Really really tired but still unable to sleep.. N I need to be up early tmr n get to town by 830. Amazingg. The allowance is way too little for what we have to do. ): 赚钱是辛苦的，爸爸好伟大 (:
I hereby proclaim I will not get drunk nor club this year! CNY resolution.
Valentines day out on 11th.mass of hotness. We will know why if the theatre is warn.
Still can't find what I want... Or am I just afraid of regret?
Friday, February 5, 2010
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Sunday, January 24, 2010
so much to say, but no idea where to start.
i don't really express myself well.
too many things i cant explain.
been wanting to use the right words, but i'll end up using wrong ones.
i hope mastering communication helps? but i seriously doubt so. hahaha
my gastric feels kinda messed up now. cereal dint really help. ):
watched gossip girl again. started on vampire diaries. bad time to start i know, but i couldnt resist.
cant wait for valentines day to come out. then again, no valentine to watch with. hahah..
officially gave up on horoscopes and zodiacs. yeap. like what mr busy said just now, how can there be 12 fates?! I've found my own faith. I'm new with this, and i'm still learning. I hope my heart will be filled then.
okay, i've yet to do the tutorial for tmr. guess i'll do it tmr during break. hehe.
good luck to the cheer team. sorry for backing out again and again. but then again, i've never been part of it, all the hard work all of you had put in. i don't want me to go in and ruin things.
nope, thats not the inferiority complex kicking in. though i wouldnt ignore the fact that its been there all along. but its for the best. (: as for the inferiority complex. hmmmm. i'm sure i will see a change soon. I WILL start BELIEVING, in myself and in Him.
okay, back to work. and everything else, it'll be sealed and corked up for today.
so much uncertainties.
i don't really express myself well.
too many things i cant explain.
been wanting to use the right words, but i'll end up using wrong ones.
i hope mastering communication helps? but i seriously doubt so. hahaha
my gastric feels kinda messed up now. cereal dint really help. ):
watched gossip girl again. started on vampire diaries. bad time to start i know, but i couldnt resist.
cant wait for valentines day to come out. then again, no valentine to watch with. hahah..
officially gave up on horoscopes and zodiacs. yeap. like what mr busy said just now, how can there be 12 fates?! I've found my own faith. I'm new with this, and i'm still learning. I hope my heart will be filled then.
okay, i've yet to do the tutorial for tmr. guess i'll do it tmr during break. hehe.
good luck to the cheer team. sorry for backing out again and again. but then again, i've never been part of it, all the hard work all of you had put in. i don't want me to go in and ruin things.
nope, thats not the inferiority complex kicking in. though i wouldnt ignore the fact that its been there all along. but its for the best. (: as for the inferiority complex. hmmmm. i'm sure i will see a change soon. I WILL start BELIEVING, in myself and in Him.
okay, back to work. and everything else, it'll be sealed and corked up for today.
so much uncertainties.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
I see my peers hitting the big 2. Oh dear, time flies and I'm growing olddd. On bus 27 right now and the bus was swerving like no ones business. I should supposedly balance better with my low cg. But apparently not. One of the commuter was amused by how much I swerved and how hard it was for me to hold on to the handles up there. Know she wasn't being rude. She smiled at me. Odd way to make someone smile! Hahah but at least I did (: waiting for Shihui at he busstop. Traveling is convenient in sk, (esp when I'm staying at he expressway) BUT just not to NTU. The express bus service is coming soon , though I Wun see the need for it this sem. Would like to try it out though, hahah. It feels like old time, taking school bus.
My voice is halfway back, but I still can't sing ): can't hit certain notes. Aargghh, really miss singing. If my voice dun ever come back I'll be so freaking sad.
I see Shihui bus! Seeya
Unwritten
Friday, January 15, 2010
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Watched The Time Traveler' Wife yesterday.
Rachel McAdams(Clare) is simply hot. and Eric Bana (Henry a.k.a TheTimeTraveler) is HOT TOO!! a combi of keanu reeves and hugh jackman!! oolala~ okays, enough of salivating over the cast. The movie wasn't too bad if not for the medication kicking in halfway. BUT I'm pretty sure the novel will do ALOT better. My bro's hogging it now, so till he finishes, and till i'm done with The Last Lecture, i'll move on to that amazing read everyone were so in to.
The movie wasn't so much of a tearjerker, leaves me mellow with a tinge of melancholy. teared in a few scenes , and the most memorable ones were henry with her daughter and henry in the subway with his mum. I guess its really important to tell how much you love your loved ones. They might not know it, and you might not be there in time to tell them. Time traveling don't exist in our world, not that I know of at least. (p.s. i'm always leaving room for fantasies. heh)
my fingers are going numb. the medication is really quite effective! nice job doc, hope i can get back my voice ASAP. K session awaits me! i had a really odd dream. I dreamt that I was performing on stage with S.H.E!! lol. Guess I really really love to sing. Thats the only time i feel alive. Ftw, i really don't sing tt well. and my dear roomie please stop telling the whole world i can!!!!! lol. many will be very disappointed!!! My ability is like a plankton in the vast ocean. but im a happy plankton at least, when i sing (: for now, lemme hope i can get over stage fright.
just received a really really long msg from angela. hahaha, i wonder why we don't talk on the phone instead! but its gooood, i love long msges. Really nice to have u around everytime. (: Though we don't get to see each other often, we treasure the times when we are! this sounds so gay!! LOL. and i should try to not cling on to u like a koala bear next time. i sense weird stares from the public. HAHAHA. yes i look at pretty girls, i have female eye candies and i cling on to my wife like a koala, but take my word. im STRAIGHT!! LIKE THIS _________________ VERY STRAIGHT. I adore beautiful things , tts all. and probably side effects from past experiences, BUT, i do fancy guys, still . LOL.
People are turning pretty, especially people in love. I've yet to experience the wonders of it, and so I'm taking them in from novels, movies and drama. Cant deny they aren't doing much good, bringing my expectations higher, and being way too idealistic about it. I still believe we're made in pairs, just that he's yet to cross my path. or maybe he did, but we never knew. Will i ever know?
To wait or to pursue?
Guide me, Father.
For now, my pursuits will be set on knowledge. I want more answers, and i believe I will find them myself. Knowledge will not leave me, it will not mock me. It will always be there, filling me up, and leaving room for more. The emptiness i feel will be filled, because i will then be rich. Not with tangible gold, but hidden treasures that will be invaluable.
Rachel McAdams(Clare) is simply hot. and Eric Bana (Henry a.k.a TheTimeTraveler) is HOT TOO!! a combi of keanu reeves and hugh jackman!! oolala~ okays, enough of salivating over the cast. The movie wasn't too bad if not for the medication kicking in halfway. BUT I'm pretty sure the novel will do ALOT better. My bro's hogging it now, so till he finishes, and till i'm done with The Last Lecture, i'll move on to that amazing read everyone were so in to.
The movie wasn't so much of a tearjerker, leaves me mellow with a tinge of melancholy. teared in a few scenes , and the most memorable ones were henry with her daughter and henry in the subway with his mum. I guess its really important to tell how much you love your loved ones. They might not know it, and you might not be there in time to tell them. Time traveling don't exist in our world, not that I know of at least. (p.s. i'm always leaving room for fantasies. heh)
my fingers are going numb. the medication is really quite effective! nice job doc, hope i can get back my voice ASAP. K session awaits me! i had a really odd dream. I dreamt that I was performing on stage with S.H.E!! lol. Guess I really really love to sing. Thats the only time i feel alive. Ftw, i really don't sing tt well. and my dear roomie please stop telling the whole world i can!!!!! lol. many will be very disappointed!!! My ability is like a plankton in the vast ocean. but im a happy plankton at least, when i sing (: for now, lemme hope i can get over stage fright.
just received a really really long msg from angela. hahaha, i wonder why we don't talk on the phone instead! but its gooood, i love long msges. Really nice to have u around everytime. (: Though we don't get to see each other often, we treasure the times when we are! this sounds so gay!! LOL. and i should try to not cling on to u like a koala bear next time. i sense weird stares from the public. HAHAHA. yes i look at pretty girls, i have female eye candies and i cling on to my wife like a koala, but take my word. im STRAIGHT!! LIKE THIS _________________ VERY STRAIGHT. I adore beautiful things , tts all. and probably side effects from past experiences, BUT, i do fancy guys, still . LOL.
People are turning pretty, especially people in love. I've yet to experience the wonders of it, and so I'm taking them in from novels, movies and drama. Cant deny they aren't doing much good, bringing my expectations higher, and being way too idealistic about it. I still believe we're made in pairs, just that he's yet to cross my path. or maybe he did, but we never knew. Will i ever know?
To wait or to pursue?
Guide me, Father.
For now, my pursuits will be set on knowledge. I want more answers, and i believe I will find them myself. Knowledge will not leave me, it will not mock me. It will always be there, filling me up, and leaving room for more. The emptiness i feel will be filled, because i will then be rich. Not with tangible gold, but hidden treasures that will be invaluable.
To the doc, finally
So much med :(
Nice doctor gave mr discount somemore lol! And 2 days MC (: I'm legally ponning lecture hahhas
Unwritten
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
i conclude that cough is the worst thing to have!!!
beats fever and flu. and so sorry to the people whom i've spread to!!!
come to me for pi pa gao or whtever u all need!!!!
wheezing is back when i thought i recovered. ):
maybe its the aircon.
argghhh, god bless us.
Theres a reason why i'm created this way, but i don't see it, yet?
beats fever and flu. and so sorry to the people whom i've spread to!!!
come to me for pi pa gao or whtever u all need!!!!
wheezing is back when i thought i recovered. ):
maybe its the aircon.
argghhh, god bless us.
Theres a reason why i'm created this way, but i don't see it, yet?
Friday, January 8, 2010
7 New Habits
This is a +ve post!!!!!
NOTE TO SELF:
1) see a doc ASAP
2) NO MORE EMO POSTS!!
3) NO MORE self hate situations!!
i'm just gonna put my best to everything. and if i still suck, i would simply resign to fate. no one's born perfect eh?
4) OPEN MY EYES and OPEN MY HEART.
looking back into the past, realised many things i've missed. Beautiful things are everywhere, i just need to discover them, right? My heart tells me the wrong things sometimes, but well, theres always my friends to help me judge eh? whats right and whats wrong.....
5) MOVE ON.
lingering in the past way too often. mistakes made, damage done. so, lesson learnt?
6) GPA 4+
this is to pull up my really cui GPA from last sem. Therefore, no more late nights, no more intensives trainings, no more stoning, and most imptantly, no more sleeping in lectures and tutorials. NO MORE. pinch me everytime i do sleep okayyy?!?!?!?!!?! AUNTIE U SEE THIS!? wake me up everytime i sleep!!!!!!!
7) Regain my patience.
too much adrenaline rush my bro says. Increasingly combustable. stayed away from home for too long i suppose. been popping back now and then lately so that i don't forget how i survived my 18 years at home. i get angry easily lately, at myself only actually. I am still nice, but not a push over anymore. (:
hmm... cant seem to think of anymore at the moment. LAST but not least be HAPPY? hahhas, not a huge problem since i find amusement in anything. oh!!! and dance dance revolution is actually quite fun. i wanna secretly go play again. and Alvin is damnnn zai !!! oh! Alvin just reminded me of the movie i wanna watch!!!!!! we need to watch it soon!!!! school is starting!!!!!!
IHG and Sentosa totally burned me. I miss my voice!!!!!!! It was gone yesterday. now i'm left with a really husky manly tone. wonder what my voice will become... i don't mind having a less kiddy voice ! so lets hope i retain a little bit of the bass tone after this cough. my physique and my voice totally label me as a kid please. hahaha. I AM NOT.
i want nice music. so please spam with songs aight?!?!??!!?!?
OH . sudden urge to play dai di. hahahaha.
9am foyer tmr
training at hall 2
match at 2
go home after match?
mmmm..... i need to get a few things done, but my mum will so kill me if she see me burnt like this. HAO HAO HAO???
NOTE TO SELF:
1) see a doc ASAP
2) NO MORE EMO POSTS!!
3) NO MORE self hate situations!!
i'm just gonna put my best to everything. and if i still suck, i would simply resign to fate. no one's born perfect eh?
4) OPEN MY EYES and OPEN MY HEART.
looking back into the past, realised many things i've missed. Beautiful things are everywhere, i just need to discover them, right? My heart tells me the wrong things sometimes, but well, theres always my friends to help me judge eh? whats right and whats wrong.....
5) MOVE ON.
lingering in the past way too often. mistakes made, damage done. so, lesson learnt?
6) GPA 4+
this is to pull up my really cui GPA from last sem. Therefore, no more late nights, no more intensives trainings, no more stoning, and most imptantly, no more sleeping in lectures and tutorials. NO MORE. pinch me everytime i do sleep okayyy?!?!?!?!!?! AUNTIE U SEE THIS!? wake me up everytime i sleep!!!!!!!
7) Regain my patience.
too much adrenaline rush my bro says. Increasingly combustable. stayed away from home for too long i suppose. been popping back now and then lately so that i don't forget how i survived my 18 years at home. i get angry easily lately, at myself only actually. I am still nice, but not a push over anymore. (:
hmm... cant seem to think of anymore at the moment. LAST but not least be HAPPY? hahhas, not a huge problem since i find amusement in anything. oh!!! and dance dance revolution is actually quite fun. i wanna secretly go play again. and Alvin is damnnn zai !!! oh! Alvin just reminded me of the movie i wanna watch!!!!!! we need to watch it soon!!!! school is starting!!!!!!
IHG and Sentosa totally burned me. I miss my voice!!!!!!! It was gone yesterday. now i'm left with a really husky manly tone. wonder what my voice will become... i don't mind having a less kiddy voice ! so lets hope i retain a little bit of the bass tone after this cough. my physique and my voice totally label me as a kid please. hahaha. I AM NOT.
i want nice music. so please spam with songs aight?!?!??!!?!?
OH . sudden urge to play dai di. hahahaha.
9am foyer tmr
training at hall 2
match at 2
go home after match?
mmmm..... i need to get a few things done, but my mum will so kill me if she see me burnt like this. HAO HAO HAO???
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
if the the cycle's coming to an end.
its not a bad thing really.
so much destruction done, the world's crumbling.
well, let it crumble.
lets give nature a break.
hit the restart button in 2 years , and recover the beauty of plains.
not a bad idea.
at least we end this journey together.
living is the process of dying.
its just what we do while we wait.
some chose to help others reach their destination, faster.
and some try hard to prevent from reaching.
all futile, I would say.
if the prophecy is true, well then, i'd be happy to reach my destination with everyone else,
together.
it is good to have a deadline set,
so we know what we want to accomplish.
so that we do not leave regret.
live like tmr's the last day people!!!!!!
Carpe diem !!!
so much destruction done, the world's crumbling.
well, let it crumble.
lets give nature a break.
hit the restart button in 2 years , and recover the beauty of plains.
not a bad idea.
at least we end this journey together.
living is the process of dying.
its just what we do while we wait.
some chose to help others reach their destination, faster.
and some try hard to prevent from reaching.
all futile, I would say.
if the prophecy is true, well then, i'd be happy to reach my destination with everyone else,
together.
it is good to have a deadline set,
so we know what we want to accomplish.
so that we do not leave regret.
live like tmr's the last day people!!!!!!
Carpe diem !!!
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Merry Xmas eve!!
Omgggg interruption from a text so wht I typed dint get saved!! Urgh lol oh well laterrrrr den! Till nw , have fun this Xmas eve!! Enjoy the lights at town nw cause this may be the second last Xmas with lights or even Everrrr!
Test test
Found an app for blogger! Dunno if it works though! If it actually does I'll blog more often! Hahaha
Turning in soon!! After a chapter (: nighty nights !!
ME
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
爱不单行(插曲)
海派甜心插曲 - 愛不單行(羅志祥)
愛不單行
找不到人說
心裡的寂寞
找不到人懂
怕黑的折磨
找不到命中注定
在一起的那个人
很多人都像我
一個人過生活
愛 只有簡單筆畫
卻比想像複雜
恨安定愛變化
我愛過幾個人
也被愛過幾遍
卻還是沒能將幸福留下
愛 是不可数的嗎
為何我還相信
它不是獨行俠
我在等一個人
在等我的永恒
告訴我 愛不單行
別害怕用不完身邊
氾濫的自由
開始怕孤單
是一種詛咒
羨慕我能飛的人
為何在天黑以後
還是寧願回到
愛情那個枷鎖
愛 只有簡單筆劃
卻比想像複雜
恨安定愛變化我愛過幾個人
也被愛過幾遍卻還是沒能
將幸福留下
愛 是不可数的嗎
為何我還相信
它不是獨行俠
我在等一個人
在等我的永恒
告訴我 愛不單行 別害怕
我在等一個人
在等我的永恒
告訴我 愛不單行 別害怕
我在等一個人
在等我的永恒 告訴我
愛不單行 相信它
愛不單行
找不到人說
心裡的寂寞
找不到人懂
怕黑的折磨
找不到命中注定
在一起的那个人
很多人都像我
一個人過生活
愛 只有簡單筆畫
卻比想像複雜
恨安定愛變化
我愛過幾個人
也被愛過幾遍
卻還是沒能將幸福留下
愛 是不可数的嗎
為何我還相信
它不是獨行俠
我在等一個人
在等我的永恒
告訴我 愛不單行
別害怕用不完身邊
氾濫的自由
開始怕孤單
是一種詛咒
羨慕我能飛的人
為何在天黑以後
還是寧願回到
愛情那個枷鎖
愛 只有簡單筆劃
卻比想像複雜
恨安定愛變化我愛過幾個人
也被愛過幾遍卻還是沒能
將幸福留下
愛 是不可数的嗎
為何我還相信
它不是獨行俠
我在等一個人
在等我的永恒
告訴我 愛不單行 別害怕
我在等一個人
在等我的永恒
告訴我 愛不單行 別害怕
我在等一個人
在等我的永恒 告訴我
愛不單行 相信它
Saturday, December 5, 2009
sigh oh sigh, why oh why.
I'm in a super URGH mood now. =(
my mum's nt helping. you girls know what I mean. haiz.
Faith must be off in korea right now.
SY back soon..
BUIN YOU'LL LEAVE SOON TOO.. HAOOOOOOOOO..?!?!??!?!?!
finished twilight and i really wanna get my hands on new moon soon!!!!!
bringing two of cecelia's new books back to hall to emo with me
these books are not doing much good to me.
except leaving me to swoon and croon at every little detail. haiz
can only read them off from books, watch them on screen.
dream a little dream, not wishing to wake sometimes..
i had bad luck for 19 years and still on going....
so god, it better be good when it comes.
or are u just not gonna let it happen. ):
most of us are feeling the same eh? i feel you girls, totally.
hahaha, 骏！！I suddenly rmbed our suntec water fountain pact. lol. i forgot what date it was alrdy luh. xmas eve?! was it 5 years or 10 years? lol!
the sky's turning dark... don't think i'm gonna shop alrdy..
so not in the mood pls. will some nice angel sprinkle some happy dust on me please?!
i prolly need a bucketful. sigh. okayyy. i'll go bask myself in more books..
ciao~
my mum's nt helping. you girls know what I mean. haiz.
Faith must be off in korea right now.
SY back soon..
BUIN YOU'LL LEAVE SOON TOO.. HAOOOOOOOOO..?!?!??!?!?!
finished twilight and i really wanna get my hands on new moon soon!!!!!
bringing two of cecelia's new books back to hall to emo with me
these books are not doing much good to me.
except leaving me to swoon and croon at every little detail. haiz
can only read them off from books, watch them on screen.
dream a little dream, not wishing to wake sometimes..
i had bad luck for 19 years and still on going....
so god, it better be good when it comes.
or are u just not gonna let it happen. ):
most of us are feeling the same eh? i feel you girls, totally.
hahaha, 骏！！I suddenly rmbed our suntec water fountain pact. lol. i forgot what date it was alrdy luh. xmas eve?! was it 5 years or 10 years? lol!
the sky's turning dark... don't think i'm gonna shop alrdy..
so not in the mood pls. will some nice angel sprinkle some happy dust on me please?!
i prolly need a bucketful. sigh. okayyy. i'll go bask myself in more books..
ciao~
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
SWEET LIBERATION
WHEEEEEEE!! NO MORE READINGS AND LECTURE NOTES , FOR NOW AT LEAST. HAHAHAHHAHAHAA
SPENT THE FIRST 2 DAYS OF FREEDOM WITH LINGUISTS! caught 2012 like finallyyyyyyyyy.... i kinda believe that the world is coming to an end. so, anyone interested in building a space shuttle or vessel?? Went shopping with da girls todayyyyyyyy... miss town! HAHAH. thought the girls were quite bored initially since i was the only one trying stuffs at first. hahah!!!! well... gonna post some random pics !!!!!!!! so i dun have to type so much. wahhahahaha
SPENT THE FIRST 2 DAYS OF FREEDOM WITH LINGUISTS! caught 2012 like finallyyyyyyyyy.... i kinda believe that the world is coming to an end. so, anyone interested in building a space shuttle or vessel?? Went shopping with da girls todayyyyyyyy... miss town! HAHAH. thought the girls were quite bored initially since i was the only one trying stuffs at first. hahah!!!! well... gonna post some random pics !!!!!!!! so i dun have to type so much. wahhahahaha
the giant bowl noodle thats making me uncomfortable now... ):
this is the uber cool HK milk tea that has dry ice in the hole in the flask. hahaha. feels like science experiment.. 
everyone busily taking photos of this cool thing. hahaha
The best attempt out of many.. lol.
two of us!!!!!!
leen and min
min and sy!
MIN!
pretty seohying! credits : stylist - MY MUM!
hehe. my new book case!!!(: LUV IT. gonna fill it up with books.. ^_^
my bro claimed that this is very artistic. LOL!!!! uber unglam pls... hahahaha
damnn nice! they're made up of bears !!!! @ TAKA (:
MUGGING AT AIRPORT WITH ANGELAAAA XD
WE CONCLUDED THIS LOOKS LIKE ME. HAHAHA. sleepyyy
the cookie monster tts constantly abused by me everytime i see it. hahahahah
MY VERY OWN CUP (:THATS ALL FOLKS! HAHAHAHA
Thursday, November 26, 2009
AHHHHHHHHH
LOL. i really cannot rmb which day we're supposed to meet again!!!!!! hahahahaha pls do not kill me! had an amazing time yesterday yo!!!!!!! Happiest day since dunno when!! and guess what, the laughing bug latched itself on me when i got home.. i laughed nonnnn stop, nearly thought i was gonna get a heart attack. HEART not HARD.
HAHAHAS, and my bro found out where the snow flake came from... it was from my strap =.= made us happy for nothing! lol!!!! and my mum is very against me going to Tokyo.. haiz... still trying to persuade her, but i may just get the ticket first and see how. HAHAH. AMAZING FOOOOOOD HERE I COMEEEE!!!!!!!! and i can visit my cousin!!! gonna let her know soon, so she can join in the persuading squad. exams are coming to an end.. it almost feels like the end, because i'm not in any mood to mug. NOT ANY AT ALL. its a friday and i feel like going out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i will, but just dunno where. BOOHOOO. its like half the population will be out there on the streets cause its a public holiday. ahhhhhh!!! KITTY LAB!! angela gng with her mum , bro going with gf.. AHHHH i wanna go toooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my left eye lid still wouldnt stop twitching ever since i woke up... some mega mega good thing gonna happen ?!!???! Like someone gonna drop me a 5 million cheque so i can stop studying? lol. or am i gonna bump in to the man of my dreams later? hahahahha. wishful thinking on my part here, but at the rate its twitching, it feels like a mega good thing. LOL. This entry is full of exclaimation marks and ahhhh, and hahahhas. lol!!!!! and lol. OMGGG. BFF!! LOVE U DEEP DEEP!!! I DINT GET ENOUGH HUGS YESTERDAY.. ): ROOOMIE!!!! MISS YOU SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH !!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAS, and my bro found out where the snow flake came from... it was from my strap =.= made us happy for nothing! lol!!!! and my mum is very against me going to Tokyo.. haiz... still trying to persuade her, but i may just get the ticket first and see how. HAHAH. AMAZING FOOOOOOD HERE I COMEEEE!!!!!!!! and i can visit my cousin!!! gonna let her know soon, so she can join in the persuading squad. exams are coming to an end.. it almost feels like the end, because i'm not in any mood to mug. NOT ANY AT ALL. its a friday and i feel like going out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i will, but just dunno where. BOOHOOO. its like half the population will be out there on the streets cause its a public holiday. ahhhhhh!!! KITTY LAB!! angela gng with her mum , bro going with gf.. AHHHH i wanna go toooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my left eye lid still wouldnt stop twitching ever since i woke up... some mega mega good thing gonna happen ?!!???! Like someone gonna drop me a 5 million cheque so i can stop studying? lol. or am i gonna bump in to the man of my dreams later? hahahahha. wishful thinking on my part here, but at the rate its twitching, it feels like a mega good thing. LOL. This entry is full of exclaimation marks and ahhhh, and hahahhas. lol!!!!! and lol. OMGGG. BFF!! LOVE U DEEP DEEP!!! I DINT GET ENOUGH HUGS YESTERDAY.. ): ROOOMIE!!!! MISS YOU SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH !!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, November 14, 2009
sighh.....
unrequited er, not love but i don't know what. HAHAH
and I still couldn't quite figure out what was the factor of attraction.. hmmms.
whyyyyy......
I'm just rambling for the sake of 2 people owight?!??! pls start feeling honoured. LOL
and roomie i love you too!! cant wait for movie marathon!! hahaha!
and i thought i'll meet you today my wife!! its been how long since we last met!?!?!??! like 100 years?? yi ri bu jian ge san qiu??? lol. forgot how its used alrdy. but i hope u understood that line! LOL!! but i think not. I MISS YOU BIGGIE TIME. hoping for the best for ur As yeahh!! so u can come NTU too!!! oh and BUIN! can u pls link urself and tag me?!?!?!? ^^ (lol. link yourself and tag me sounds like some orientation game. HAHAHAH) =>>> sorry about the self amusement. i think i can set up my own amusement park tt no one else will find fun except ME! LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok, self amusement got me a little high, but i still don't know what wrong i'm feeling right now, so i decide i shld go sleep soooon
unrequited er, not love but i don't know what. HAHAH
and I still couldn't quite figure out what was the factor of attraction.. hmmms.
whyyyyy......
I'm just rambling for the sake of 2 people owight?!??! pls start feeling honoured. LOL
and roomie i love you too!! cant wait for movie marathon!! hahaha!
and i thought i'll meet you today my wife!! its been how long since we last met!?!?!??! like 100 years?? yi ri bu jian ge san qiu??? lol. forgot how its used alrdy. but i hope u understood that line! LOL!! but i think not. I MISS YOU BIGGIE TIME. hoping for the best for ur As yeahh!! so u can come NTU too!!! oh and BUIN! can u pls link urself and tag me?!?!?!? ^^ (lol. link yourself and tag me sounds like some orientation game. HAHAHAH) =>>> sorry about the self amusement. i think i can set up my own amusement park tt no one else will find fun except ME! LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok, self amusement got me a little high, but i still don't know what wrong i'm feeling right now, so i decide i shld go sleep soooon
Friday, October 16, 2009
I DECLARE MYSELF UNPROFICIENT IN ENGLISH.
I feel remorse when i look back at my past blog entries.
It speaks of incoherence and bad english.
grossed out, i seriously needa attend language classes eh.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. and Tanzania is driving me mad!!
the deadline is pressing, but im still at 0/2500
EXCRETA!!!!!!
I feel remorse when i look back at my past blog entries.
It speaks of incoherence and bad english.
grossed out, i seriously needa attend language classes eh.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. and Tanzania is driving me mad!!
the deadline is pressing, but im still at 0/2500
EXCRETA!!!!!!
Thursday, October 8, 2009
its surprising how i feel like blogging now. Especially when i was trying sooo hard to produce that 1200 words essay. dosent' seem like alot for me last time I suppose. Guess I lost touch of Lit, or rather writing in General. OH well, this is the first individual assignment i've done since school started. And I would say it is pure mental exhaustion. Constantly looking at the word count and wonder " oh god, when is this gonna end?!?!" Used to love poems, not like i don't now, but not at the moment. it kinda scares me right now. hahahaha. cause i had been staring at the lines, over and over , over and over, trying to churn out something original. It was i would say, something quite original, since my puny brain work a different way from the others. somewhat twisted. HAHAH. Poem was the section where we usually score in school thanks to benevolent Mrs Teo, yes we all love her! Especially after receving Othelo and King Lear essays, I always feel like going over to Mrs Teo and give her a warm hug for the encouragement she gives in her marking.
Many more assignments to go! Can foresee more nerve wrecking sleepless nights. oh sigh oh sigh. My nose is still leaking perpetually. Keep sneezing i keep keep sneezing phglem. okay. that was a really bad attempt. HAHAHAHA. woops.
Here I am, looking damn cui, in my comfy teddy print PJ that my roomie dared me to wear out and parade at my block with the hall queen sash. ( no of course i did not. )but the thought of it was freaking hilarious. HAHAHAHAA!!!!!!!! i feel so cui.......
a little hungry, but no appetite and got no idea what to eat. Getting reall sick of fish soup already. its been just soup, soup and soup lately. wheres my oreo cheese cake??!!!! Thanks to Mr Poh and seohying, who has been constantly talking about food. i have many many cravings. LOL. like moist chocolate fudge cake and oreo cheese cake, oh dear, mega fattening!!!!! The food machines NEVER fail to bring up food in the conversation.
on a serious note, i've been reflecting a little, thinking a little....
about regrets. It seemed that we often do not treasure the things and people arouund us. we take things for granted, and we start to feel the pinch only when we find that, hey, its no longer around... they're no longer around... and we start to think of the what-might-have-beens, but its all too late isn't it?? we needa open up our eyes and see, oh no ,that wouldn't be enough, open up your eyes and feel for yourself, what we need to treasure, and appreciate them.
I'm somewhat passive. ok, quite passive, I realised. Inferiority complex still kicks in, every single time. I'm a walking contradition, thinking a step a head, and end up not doing anything due to fear. Perhaps i really need that pill; the confidence booster that i know, will not fail.
I feel my nature degradating somehow, after writing my essay. i condemn and critique, but i belong to the human race that i often criticise. We bastardise each other yes, and me myself, I'm part of this debasement. People may look prettier, but in fact, with each time of obsession and narcissism, we forget what others may need from us, and we turn into egoistic freaks who see no one but themselves. [did i go too far off again? ]
she sings a solitary song.
reaching out to the place where she belong.
The coarse voice is calling out,
gradually turned into shouts.
Yet no one hears any sound.
from that little girl who crouched.
pale cold white fingers,
that willed to be held.
yet no one was there to save her.
the door remained shut.
who remembered that little girl?
i think she never returned.
Yet no one bothers to search,
whatever shes left behind.
no ones got any idea what lurked.
what went through her mind.
Into the dark,
alone she was sent.
like a mail,
with no address
Many more assignments to go! Can foresee more nerve wrecking sleepless nights. oh sigh oh sigh. My nose is still leaking perpetually. Keep sneezing i keep keep sneezing phglem. okay. that was a really bad attempt. HAHAHAHA. woops.
Here I am, looking damn cui, in my comfy teddy print PJ that my roomie dared me to wear out and parade at my block with the hall queen sash. ( no of course i did not. )but the thought of it was freaking hilarious. HAHAHAHAA!!!!!!!! i feel so cui.......
a little hungry, but no appetite and got no idea what to eat. Getting reall sick of fish soup already. its been just soup, soup and soup lately. wheres my oreo cheese cake??!!!! Thanks to Mr Poh and seohying, who has been constantly talking about food. i have many many cravings. LOL. like moist chocolate fudge cake and oreo cheese cake, oh dear, mega fattening!!!!! The food machines NEVER fail to bring up food in the conversation.
on a serious note, i've been reflecting a little, thinking a little....
about regrets. It seemed that we often do not treasure the things and people arouund us. we take things for granted, and we start to feel the pinch only when we find that, hey, its no longer around... they're no longer around... and we start to think of the what-might-have-beens, but its all too late isn't it?? we needa open up our eyes and see, oh no ,that wouldn't be enough, open up your eyes and feel for yourself, what we need to treasure, and appreciate them.
I'm somewhat passive. ok, quite passive, I realised. Inferiority complex still kicks in, every single time. I'm a walking contradition, thinking a step a head, and end up not doing anything due to fear. Perhaps i really need that pill; the confidence booster that i know, will not fail.
I feel my nature degradating somehow, after writing my essay. i condemn and critique, but i belong to the human race that i often criticise. We bastardise each other yes, and me myself, I'm part of this debasement. People may look prettier, but in fact, with each time of obsession and narcissism, we forget what others may need from us, and we turn into egoistic freaks who see no one but themselves. [did i go too far off again? ]
she sings a solitary song.
reaching out to the place where she belong.
The coarse voice is calling out,
gradually turned into shouts.
Yet no one hears any sound.
from that little girl who crouched.
pale cold white fingers,
that willed to be held.
yet no one was there to save her.
the door remained shut.
who remembered that little girl?
i think she never returned.
Yet no one bothers to search,
whatever shes left behind.
no ones got any idea what lurked.
what went through her mind.
Into the dark,
alone she was sent.
like a mail,
with no address
Friday, September 11, 2009
Home.
Found my background a little too emo.
Change of colours!!! hope it changes my mood as well.
chionging starts later!!!!
time flies by like the snitch. and i'm no harry potter.
So i'm gonna find back the momentum and chase after lost time yeah.
just woke up if you notice the incoherrence in my rambling.
only reached home at bout 4 plus, had lunch, washed up abit and i flopped on my bed and died.
yupp. gonna dive in again to charge a little more before i start on work!!
weehee. love my bed totally (: the bed at hall gives me backaches everytime......
and not to mention insomnia. been tossing and turning for the past few nights.
despite turning in at bout 3am I still find myself inching about and gasping for air.
My sinus aint helping me breathe better.....i need my aircon (oh dear, i sound like a B.I.M.B.O! )
HTHT quite a bit with seohying. (: we're really quite similar in some ways. we'll really get sick of each other by the end of sem 1. HAHAHAHA.
Adm is an amazing place at night ! Jupitor was damn clearrrrr.... the moon turned red. don't think its the right way to see it but, it turned oranged literally. seeing is believing, in a way?
been on an emotional rollercoaster, didn't feel quite nice..
still a hollow shell..
neither here nor there.....
i don't understand myself at all.......
Wheres the bird girl?? perhaps, the epiphany will come soon?
Change of colours!!! hope it changes my mood as well.
chionging starts later!!!!
time flies by like the snitch. and i'm no harry potter.
So i'm gonna find back the momentum and chase after lost time yeah.
just woke up if you notice the incoherrence in my rambling.
only reached home at bout 4 plus, had lunch, washed up abit and i flopped on my bed and died.
yupp. gonna dive in again to charge a little more before i start on work!!
weehee. love my bed totally (: the bed at hall gives me backaches everytime......
and not to mention insomnia. been tossing and turning for the past few nights.
despite turning in at bout 3am I still find myself inching about and gasping for air.
My sinus aint helping me breathe better.....i need my aircon (oh dear, i sound like a B.I.M.B.O! )
HTHT quite a bit with seohying. (: we're really quite similar in some ways. we'll really get sick of each other by the end of sem 1. HAHAHAHA.
Adm is an amazing place at night ! Jupitor was damn clearrrrr.... the moon turned red. don't think its the right way to see it but, it turned oranged literally. seeing is believing, in a way?
been on an emotional rollercoaster, didn't feel quite nice..
still a hollow shell..
neither here nor there.....
i don't understand myself at all.......
Wheres the bird girl?? perhaps, the epiphany will come soon?
Friday, August 28, 2009
Running towards death
Eyes closed, we cry, bloody.
we crawl and beg, waiting to be fed.
the race is started, rampage begins.
run, run, run, run.
are we all caught in a trance?
the frenzy, it turns us ugly.
angels to demons, all too depressing.
run, run, run, run.
oh I see some casualties.
who’s there with the first aid kit?
please someone stop the bleed.
the destination, we’ve finally reached,
Eyes closed, we cry, bloody.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
MY DARLINGGS….
man, grey skies land me in emo mode.
miss all my darlings……
BFF BUIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its been a thousand light years since I last saw you!!!!!! I want my HUGGGGGG!!!!!! *sobs*
SLOTH!!!!! lunch has yet to materialize!!! so hard to get 4 of us together!!! X|
Just met up with the girls and some 4I guys yesterday!! now that i’ve shifted to the other corner of the island im excluded from weekday night activities!! but not like i can join them even when i’m in my own crib. house rules are still pretty stringent on me.
oh oh! brb if i can, seems like most pple are dropping their elecs now!!!!!!!!! Ja~
Friday, August 14, 2009
RESURRECTION.
Let me inject a little bit of life in here. HAHAHA. I feel damn sad for my blog luh!!! its completely non-existent already.
I’m back to school. Full fledged student now!! Tendered resignation as a full time parasite, finally.
Been through HSS camp and Hall Camp. And Sorry to CAC and my dad, who allowed me to shred the 50 Dollar bill so that I could rejuvenate and avoid another fright night. Didn’t got for the Hall camp’s one either , thankfully. If not Faiz would have had a very very bad time. HAHAH. HALL CAMP WAS GREAT! ^_^ met very nice but HUMSUP(just the girls, trust me) people. Came back home yesterday night, and the journey was really really really long……… but i slept more than half the time, so before i knew it, i was home. Was feeling damn cold in my house tee and FBT thanks to air-con and on top of that i was running a 38.8 degrees fever that day. Couldn’t join in BBALL but managed to catch up with Manda! Toured around NIE to search for her locker. So we managed to talk a little (: Its been Eons since i met Elaine. Faith and I are bounded together for a few more years. hahaha. SORRY FAITH! Don’t get too bored of me. HAHAHAH.
Was just hearing my past singing before i attended lessons, hahah, kinda different now i guess. last time was purely bad imitation. lol. now, perhaps a little more stable?? but the sweetness in the voice is gone… ): now i sound like some coarse haggard ah ma singing. LOL! okay, bad description. HAHAHA, long awaited K session is finally here! kinda sian to scramble back to the other corner of the Island. but well, Singapore is really tiny on the map, so lets just try not to complain about travelling. (yeah right, theres a reason why I’m paying 160 a mth.) okay . digressiondigressiondigression, guess its just me, easily distracted!! hahaha.
Oh well, that was just an attempt to revive my blog that was thirsty and starved for some form of literature. Updates on my life will be on FB anyway. hehs.
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Friday, June 12, 2009
Being present don't signify one's presence.
As I was pondering if I should attend the common class gathering, my gastric did not stop reminding me that i should eat more regularly. Nor did my mum forget to cough a few times to remind me as well, that she is STILL sick. Though, I am definitely sure it is no where as bad as the ruckus she raked up in my mind when she told me she couldn't even make it to the toilet that is just 2 steps away from her bed. My close friends would perhaps know a little of her condition and how needy she can get, but this morning, it really felt quite bad. And later on, while she got better with some catching up with sleep, i was squeezing out air reluctantly with constant hiccups from my gastric disorders. It has been quite some time since i experienced this kind of gastric discomfort already, and after hearing of Faith's sudden attack on the gastrics, mine came along, poking me in the ribs, telling me "pay me some freakin attention!". No, i'm definitely not as needy as my mum, and i always try to avoid the clinic. it seems like a forbidden word in my dictionary, with red neon light flashing in this 6-letter term. I would tell myself "it will go away with time and good rest" and ignore the usual persuasions to visit the doctor. No, no, I wouldn't give in.
Don't know if Faith went to the airport on her own, since she didn't reply my text. but well, morning was chaotic, the constant hiccuping and mopping the floor at the same time drained up alot of my energy. Brunch came at about 11:15 and lunch at 3pm , irregular yet routine for my family most of the time. Sunk in my swivel chair and started Naruto-ing right after brunch. Naruto, though as stupid as it sounds, is actually one of the best anime i would say. I wasn't all that into the action initially but I got captivated with the many stories, emotions and values behind all these drawings. For those who used to despise this Anime at its name (like what i used to do) , i beg you to difer. watch the first few episodes and boy, i'm pretty sure you'll be engaged in a marathon like me. [its 2:15 now! and my eyelids are nowhere near 500g !the insomnia drones on... ]
If you were wondering, the first 2 paragraphs didn't seem to go into picture with the header. Its a line I had been pondering for today, regarding the class gathering at night that was supposed to be a belated celebratory dinner for Jervis. Don't get me wrong, theres nothing wrong with the people, really. i see them as hot blooded youths, that cant help but amuse me in their very own unique ways. We had known each other since Secondary 1 for some and for others along the way through my secondary school life. They were my Secondary 3 and 4 classmates, a group of people that walked through my youthful days. I was nothing more than a tiny olive off this foot long wich. The tiny olive, branded under the "standard veg", little in quantity and pretty bland, not very pleasing to the eye, but is there because its part of the "standard" . Something that people would neglect or forget if it werent part of the sandwich. Whereas, the angry customer will complain if one day, the sandwich has its turkey breasts missing, or when the ham is not there. People care more about the main gists of the whole thing, the more bizzare ones, the louder ones. who gives any shit about the left out olives or pickles? all they probably need, is the meat of the lunch, and some standard vege to along with.
Therefore, the olive wonder, if its needed, why does it try to be part of the sandwich, when in the end, it don't matter at all. At the same time, it could be hidden within the lettuce. snuggling tight and safe in the comfort zone, with its mild taste, trying to blend into the overpowering meaty bite. It is all too hard on the olive. Maybe, one day, the olive will simply be eradicated off the menu. to cut cost they say. since being present didn't really signify its very own presence and participation. In case you're thinking in your mind, oh dear, Eileen is craving for subway right now. let me remind my dear friends that i can count the number of times i dine there with my bare hands.
time check, its 2:39, i bet the tea/coffee is on night shift now, and it will claim its pay tomorrow, with my unstoppable yawns and teary eyes. Its been so long since i actually sat down and type. so consider this "trying-to-get-to-sleep-by-killing-some-kinetic and brain cells" period, a time to refresh, and get myself back on touch with writing. Something that I had not done, other than annotating my music scores every sunday. I should at least make the effort to blog everyday with the amount of free time i have on hand shouldn't i ? or at least some pre-study would help my pursue of language perhaps a little less taxing. maybe just that teeney weeney, but up till date, the books my beloved brother gladly shoved me are still untouched and waiting to be discovered.
Its getting late. the WEEEEE hours, i should attempt fighting the adrenaline pumping from the caffine i took in a few hours ago and get to sleep. so long, whoever that reads my blog. i'll put my laptop to sleep, and try to get a few winks on my own. nightey nights! i'll be back tomorrow, i hope (:
Don't know if Faith went to the airport on her own, since she didn't reply my text. but well, morning was chaotic, the constant hiccuping and mopping the floor at the same time drained up alot of my energy. Brunch came at about 11:15 and lunch at 3pm , irregular yet routine for my family most of the time. Sunk in my swivel chair and started Naruto-ing right after brunch. Naruto, though as stupid as it sounds, is actually one of the best anime i would say. I wasn't all that into the action initially but I got captivated with the many stories, emotions and values behind all these drawings. For those who used to despise this Anime at its name (like what i used to do) , i beg you to difer. watch the first few episodes and boy, i'm pretty sure you'll be engaged in a marathon like me. [its 2:15 now! and my eyelids are nowhere near 500g !the insomnia drones on... ]
If you were wondering, the first 2 paragraphs didn't seem to go into picture with the header. Its a line I had been pondering for today, regarding the class gathering at night that was supposed to be a belated celebratory dinner for Jervis. Don't get me wrong, theres nothing wrong with the people, really. i see them as hot blooded youths, that cant help but amuse me in their very own unique ways. We had known each other since Secondary 1 for some and for others along the way through my secondary school life. They were my Secondary 3 and 4 classmates, a group of people that walked through my youthful days. I was nothing more than a tiny olive off this foot long wich. The tiny olive, branded under the "standard veg", little in quantity and pretty bland, not very pleasing to the eye, but is there because its part of the "standard" . Something that people would neglect or forget if it werent part of the sandwich. Whereas, the angry customer will complain if one day, the sandwich has its turkey breasts missing, or when the ham is not there. People care more about the main gists of the whole thing, the more bizzare ones, the louder ones. who gives any shit about the left out olives or pickles? all they probably need, is the meat of the lunch, and some standard vege to along with.
Therefore, the olive wonder, if its needed, why does it try to be part of the sandwich, when in the end, it don't matter at all. At the same time, it could be hidden within the lettuce. snuggling tight and safe in the comfort zone, with its mild taste, trying to blend into the overpowering meaty bite. It is all too hard on the olive. Maybe, one day, the olive will simply be eradicated off the menu. to cut cost they say. since being present didn't really signify its very own presence and participation. In case you're thinking in your mind, oh dear, Eileen is craving for subway right now. let me remind my dear friends that i can count the number of times i dine there with my bare hands.
time check, its 2:39, i bet the tea/coffee is on night shift now, and it will claim its pay tomorrow, with my unstoppable yawns and teary eyes. Its been so long since i actually sat down and type. so consider this "trying-to-get-to-sleep-by-killing-some-kinetic and brain cells" period, a time to refresh, and get myself back on touch with writing. Something that I had not done, other than annotating my music scores every sunday. I should at least make the effort to blog everyday with the amount of free time i have on hand shouldn't i ? or at least some pre-study would help my pursue of language perhaps a little less taxing. maybe just that teeney weeney, but up till date, the books my beloved brother gladly shoved me are still untouched and waiting to be discovered.
Its getting late. the WEEEEE hours, i should attempt fighting the adrenaline pumping from the caffine i took in a few hours ago and get to sleep. so long, whoever that reads my blog. i'll put my laptop to sleep, and try to get a few winks on my own. nightey nights! i'll be back tomorrow, i hope (:
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Unemployed again.
out of job again. cash is running low. i NEED a job. however. with such little time left on hand, there isnt much choices, or rather, there isnt any, when i see (Min 3 mth/6 mth contracts) . got pretty frustrated. especially with my needy mum’s constant nagging and laments. she tries to sound like she understand, and compare her nowhere similar situations with mine, and complaining that we get more money than her, where in fact, i don’t see how she gets to spend them anyway. oh, and good point she made, saying that we do less work at home than her. amazing how she can manage to even say it so blatantly. my gastrics is working up again…… urgh.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Employed, Finally.
Its been a while, as usual. Firstly, today’s the 10th May, Happy Mother’s Day. The day is gonna end perhaps at my very last few lines of this post. Anyway, yes, like what my title informs, I’m employed. Many thanks to Sembawang music who took a risk and hired someone with apparently zero experience especially in the service sector. People at work are pretty nice, taught me a lot. From stock taking to cashiering. Even learnt how to record the settlement of the day. It is not a job to be despised, the service sector require not only a positive attitude, but also knowledge of the specific field you are required at. This is my first “stable” job, so you can imagine the pay i’m getting. Its really, skimpy, a mere 1K a month, and not to neglect the fact that CPF has not been deducted yet. All in all, the pay is really pathetic for the amount of work i do. sobs sobs sobs. there are many stories at work i’d love to share if not for the newly constituted rule for me; Lights out at 2330, apparently worse than the NS men I suppose. If you’re wondering who in the world imposed this on a nineteen year old, the answer is right at the top of my post.
For now , Ciao.
sweet dreams.
Friday, April 24, 2009
Dead, Alive and Dead again…
The red glove pumps its fist, with momentum and rhythm like a death march. Dull, solemn and lifeless.
That is, if you put my current lifestyle on a chart… It will be a stream line with occasional flickers and inclining gradients, and nothing else. My life monitor, constantly reminding me to keep it up and beating again… To no avail, though.
Forgot the last time I blogged properly, simply because there is nothing going on. Nothing worth of mention. Oh, my bulb flickered up there, reminding me I should at least bring up the passion in my life, Singing. I forgot when I started minding, started thinking about every note I sing and being conscious of it, not to let it go OFF. In addition to my big fat blank on my romance page, I hear, I see , I feel no soul in my voice. Perhaps just an empty imitation that is not even up to mark. My emotions, once so overpowering and overbearing, nest on a funnel. Draining away, seep, trickle , gone.
Ok, back to the monotonous tune, (This reminds me of “Past Midnight” , and why do I bring up Boey?!) Having a tuition session for the first time in my entire life of approximately 18 and a half years, as a teacher instead of the previous salutation I had bore for another half of my life. Woops, did it go too serious? FYI, I am just doing a relief job for 2 lessons through Elaine’s recommendation. THANKS GIRL! . OWE YOU ONE. BUT, I do hope I wouldn’t be out to disgrace anyone. After all, this is my virgin attempt, and still has no idea what i’ll be doing. When I told my mum i’ll be helping out in English, she shot me the very dubious “are-you-serious” look and quickly reminded me of the pain of getting an E for the damned general paper. Oh well , I don’t know. I doubt myself most of the time, and still am waiting for that confident side of me to emerge . Maybe its just crouching in one corner, locked and chained up , awaiting for the right epiphany. MAYBE?
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Loveless
Prologue
When the war of the beasts brings about the world’s end
The goddess descends from the sky
Wings of light and dark spread afar
She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting
Act I
Infinite in mystery is the gift of the goddess
We seek it thus, and take to the sky
Ripples form on the water’s surface
The wandering soul knows no rest.
Act II
There is no hate, only joy
For you are beloved by the goddess
Hero of the dawn, Healer of worlds
Dreams of the morrow hath the shattered soul
Pride is lost
Wings stripped away, the end is nigh
Act III
My friend, do you fly away now?
To a world that abhors you and I?
All that awaits you is a somber morrow
No matter where the winds may blow
My friend, your desire
Is the bringer of life, the gift of the goddess
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return
Act IV
My friend, the fates are cruel
There are no dreams, no honor remains
The arrow has left the bow of the goddess
My soul, corrupted by vengeance
Hath endured torment, to find the end of the journey
In my own salvation
And your eternal slumber
Legend shall speak
Of sacrifice at world’s end
The wind sails over the water’s surface
Quietly, but surely
Act V
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return
To become the dew that quenches the land
To spare the sands, the seas, the skies
I offer thee this silent sacrifice
Interesting poem . After completing Crisis Core, fragments of this poem still echoes in my head.. Hmmm, wouldn’t it be interesting if schools test on this?! heh…
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Confessions of the drama queen!
Do not be mistaken, I’m not implying that my life will take a turn to some screen-play or anything like that..
BUT, the number of dramas I’ve watched over this holidays is freaking way too many!! I can top the “No. Of Videos Watched” chart already.
Now on my final 2 episodes for Star Lit. The protagonist’s illness has deteriorated, death smells near…… sigh… I’m a sucker for these kinda shows… and after so many tear jerkers and dramas, I’ve learnt to control my “tap” more. hahah. I wouldn’t cry over little little things now. HEH!!! Oh, now it reminds me, Jerry Yan can really act well!! hahah, his acting skills indeed improved alot… At least, hes not just a vase (:
SECRET CODE!!!!!!!!!! HMV better be quick!!!!
I’m singing less and less I realised… Its become something serious, like an everyday assessment, rather than an interest or habit that i used to have…Its getting tiring and stressful…
That passion I used to have, i gotta retrieve it, hold it tightly and not let go… again.
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