
=D the plot is that nice.
and i wonder howmany tissues i'll use up..
oh... and its amazing how i can tear in stephen chow's movie. HAHAHA
the hospital scene is really heart wrenching...
gahhhh... i've gotta go do my tutorial ... ms seah will be breathing down our necks if i dun...
gambatte!!! fighting!! jiayou!!
=DDD
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Narcolepsy
Narcolepsy has its typical onset in adolescence and young adulthood. There is an average 15-year delay between onset and correct diagnosis which may contribute substantially to the disabling features of the disorder. Cognitive, educational, occupational, and psychosocial problems associated with the excessive daytime sleepiness of narcolepsy have been documented. For these to occur in the crucial teen years when education, development of self-image, and development of occupational choice are taking place is especially damaging. While cognitive impairment does occur, it may only be a reflection of the excessive daytime somnolence.
The prevalence of narcolepsy is about 1 per 2,000 persons[5]. It is a reason for patient visits to sleep disorder centers, and with its onset in adolescence, it is also a major cause of learning difficulty and absenteeism from school. Normal teenagers often already experience excessive daytime sleepiness because of a maturational increase in physiological sleep tendency accentuated by multiple educational and social pressures; this may be disabling with the addition of narcolepsy symptoms in susceptible teenagers. In clinical practice, the differentiation between narcolepsy and other conditions characterized by excessive somnolence may be difficult. Treatment options are currently limited. There is a paucity in the literature of controlled double-blind studies of possible effective drugs or other forms of therapy. Mechanisms of action of some of the few available therapeutic agents have been explored but detailed studies of mechanisms of action are needed before new classes of therapeutic agents can be developed.
Narcolepsy is an underdiagnosed condition in the general population. This is partly because its severity varies from obvious to barely noticeable. Some people with narcolepsy do not suffer from loss of muscle control. Others may only feel sleepy in the evenings.
The prevalence of narcolepsy is about 1 per 2,000 persons[5]. It is a reason for patient visits to sleep disorder centers, and with its onset in adolescence, it is also a major cause of learning difficulty and absenteeism from school. Normal teenagers often already experience excessive daytime sleepiness because of a maturational increase in physiological sleep tendency accentuated by multiple educational and social pressures; this may be disabling with the addition of narcolepsy symptoms in susceptible teenagers. In clinical practice, the differentiation between narcolepsy and other conditions characterized by excessive somnolence may be difficult. Treatment options are currently limited. There is a paucity in the literature of controlled double-blind studies of possible effective drugs or other forms of therapy. Mechanisms of action of some of the few available therapeutic agents have been explored but detailed studies of mechanisms of action are needed before new classes of therapeutic agents can be developed.
Narcolepsy is an underdiagnosed condition in the general population. This is partly because its severity varies from obvious to barely noticeable. Some people with narcolepsy do not suffer from loss of muscle control. Others may only feel sleepy in the evenings.
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